Took a break for 2 days to reevaluate things and....

[WorthlessTrash]

I spent the last 2 days reevaluating everything. The reason i'm depressed, the reasons I hate being male, whether transitioning would even make significant improvement for me, if there are ways to find fulfillment and happiness otherwise or if there's any realistic chance of me being able to find real happiness in the future, and I reached the same conclusion in this thought exercise that i have through out the year, and that is No to every one of those questions. Is this sign I have been waiting for to tell me it is time to give up?

I am a very 300+ lbs garbage bag of testosterone who feels so much despair when he sees attractive women out in public, when heres women call each other "pretty", when he sees the validation attractive women get. I am someone who cringes the moment i think a woman is attractive. I don't have a right to feel that way. I should stay in my own lane.

Im not going to college, im not working, im not doing any of my usual hobbies because i dont have the energy or motivation to. All i can do is sleep, eat and browse discord/ sasu. I cant even take a shower bc the very idea of me looking at my body makes me so fucking sick.

I try to understand why attractive people take their own lives, but i just simply cannot. Those woman are throwing away their looks when I'd kill to be them. It's like a person in poverty watching someone burn money in front of them. I know they have their own reasons, but what i wouldn't give to be able to try play with the hand that they were dealt.

I know i could try drugs to help me get through life be it medication, recreational drugs or illegal substances, but if I can't even be remotely content without them much less happy, is it even worth fighting and dying of old age? I certainly do not believe so...

I don't want anyone to try to talk me into trying anything. I just needed a place to air my grievances. I am of no use alive and life is of no use to me. All signs point to me needing to CTB and being rid of this trash body.

I wish i could say that the tl:dr of this thread is i am going to recover, but it is not. The tl:dr is that i have once again reached the same conclusion i always have.

 

[nena21]

I am drunk living my last hours hopefully. I consider myself pretty attractive. Its not as awesome as some poeple believe. Its like being rich. you never know who likes you for being you or just wants to fuck you. I dont know what it feels like wanting to be the other gender. So i cant relate in that way sadly.

 

[SuicidalPlushie]

i feel your pain and discomfort with your body, i myself hated my body and hurt it with self harm for years but yea i just forgot about it, the body is just a carrier for soul and it's just meat and weak bones which i realized this truth too late and you also can see some women who hate their body too, it's all on your way of thinking. i know this will not get you any comfort but focus on changing your view on bodies as your body will not define who you are that's said your only solution is to accept this truth and live happily cause nothing worth to worry about. i hope you get what you want.

 

[WorthlessTrash]

i feel your pain and discomfort with your body, i myself hated my body and hurt it with self harm for years but yea i just forgot about it, the body is just a carrier for soul and it's just meat and weak bones which i realized this truth too late and you also can see some women who hate their body too, it's all on your way of thinking. i know this will not get you any comfort but focus on changing your view on bodies as your body will not define who you are that's said your only solution is to accept this truth and live happily cause nothing worth to worry about. i hope you get what you want.

I'm sorry but physical appearance absolutely defines us, and this level of cope is not going to cure my dysphoria, much less make it worth living with.

And I don't have to accept a false ttuth like that as I have free will to decide to CTB (SI not withstanding). This site predicates itself on having the right to choose to CTB, and that is a choice I want to exercise.

I am sorry, but I did not create this thread to be told to cope. I'd go back to therapy if i wanted advice on coping :(

 

[SuicidalPlushie]

I'm sorry but physical appearance absolutely defines us, and this level of cope is not going to cure my dysphoria, much less make it worth living with.

And I don't have to accept a false ttuth like that as I have free will to decide to CTB (SI not withstanding). This site predicates itself on having the right to choose to CTB, and that is a choice I want to exercise.

I am sorry, but I did not create this thread to be told to cope. I'd go back to therapy if i wanted advice on coping :(

i understand you and respect your opinion, i also respect your right to ctb and you have the full power to decide your own future and yes i understand it's not easy at all and it might incurable and everyone should'nt suffer if nothing make him feel good, if you have decided to ctb soon i wish you get your peace from this chaos.

