Method Tried tourniquet again this morning at 3AM

[LifeIsASadist]

Gave my closest friend (who I never seen IRL) a hint I was going to use my tourniquet and if I faint, I won't stop but I didn't directly tell him I was going to CTB. I put on the tourniquet numerous times and fuck I think my survival instinct still remembers, but I think I have made progress because it felt different from last time I kept failing.

Truly fuck this world, all I wanted was a gf my entire life and now I am only 9 years away from being 30 and it will come before I realize and I hope I successfully CTB before 25. Don't come on here gaslighting how relationships are "overrated" because I just simply won't have that with you, I am not having it anymore.

 

[Wolf Girl]

You're really young and it doesn't make sense to give up this early, but you are an adult and can decide to quit whenever you want. Honestly, I'm in my 30s and my longing for a stable relationship and intimacy is probably what I'm going to ultimately ctb over. Romantic relationships don't fix you or your mental health, but they provide a certain level of emotional and physical intimacy that no other relationship can. There are things and experiences and feelings that you can't access outside of intimate relationships. It sucks for those of us who are less desirable in the modern dating scene, but it's true.

I'm sorry, friend. Truly. I get it.