Venting Tried to open up about my negative thoughts and...

[plskilme]

Tried to open up about my thoughts to my mom after telling her I want to take friday off of work to hang out with my friends and she bitched at me that I'm not making enough money and need to be bringing home more per week and things like that. She fucking told me I should go back on anti-depressants after I opened up about it (kept it lowkey didn't mention that I want to SH and kms). But she always seems to forget that the anti-depressants make me feel 0 emotion at all like neither happy or sad and just keep me in a weird state of nothingness 24/7. Been trying to find a new job for the past 2 years and can't find shit because the job market is so fucking ass. She thinks its all fine and that I'm not trying hard enough to find a new one. I feel like I'm better off dead.

I just dont know what to do anymore with life. I want to give up

 

[Gild-Holm-’Ur]

Everyone deserves a mental health day now and then.

 

[CrawlingInMySkin]

I'm always in that state of nothingness, I feel that. I understand the struggle, mate. I don't really have many people, but I get it... Talking to people about stuff like this is hard, a lot of non suicidal people can be pretty inconsiderate and refuse to understand our struggles... Stay strong, mate, love and peace

 

[plskilme]

I'm always in that state of nothingness, I feel that. I understand the struggle, mate. I don't really have many people, but I get it... Talking to people about stuff like this is hard, a lot of non suicidal people can be pretty inconsiderate and refuse to understand our struggles... Stay strong, mate, love and peace

Getting off the anti-depressants was super good for me at the time. I actually stepped out of my comfort zone after getting on em and made friends outside of the internet. Met them through my town's Pokemon Go group oddly enough.

 

[pk@2001]

Well, it's odd that things that out of our control are so much underestimated...
And being surrounded with ignorant and souless just only adds to our trouble...
It's bad but just don't feel so much low my friend

 

[plskilme]

Well, it's odd that things that out of our control are so much underestimated...
And being surrounded with ignorant and souless just only adds to our trouble...
It's bad but just don't feel so much low my friend

Some days I miss feeling nothing at all. Specifically those nights when I want to break down emotionally and start crying myself to sleep