endless-void
Void
- Jul 31, 2023
- 44
It's been so long I don't get any physical love it feels uncomfortable when someone touches me, even if it's to push me away from their way. Being completely isolated from the rest of the world in real life really made me feel sick, and I don't mean just mentally. I'm always cold, even when it's 45 °C outside, I throw up just with the thought of someone hugging me and actually feeling good about it and I feel so out of touch with reality every single day. This has always been an issue for me and has made me make bad lifestyle choices. I am just so obsessed with the idea of feeling normal again my mind makes up the worst ideas ever. I have this thought about murdering someone just so I could be next to someone without being terrified of it. It would be just one more thought if it wasn't because this feeling is driving me insane and I'd do whatever it takes to stop this.
I hope I'm not the only one.
I hope I'm not the only one.