 

[WorthlessTrash]

i understand you and respect your opinion, i also respect your right to ctb and you have the full power to decide your own future and yes i understand it's not easy at all and it might incurable and everyone should'nt suffer if nothing make him feel good, if you have decided to ctb soon i wish you get your peace from this chaos.

I just feel like it's not an opinion. Look at the positive validation one gets from being attractive. "Unattractive" people don't get praised for their looks, because well they just don't look good lol Humans are conditioned to drawn to things and people that look good, not things that are unattractive.

You're not going to see literal piece of shit on the side walk and think it's a great sight to see. Saying looks don't matter to you or anyone else is 100% copium.

 

[SuicidalPlushie]

I just feel like it's not an opinion. Look at the positive validation one gets from being attractive. "Unattractive" people don't get praised for their looks, because well they just don't look good lol Humans are conditioned to drawn to things and people that look good, not things that are unattractive.

You're not going to see literal piece of shit on the side walk and think it's a great sight to see. Saying looks don't matter to you or anyone else is 100% copium.

ah yes well being attractive does have a lot of benefits actually i got bullied a lot cause of my weak body and was reason of my depression and traumas but yea i don't care about bodies anymore i just treat everyone equally, it might not be truth nor opinion, it all depends on whether those people who see you value bodies or not but yea most people care about looks.

 

[MicropBaldCurrycel]

hey friend welcome back we missed you, i like you as a user here. you are in my thoughts and prayers and i also hate hate my body as you know so i relate definitely.

im still thinking of a sex change myself and people say its a very stupid reason but i just think my only chance at ever being in a relationship or feeling whole is becoming a woman and have full body surgery.

I know how you feel again im with you we are here and its good to vent.

 

[DerTod]

I am a woman and a fairly attractive one. I was/am wanted by men for the wrong reasons.Been their pretty trophy until i decided that i rather be alone.Strangers compliments don't do anything for me because their compliments refer to the exterior and not me as a person. I do not know what it means to have the feeling of not belonging in your own body and feeling disgusted by it but i do know what it feels like to not belong into this world and feeling disgusted about it and about a lot of men who are focussed primarily on looks and f*cking.When you become "old news" they move to the next pretty or achievable prey. Now i'm not gonna lie to you and say that i would switch places with someone unattractive because living in a world that is so focused on looks would definitely affect me. Feeling worthless because you are invisible and not getting even that superficial validation would definitely make someone feel they wanna die. All i'm trying to say is that it's not all rainbows and glitter on the other side because when you do have the looks you realize that the validation you get for the looks is pointless.Yes it's better to cry in a Lamborghini and your own big house than to cry as a very poor person. But at the end of the day both people cry. And we are both on this site.

 

[WorthlessTrash]

I am a woman and a fairly attractive one. I was/am wanted by men for the wrong reasons.Been their pretty trophy until i decided that i rather be alone.Strangers compliments don't do anything for me because their compliments refer to the exterior and not me as a person. I do not know what it means to have the feeling of not belonging in your own body and feeling disgusted by it but i do know what it feels like to not belong into this world and feeling disgusted about it and about a lot of men who are focussed primarily on looks and f*cking.When you become "old news" they move to the next pretty or achievable prey. Now i'm not gonna lie to you and say that i would switch places with someone unattractive because living in a world that is so focused on looks would definitely affect me. Feeling worthless because you are invisible and not getting even that superficial validation would definitely make someone feel they wanna die. All i'm trying to say is that it's not all rainbows and glitter on the other side because when you do have the looks you realize that the validation you get for the looks is pointless.Yes it's better to cry in a Lamborghini and your own big house than to cry as a very poor person. But at the end of the day both people cry. And we are both on this site.

I respect that. Though, for me it's a combination of liking my own appearance (since I find the male body absolutely disgusting) as well as the "pretty privilege". Though, if I was an attractive female, I wouldn't care about validation from men since I hate the male body (hence one of the reasons I hate my own sex) and I am not attracted to them. My hatred towards my own body has nothing to do with my weight as I could lose a lot of weight if I absolutely wanted to). I just "let myself go" because there's no point in looking after a body you'll hate no matter what.

