TRAIN CTB. Rate it.

[spectraltease]

I don't get N or SN, so I have to do the train method.

I want you guys to rate how deadly this is.

Train V1
My plan is, to laying down on chest and face to the ground, my head is in the railway and my neck on the track, so I hopefully get beheaded by the train. I will were maybe just a tshirt or a hoodie, so the wheel can crush me easily and got enough impact on my neck and head and that I wouldn't be pulled along if my jacket were imposing in the wheel. The top speed is 160 km/h here, they easily drive 100 on a normal route, so the speed is enough.

Yes its brutal and I know it's risky. Some of you would say it, but believe me, my neck on the tracks with 100 km/h get crushed like nothing. I will lay in a curve, so the train driver has no chance to react. The surviving rate is very very low. The only thing the train can hit is my head and my neck, so..

The train:


The top speed is 160 km/h. This train can
easily drive 100 km/h.
You see the cowcatcher on the bottom whats common on this train.
If I do it, how I plan it theres enough space so the cowcatcher can't hit my head. My head will be in the railway, only the neck will be exposed on the tracks.
There was a similar post where I have some information from, thanks

 

[gramenii]

Should be enough, but you really want to go this way? People on the train will be traumatised from the scene that they will see there, and the conductor will probably remain with that image for the rest of their life, wondering if there was something they could do to avoid you. I won't go this way tbh, but it's your choice to make nevertheless

 

[spectraltease]

Should be enough, but you really want to go this way? People on the train will be traumatised from the scene that they will see there, and the conductor will probably remain with that image for the rest of their life, wondering if there was something they could do to avoid you. I won't go this way tbh, but it's your choice to make nevertheless

There are not much more options for me. I wanted to do with SN or N but I cant get that. I don't think the train driver will care.

 

[rationaltake]

We had a case in our county in recent Years. The lady died and the train driver was utterly traumatised. He never recovered and ctb Years later leaving a young family to cope alone. Very sad story.

 

[gramenii]

I read here about someone that did CTB by train and the conductor was so shaken by that and he CTB himself years later because he couldn't cope with the guilt anymore.
Did you try to talk with someone from this forum that can help you with a source for SN?

 

[rationaltake]

I worked 10 years as a train driver. During this period I had 13 occurrences, 9 deaths and 4 survived mutilated. He had a genetic disposition for depression; this profession fired the trigger. All the victims I had to check, if I was alive I had to help, if I was dead, I had to get the mutilated limbs off the tracks and cover with the newspaper.
I'm addicted to rivotril today, so I don't have nightmares.

Sadly this method could turn out very badly for you and the train driver. I'm sorry you're so desperate.

 

[jk9761]

ghb its easy to get i heard

 

[Smart No More]

I considered train when I was at my worst. I visited the tracks (wgich can be a challenge in itself depending where you live. They generally have security now. Cameras make it much easier these days too. But even when you find a good place yoy find yourself faced with more issues. I considered putting my neck on the track in order to be decapitated. The track is around 5inches thick so it's not so much a slice but more of a crush and split. Whilst it would be fast it would be unpleasant and gory. Not only that but you stand a high chance of messing it up due to thw need to get in just the right position with a wailing train hurtling towards you blairing it's horn. So that would quite likely mean you get arms under the train too and possibly have half your head sliced/crushed or being cut across the shoulders and chest which would be horrifically painful and gory.
The other option considered might be to just jump at a train head on but whilst that would mess you up it might not kill yoy and often people get bounced off and die a slow and painful death in a ditch or are found, treated and live a life of disability and suffering for the rest of their miserable life. Unable to do a thing about it unless they can somehow poke their straw through their eye and wisk their brains up using onlt the dexterity of their tongue.

Its just not a nice or reliable way! Please reconsider.

 

[SpentStardust]

I love trains. Not a great way to go tho. I'd consider night-night or shallow water blackout before catching the train.

 

[lonelygirl111]

u said u don't have n or sn, what about other methods? hanging or jumping? i'm sorry u are in pain and thinking of this method in desperation. i hope everything works out for you as this could be a method that hurts more people than yourself. i wish you peace.

 

[makethepainstop]

Dude! No and hell no. That is a really good way to spend the rest of your life in a nursing home. Dude, I am begging you, DON'T!

 

[spectraltease]

u said u don't have n or sn, what about other methods? hanging or jumping? i'm sorry u are in pain and thinking of this method in desperation. i hope everything works out for you as this could be a method that hurts more people than yourself. i wish you peace.

I don't like hanging or jumping. I dont like my apartment too much so I dont wanna hang me there and the other places are mehh like the woods or something. I saw some jumping vids and you can survive that easily and your body is splashed. Its more brutal than my method.

Dude! No and hell no. That is a really good way to spend the rest of your life in a nursing home. Dude, I am begging you, DON'T!

