Venting trans

[mindless_imp]

In what world is it normal
to constantly yearn for pain?
Ever since I knew I wasn't 'normal',
I have put the blame
on people who have no control.
The fake God above is unforgiving.

In what world is it normal
to constantly wonder why was I built like a faulty machine.
Hoping and begging to the Lie above
that I would carry the gene
that would cease the fat on my chest.
That would finally bestow me dopamine.

In what world is it normal
to constantly wish I were ill?
To get rid of everything on my morsel
that consider me a girl.
the things that make me spiral
until I cannot feel.

In what world is it normal
to constantly ache when I see
Legislators stripping me of my mortal
rights? We just want to be free.
Free to use the toilets we want
But all they desire is their own superiority
over our little marginalised community.


Ty for reading my mid poem I wrote in my notes when I was SHing

 

[strawberry_lemons]

There's a wrongness that's settled in my bones.
I feel like one-half of a whole
Every look in the mirror makes me shudder
The shape of my body is off
I study my form and nitpick the wrongs
The way i dress sends beads of sweat down my neck
I am a phony hiding in plain sight
I will never be believed for whats truly right
For My hollowness is not as heavy
My tears are not as deep
I do not suffer the way others do
My pain is lacking
I could never be like you
I have settled for something that i dont is right
But i am a make believe boy hidden from sight


take one of my older poems <3 yours was lovely as well

 

[Scythe]

What had I done to deserve this?
To deserve living in a pathetic body.
What can I do to make it up to whoever that decided to punish me?
With the experience of growing things unwanted.
Won't you at least tell me what I have done wrong?
To deserve feeling like I'm infested by parasites.
Must I rip my body apart to be freed from my punishment?
Had I done something wrong in the first place?
Or are you just cruel?
Why did you pick me to suffer?
What ever have I done to deserve this?

From another trans masc individual wanting to join in on the poem writing

 

[mindless_imp]

There's a wrongness that's settled in my bones.
I feel like one-half of a whole
Every look in the mirror makes me shudder
The shape of my body is off
I study my form and nitpick the wrongs
The way i dress sends beads of sweat down my neck
I am a phony hiding in plain sight
I will never be believed for whats truly right
For My hollowness is not as heavy
My tears are not as deep
I do not suffer the way others do
My pain is lacking
I could never be like you
I have settled for something that i dont is right
But i am a make believe boy hidden from sight


take one of my older poems <3 yours was lovely as well

I love it, thank you <3

What had I done to deserve this?
To deserve living in a pathetic body.
What can I do to make it up to whoever that decided to punish me?
With the experience of growing things unwanted.
Won't you at least tell me what I have done wrong?
To deserve feeling like I'm infested by parasites.
Must I rip my body apart to be freed from my punishment?
Had I done something wrong in the first place?
Or are you just cruel?
Why did you pick me to suffer?
What ever have I done to deserve this?

From another trans masc individual wanting to join in on the poem writing

I love it, thank you <3