Though, I am very sorry for what you went through and I hope you are in a better place now

hey friend welcome back we missed you, i like you as a user here. you are in my thoughts and prayers and i also hate hate my body as you know so i relate definitely.

im still thinking of a sex change myself and people say its a very stupid reason but i just think my only chance at ever being in a relationship or feeling whole is becoming a woman and have full body surgery.

I know how you feel again im with you we are here and its good to vent.

I personally wouldn't call your solution stupid. I just think that you're going to go from one issue to having losing that issue but adopting 2 more issues. Though, I hope that I am wrong and it helps you if that is really what you want to do

 

[DerTod]

I respect that. Though, for me it's a combination of liking my own appearance (since I find the male body absolutely disgusting) as well as the "pretty privilege". Though, if I was an attractive female, I wouldn't care about validation from men since I hate the male body (hence one of the reasons I hate my own sex) and I am not attracted to them. My hatred towards my own body has nothing to do with my weight as I could lose a lot of weight if I absolutely wanted to). I just "let myself go" because there's no point in looking after a body you'll hate no matter what.

Though, I am very sorry for what you went through and I hope you are in a better place now

I personally wouldn't call your solution stupid. I just think that you're going to go from one issue to having losing that issue but adopting 2 more issues. Though, I hope that I am wrong and it helps you if that is really what you want to do

I'm curious: if you would be born again,and you would have to chose between being a very hot woman but straight and being not very attractive but a lesbian,what would you chose? If you would be born as a very attractive woman and a lesbian,would you date a woman that it's not attractive?

 

[MicropBaldCurrycel]

but adopting 2 more issues.

okay i know one issue is i risk developing gender dysphoria but whats the other one?

 

[WorthlessTrash]

I'm curious: if you would be born again,and you would have to chose between being a very hot woman but straight and being not very attractive but a lesbian,what would you chose? If you would be born as a very attractive woman and a lesbian,would you date a woman that it's not attractive?

To answer the first question, the latter. To answer the second question, I would prefer to date a woman that is "unattractive" as opposed to being straight. I don't like the male body, period. I hope that if I was born a female, I would not like male parts. Good thought provoking question, btw (no sarcasm at all).

okay i know one issue is i risk developing gender dysphoria but whats the other one?

Trans people have an increasingly hard time to find relationships, especially if they don't "pass". People are transphobic, even if closeted.

Not to mention the violence and discriminations against trans people.

 

[FuneralCry]

It sounds so unbearable what you are going through. This life really is so horrible and unfair and I'm sorry that you are in this situation. I hope that you find relief from suffering.

 

[MicropBaldCurrycel]

To answer the first question, the latter. To answer the second question, I would prefer to date a woman that is "unattractive" as opposed to being straight. I don't like the male body, period. I hope that if I was born a female, I would not like male parts. Good thought provoking question, btw (no sarcasm at all).

Trans people have an increasingly hard time to find relationships, especially if they don't "pass". People are transphobic, even if closeted.

Not to mention the violence and discriminations against trans people.

I have a hard time finding relationships as a micropenis man anyway.

and id welcome the violence i dont mind dying and yeah i guess the discrimination would suck.

 

[WorthlessTrash]

I have a hard time finding relationships as a micropenis man anyway.

and id welcome the violence i dont mind dying and yeah i guess the discrimination would suck.

You could end up paralyzed instead of dying. It's one of the reasons why trying to get someone angry enough to hurt you is a very bad suicide method imo.

But again, I really hope your decision works out. I mean that genuinely.

I am drunk living my last hours hopefully. I consider myself pretty attractive. Its not as awesome as some poeple believe. Its like being rich. you never know who likes you for being you or just wants to fuck you. I dont know what it feels like wanting to be the other gender. So i cant relate in that way sadly.

Idk how I did not see this reply lol Fair enough, though.

I do believe that if everyone was given a choice, most, if not all would choose to be attractive. There are no advantages unattractive people have over attractive. More doors open for attractive people, and unattractive people have doors slammed in their face (literally and figuratively).

 

[MicropBaldCurrycel]

You could end up paralyzed instead of dying. It's one of the reasons why trying to get someone angry enough to hurt you is a very bad suicide method imo.

But again, I really hope your decision works out. I mean that genuinely.

yeah my country is very homophobic and trans phobic , i wish i could move to canada or usa they seem more accepting of trans.