Nah, the only thing the train can hit is my head and neck. Easy death

 

[StolenLife]

To be honest I never would have had the courage to go this way. It seems painful and uncomfortable. Like others have said, there is also a risk of traumatising the train driver. You may think that they won't care but it's still a person that they killed, whether they meant to or not. There were also cases in my country when train trainers commited suicide because of guilt. But then again only you can know which method works the best for you. In any case, whatever you decide, I hope it goes as painless as possible.

 

[spectraltease]

Sadly this method could turn out very badly for you and the train driver. I'm sorry you're so desperate.

My chance to survive is 0 if I do it right. I think the train driver won't care, but if, im sorry but thats my only option.

To be honest I never would have had the courage to go this way. It seems painful and uncomfortable. Like others have said, there is also a risk of traumatising the train driver. You may think that they won't care but it's still a person that they killed, whether they meant to or not. There were also cases in my country when train trainers commited suicide because of guilt. But then again only you can know which method works the best for you. In any case, whatever you decide, I hope it goes as painless as possible.

Its absolutely painless if you do it the right way. Your brain can't even react to what's happening with you. I saw scenes of a death like that and its too clean. I don't think the train driver won't care because it's happening here all the time. Im sorry if he care but this was my decision, not his.

I considered train when I was at my worst. I visited the tracks (wgich can be a challenge in itself depending where you live. They generally have security now. Cameras make it much easier these days too. But even when you find a good place yoy find yourself faced with more issues. I considered putting my neck on the track in order to be decapitated. The track is around 5inches thick so it's not so much a slice but more of a crush and split. Whilst it would be fast it would be unpleasant and gory. Not only that but you stand a high chance of messing it up due to thw need to get in just the right position with a wailing train hurtling towards you blairing it's horn. So that would quite likely mean you get arms under the train too and possibly have half your head sliced/crushed or being cut across the shoulders and chest which would be horrifically painful and gory.
The other option considered might be to just jump at a train head on but whilst that would mess you up it might not kill yoy and often people get bounced off and die a slow and painful death in a ditch or are found, treated and live a life of disability and suffering for the rest of their miserable life. Unable to do a thing about it unless they can somehow poke their straw through their eye and wisk their brains up using onlt the dexterity of their tongue.

Its just not a nice or reliable way! Please reconsider.

Thanks for the valid anwser. I try to anwser your text in some points.
- here are cameras, yes. Only on stations tho. I will do it on some tracks in the nature.
- Yes, I plan to get beheaded. You don't get crushed really. I saw some scenes of this method and it works well.
- I don't think the chance is high that I mess it up, its not hard to get beheaded/die.
- jumping in the train is a shitty option and I will survive. Why all ppl think this is a shitty method, its great. My surviving rate is none. I dont think i will do some weird stuff with my body. I will hold my hands on the bottom of the tracks so my body cant move.

thanks for the anwser and I will consider every aspect.

 

[GermanHanger]

Don't do that. Think of what you are doing to the passengers and the conductor

 

[giannividi]

If you go please choose another way. It seems like an aweful way to go, plus the person driving the train will be probably be traumatised for the rest of his/her life. Did you research helium? Quick, no pain, your body stays intact.

 

[spectraltease]

If you go please choose another way. It seems like an aweful way to go, plus the person driving the train will be probably be traumatised for the rest of his/her life. Did you research helium? Quick, no pain, your body stays intact.

I don't wanna die in my bed/at home. I think the driver won't even care. But all my life I was treated like shit by society, now someone will maybe get traumatised by me, this price has society to pay. Sorry for the blood tho.

 

[akirat9]

If you go please choose another way. It seems like an aweful way to go, plus the person driving the train will be probably be traumatised for the rest of his/her life. Did you research helium? Quick, no pain, your body stays intact.

stop
&respect their choosing

 

[spectraltease]

ghb its easy to get i heard

Whats that?

 

[[HNO]]

Whats that?

"gamma-Hydroxybutyric acid is a naturally occurring neurotransmitter and a psychoactive drug. It is a precursor to GABA, glutamate, and glycine in certain brain areas. It acts on the GHB receptor and is a weak agonist at the GABAB receptor. GHB has been used in the medical setting as a general anesthetic and as treatment for cataplexy, narcolepsy, and alcoholism. It is also used illegally as an intoxicant, as an athletic-performance enhancer, as a date-rape drug, and as a recreational drug."

