Tried partial today

[Onw9]

SI kicked in.
I used a 6mm rope and I think I did everything right my ligature was tight,and I was starting to feel a little dizzy in 5 sec but I couldn't do it.
Also I felt like I was gonna vomit, so gonna do it in empty stomach next time.
This shit is frustrating

 

[jodes2]

I'm so sorry

FWIW I'm glad you're still with us *hugs*

 

[justwanasleep]

Sorry it didn't work out. If your fully sure you want to do it again what about full suspension? This is what I want to do because there's no going back once your hanging in the air

 

[Onw9]

Sorry it didn't work out. If your fully sure you want to do it again what about full suspension? This is what I want to do because there's no going back once your hanging in the air

I want to do full suspension but there's no place to hang in my house

 

[FuneralCry]

That sounds like such an awful experience. At least to me hanging sounds like a horrible method and it's like the SI exists to prolong our suffering and keep us trapped here in this world. I hate the fact how leaving this world is so difficult, I really envy those who have managed to succeed with hanging, the fear of failure is why I've never attempted this method. If only we lived in a world where we could just exit in a peaceful and reliable way and then we wouldn't have to struggle so much to leave. But I hope that you find the freedom that you wish for.

 

[StrangeAndDeath]

That sounds like such an awful experience. At least to me hanging sounds like a horrible method and it's like the SI exists to prolong our suffering and keep us trapped here in this world. I hate the fact how leaving this world is so difficult, I really envy those who have managed to succeed with hanging, the fear of failure is why I've never attempted this method. If only we lived in a world where we could just exit in a peaceful and reliable way and then we wouldn't have to struggle so much to leave. But I hope that you find the freedom that you wish for.

Yeah. It is... I have tried partial 4 times now. Although on this last time, I was able to figure out how to reduce friction on the rope. This helped it tighten better with less pressure, but it still made my windpipe ache. But I think if I fully commit and can overcome my SI, I could leave this damn world.