 

[TheLastFemaphrodyke]

I spent the last 2 days reevaluating everything. The reason i'm depressed, the reasons I hate being male, whether transitioning would even make significant improvement for me, if there are ways to find fulfillment and happiness otherwise or if there's any realistic chance of me being able to find real happiness in the future, and I reached the same conclusion in this thought exercise that i have through out the year, and that is No to every one of those questions. Is this sign I have been waiting for to tell me it is time to give up?

I am a very 300+ lbs garbage bag of testosterone who feels so much despair when he sees attractive women out in public, when heres women call each other "pretty", when he sees the validation attractive women get. I am someone who cringes the moment i think a woman is attractive. I don't have a right to feel that way. I should stay in my own lane.

Im not going to college, im not working, im not doing any of my usual hobbies because i dont have the energy or motivation to. All i can do is sleep, eat and browse discord/ sasu. I cant even take a shower bc the very idea of me looking at my body makes me so fucking sick.

I try to understand why attractive people take their own lives, but i just simply cannot. Those woman are throwing away their looks when I'd kill to be them. It's like a person in poverty watching someone burn money in front of them. I know they have their own reasons, but what i wouldn't give to be able to try play with the hand that they were dealt.

I know i could try drugs to help me get through life be it medication, recreational drugs or illegal substances, but if I can't even be remotely content without them much less happy, is it even worth fighting and dying of old age? I certainly do not believe so...

I don't want anyone to try to talk me into trying anything. I just needed a place to air my grievances. I am of no use alive and life is of no use to me. All signs point to me needing to CTB and being rid of this trash body.

I wish i could say that the tl:dr of this thread is i am going to recover, but it is not. The tl:dr is that i have once again reached the same conclusion i always have.

My arms around you hugging you, male or female, does not matter to me, 300 lbs or a skinny rail, does not matter to me. I think the avatar you have chosen to represent you is beautiful. I think your words are stirring and beautiful, which shows me that you, on the inside, are truly beautiful, and I so dislike life has drug you through the shit pile of people to get to us. I so understand not feeling beautiful and it is so very hard to accept ourselves as we are, absolutely maddening to be unable to change what we want changed about our physical selves. It is really hard for us when we keep comparing out to others, either in a positive or negative way, it is not so good to compare within either as for myself, I find I will always put a negative spin on any changes my body makes, intentional (like due to diet) or not. Thank you for thinking, for taking the time to share, you have shown me I am not alone and that means something, thanx for that.

 

[WorthlessTrash]

My arms around you hugging you, male or female, does not matter to me, 300 lbs or a skinny rail, does not matter to me. I think the avatar you have chosen to represent you is beautiful. I think your words are stirring and beautiful, which shows me that you, on the inside, are truly beautiful, and I so dislike life has drug you through the shit pile of people to get to us. I so understand not feeling beautiful and it is so very hard to accept ourselves as we are, absolutely maddening to be unable to change what we want changed about our physical selves. It is really hard for us when we keep comparing out to others, either in a positive or negative way, it is not so good to compare within either as for myself, I find I will always put a negative spin on any changes my body makes, intentional (like due to diet) or not. Thank you for thinking, for taking the time to share, you have shown me I am not alone and that means something, thanx for that.

I choose these pfps because i like the genre of music (kpop) and i'm projecting my ideal sex + ethnicity that i wish i was (though I'd accept being female sex of any ethnicity over my current sex. I don't even need to compare myself to others in order to hate my body. I jiust hate the male body, being male and everything about it. There's nothing as male I'd want to accomplish that i couldn't as a physically attractive woman, but there are benefits i can get as a physically attractive female (such as being able to love my appearance) that I don't have....as whatever this body is......Eww.

Soon it will be over and i'll be rid of this useless piece of trash body.

 

[TheLastFemaphrodyke]

I choose these pfps because i like the genre of music (kpop) and i'm projecting my ideal sex + ethnicity that i wish i was (though I'd accept being female sex of any ethnicity over my current sex. I don't even need to compare myself to others in order to hate my body. I jiust hate the male body, being male and everything about it. There's nothing as male I'd want to accomplish that i couldn't as a physically attractive woman, but there are benefits i can get as a physically attractive female (such as being able to love my appearance) that I don't have....as whatever this body is......Eww.