"High doses of GHB can result in: dizziness vomiting tremors tunnel vision loss of coordination (ataxia) confusion, irritation and agitation hallucinations blackouts and memory lapses seizures coma respiratory arrest (stopping breathing) and death. GHB - dependence, tolerance and withdrawal"

"GHB is as a powder that readily dissolves to form a
clear, colourless, and odourless liquid and is often sold in
this form to users. Although often referred to as 'liquid
ecstasy', it is not structurally or pharmacologically similar
to MDMA (Ecstasy)"

"Mechanism of action
GHB is a precursor of GABA and in high concentrations
acts predominantly as an agonist at GABA B receptors in
the cerebral cortex, cerebellum, and thalamus, and pos-
sibly also at a GHB-specific receptor in the brain. GHB
administration results in inhibition of dopamine and
noradrenaline release, increased serotonin turnover, and
increased endogenous opioid concentrations.

Toxicokinetics
Following ingestion, GHB is rapidly absorbed and crosses
the blood–brain barrier quickly. Peak concentrations
occur within 1 hour and onset of clinical effects is within
15–30 minutes. It has a short elimination half-life of
20–50 minutes.
Clinical effects are dose-dependent and are potenti-
ated by ethanol, benzodiazepines, antipsychotics, and
other central nervous system depressants. Loss of con-
sciousness occurs at serum concentrations above 50
mg/L and coma above 250 mg/L. Recreational doses are
usually above 2.5 g."

 

[KQuotientW]

Just over a decade ago, we had a train collision. The passenger train hit a car, where the driver of the car thought they could make it through the crossing by driving fast. City to rural train service, and the rural crossing has no flashing lights. The car driver could see the train coming well before they reached the crossing and there were signs indicating a crossing ahead, so the car driver knew they were supposed to slow down.

I happened to know the family of the train driver. He was deeply traumatised by the incident, as were the passengers. Some were also injured when the train had to brake so hard. The car driver wasn't trying to CTB, he thought he could beat the train through a crossing. The car driver left many with PTSD. The train driver is still traumatised, to this day.

Aside from the train driver and passengers, there are witnesses who will be traumatised if you use a train to end your life. I know it seems instant and highly likely to work, but many will be mentally scarred by this.

 

[spectraltease]

Just over a decade ago, we had a train collision. The passenger train hit a car, where the driver of the car thought they could make it through the crossing by driving fast. City to rural train service, and the rural crossing has no flashing lights. The car driver could see the train coming well before they reached the crossing and there were signs indicating a crossing ahead, so the car driver knew they were supposed to slow down.

I happened to know the family of the train driver. He was deeply traumatised by the incident, as were the passengers. Some were also injured when the train had to brake so hard. The car driver wasn't trying to CTB, he thought he could beat the train through a crossing. The car driver left many with PTSD. The train driver is still traumatised, to this day.

Aside from the train driver and passengers, there are witnesses who will be traumatised if you use a train to end your life. I know it seems instant and highly likely to work, but many will be mentally scarred by this.

I know, many ppl say this to me here. I was treated like shit all the years in this society. Now somebody have to pay the price for this, maybe I wouldn't kill myself, if I was treated nice. Anyways, I dont think the driver will care but when, Im sorry for that.

"gamma-Hydroxybutyric acid is a naturally occurring neurotransmitter and a psychoactive drug. It is a precursor to GABA, glutamate, and glycine in certain brain areas. It acts on the GHB receptor and is a weak agonist at the GABAB receptor. GHB has been used in the medical setting as a general anesthetic and as treatment for cataplexy, narcolepsy, and alcoholism. It is also used illegally as an intoxicant, as an athletic-performance enhancer, as a date-rape drug, and as a recreational drug."

"High doses of GHB can result in: dizziness vomiting tremors tunnel vision loss of coordination (ataxia) confusion, irritation and agitation hallucinations blackouts and memory lapses seizures coma respiratory arrest (stopping breathing) and death. GHB - dependence, tolerance and withdrawal"

"GHB is as a powder that readily dissolves to form a
clear, colourless, and odourless liquid and is often sold in
this form to users. Although often referred to as 'liquid
ecstasy', it is not structurally or pharmacologically similar
to MDMA (Ecstasy)"

"Mechanism of action
GHB is a precursor of GABA and in high concentrations
acts predominantly as an agonist at GABA B receptors in
the cerebral cortex, cerebellum, and thalamus, and pos-
sibly also at a GHB-specific receptor in the brain. GHB
administration results in inhibition of dopamine and
noradrenaline release, increased serotonin turnover, and
increased endogenous opioid concentrations.

Toxicokinetics
Following ingestion, GHB is rapidly absorbed and crosses
the blood–brain barrier quickly. Peak concentrations
occur within 1 hour and onset of clinical effects is within
15–30 minutes. It has a short elimination half-life of
20–50 minutes.
Clinical effects are dose-dependent and are potenti-
ated by ethanol, benzodiazepines, antipsychotics, and
other central nervous system depressants. Loss of con-
sciousness occurs at serum concentrations above 50
mg/L and coma above 250 mg/L. Recreational doses are
usually above 2.5 g."

How easy is it to get?