As I've posted before, my general and vague plan revolves around taking enough medication to pass out in a body of water. I will not do it in my home because I will not subject my beloved partner to this trauma after everything else he has suffered and will suffer. The idea did occur to me to use a hotel or something of the sort, but that will mean an innocent cleaner or other employee will find the body and suffer this trauma. How do you minimize the suffering of others? I don't want to ruin lives.
I would prefer to execute my plan in a lake or a large body of water so I can at least pretend it is the ocean, since I can't get to the ocean which breaks my heart. But that is much harder to time correctly.
I hate that I have to go. If the healthcare system had just helped me, this wouldn't need to happen. I can still see the beauty of the world, which makes this whole thing so devastating. I wish I had someone to help me through it.
I would prefer to execute my plan in a lake or a large body of water so I can at least pretend it is the ocean, since I can't get to the ocean which breaks my heart. But that is much harder to time correctly.
I hate that I have to go. If the healthcare system had just helped me, this wouldn't need to happen. I can still see the beauty of the world, which makes this whole thing so devastating. I wish I had someone to help me through it.
