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Lion84
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- Feb 19, 2020
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Hi guys,
I am new to this forum but i want to share or ventilate my story.
A few years ago my mother did the exit bag method with helium and she died.
I had found her and she left me with a lot of shit. After her dead my girlfriend left me because I was in grief. I was very devestated. I tried to get back on track and i met a new girlfriend. After a few dates i thought that she was betraying me. I became depressed and paranoia about it.
I couldn't sleep anymore because of the stress it was given me. She was lying but i stayed with her because i thought I was paranoia and insane. I couldn't work anymore because i was chronical tired off all the shit. I went to see a psych and she told me I was very depressed. The relation ended and i became very lonely. After some weeks sitting sick home alone I saw that i had a STD. I became very mental sick about it and couldn't sleep anymore. I was going crazy about it and felt a lot off shame. I was very depressed and also became psychosis. I had taken over my mind and i couldn't take it anymore.
I was so crazy that i also tried the exit bag method like my mom. I layed on my bed for 10 minutes and heard the gas flowing into the bag. After 10 minutes the gas cilender was empty. I was angry because it didn't worked. I went to my best friend and I felt little dizzy and strange in my head. My friend was concerned and let me sleep on the couch. The next day i felt still strange in my head and I couldn't remember things as i used to. Then I became very concerned about my mental health. Well long story short. The exit bag method has given me little braindamage. I cant work anymore and I have lost my job. I lost a lot of my money and i also lost my new girlfriend.
I cant go in relationship because i cant get an erection anymore. If i have sex with viagra then the orgasm is numb. I feel nothing anymore. I have been in multiple mental clinics last three years and now i am totally done with this shit life. I want to do suicide only i dont know how. I tried the exit bag multiple times but i doesnt work for me. I tried it with helium and NO. It doesnt work. I also tried pills and alcohol but i went insane and wrecked my nice car.
I also tried the BBQ method but it left me with all black room. Now i am out of ideas. Getting nembutal is impossible so I dont know what to do. I have a rope and it is hanging here and i only have to slip into it but i am afraid of the pain.
Does anyone know a other plan?
I dont want to jump, train or drown myself. I want a gentle death please help me.
And also, please watch out with doing the exit bag method. I didnt know about it and didnt know about the consequences. Now i have little brain damage and i cant live with it.
Sorry for the bad English.
I am new to this forum but i want to share or ventilate my story.
A few years ago my mother did the exit bag method with helium and she died.
I had found her and she left me with a lot of shit. After her dead my girlfriend left me because I was in grief. I was very devestated. I tried to get back on track and i met a new girlfriend. After a few dates i thought that she was betraying me. I became depressed and paranoia about it.
I couldn't sleep anymore because of the stress it was given me. She was lying but i stayed with her because i thought I was paranoia and insane. I couldn't work anymore because i was chronical tired off all the shit. I went to see a psych and she told me I was very depressed. The relation ended and i became very lonely. After some weeks sitting sick home alone I saw that i had a STD. I became very mental sick about it and couldn't sleep anymore. I was going crazy about it and felt a lot off shame. I was very depressed and also became psychosis. I had taken over my mind and i couldn't take it anymore.
I was so crazy that i also tried the exit bag method like my mom. I layed on my bed for 10 minutes and heard the gas flowing into the bag. After 10 minutes the gas cilender was empty. I was angry because it didn't worked. I went to my best friend and I felt little dizzy and strange in my head. My friend was concerned and let me sleep on the couch. The next day i felt still strange in my head and I couldn't remember things as i used to. Then I became very concerned about my mental health. Well long story short. The exit bag method has given me little braindamage. I cant work anymore and I have lost my job. I lost a lot of my money and i also lost my new girlfriend.
I cant go in relationship because i cant get an erection anymore. If i have sex with viagra then the orgasm is numb. I feel nothing anymore. I have been in multiple mental clinics last three years and now i am totally done with this shit life. I want to do suicide only i dont know how. I tried the exit bag multiple times but i doesnt work for me. I tried it with helium and NO. It doesnt work. I also tried pills and alcohol but i went insane and wrecked my nice car.
I also tried the BBQ method but it left me with all black room. Now i am out of ideas. Getting nembutal is impossible so I dont know what to do. I have a rope and it is hanging here and i only have to slip into it but i am afraid of the pain.
Does anyone know a other plan?
I dont want to jump, train or drown myself. I want a gentle death please help me.
And also, please watch out with doing the exit bag method. I didnt know about it and didnt know about the consequences. Now i have little brain damage and i cant live with it.
Sorry for the bad English.