Soon it will be over and i'll be rid of this useless piece of trash body.

I understand, we do not like what we do not like. I am hugging the you on the inside, that you like and feel good about, I don't care what your outside looks like but I really understand, it sounds so vain, but I hate my own body, I cannot loose weight, I gain very slowly, but I cannot loose, I can eat 500 calories a day for months and loose not one pound, not one ounce, I tart eating more than 1200 calories a day and slowly I start to gain. I am starving and I cannot eat. I love food cannot eat and I am obese, have been almost my entire life, I even had bariatric surgery, stomach stapling done, I lost only 90 pounds, then stopped loosing, after a couple years I noticed I was gaining again. Not one doctor will run a t3 thyroid test because my t4 comes out normal, despite the known fact the thyroid can still be not functioning and i have every single symptom of graves disease and thyroid eye disease, slowly loosing my eyesight. I finally have insurance again, after almost 20 years and again, not a single doctor will run the t3 test because the t4 is within acceptable range and they would rather take months and charge the insurance thousands of dollars by running all other kinds of other tests, keep me suffering, treat me like I am disgusting and they o not even want to touch me, like I am lying about what I am eating and only deserve to be treated like a less than individual, yeah, I REALLY do understand about hating your body and it is REALLY hard to learn to just accept that this is the body I have and there is nothing I can do about it.

 

[WorthlessTrash]

I understand, we do not like what we do not like. I am hugging the you on the inside, that you like and feel good about, I don't care what your outside looks like but I really understand, it sounds so vain, but I hate my own body, I cannot loose weight, I gain very slowly, but I cannot loose, I can eat 500 calories a day for months and loose not one pound, not one ounce, I tart eating more than 1200 calories a day and slowly I start to gain. I am starving and I cannot eat. I love food cannot eat and I am obese, have been almost my entire life, I even had bariatric surgery, stomach stapling done, I lost only 90 pounds, then stopped loosing, after a couple years I noticed I was gaining again. Not one doctor will run a t3 thyroid test because my t4 comes out normal, despite the known fact the thyroid can still be not functioning and i have every single symptom of graves disease and thyroid eye disease, slowly loosing my eyesight. I finally have insurance again, after almost 20 years and again, not a single doctor will run the t3 test because the t4 is within acceptable range and they would rather take months and charge the insurance thousands of dollars by running all other kinds of other tests, keep me suffering, treat me like I am disgusting and they o not even want to touch me, like I am lying about what I am eating and only deserve to be treated like a less than individual, yeah, I REALLY do understand about hating your body and it is REALLY hard to learn to just accept that this is the body I have and there is nothing I can do about it.

Inside doesn't even matter to me. I want be an attractive female physically, instead of a 300 lbs garbage bag of testosterone and no ":essence" on the inside is going to compensate for what I am not. I do not have the body I want so instead of coping, I am choosing to CTB (eventually) :(

 

[unredeemable]

I'm a 6'1'' cisgender male and I've also struggled with being overweight my whole life. I've been as high as 330 and as low as 185. That low was the product of two years worth of starvation and working out obsessively.

One day it finally hit me that I had the body I'd always wanted, but it didn't fix a goddam thing. I was still just as broken as before, except people were treating me way better. Women noticed me. Men did, too.

Which made me think whether their affection could ever be genuine since it seemed to depend on me being skinny. Total mind fuck.

As others have said above, way better than I can, life has taught me skinny or fat, rich or poor, it's miserable to not truly belong. For some of us, that's likely to never change. How we answer that possibility is up to us. We have that right as free agents. Whatever you choose, may you find the comfort that has eluded you thus far.

 

[rationaltake]

Inside doesn't even matter to me. I want be an attractive female physically, instead of a 300 lbs garbage bag of testosterone and no ":essence" on the inside is going to compensate for what I am not. I do not have the body I want so instead of coping, I am choosing to CTB (eventually) :(

We each decide what we're prepared to accept - or not. End of. I don't accept my situation. Maybe someone else could. Bottom line is I don't.

 

[WorthlessTrash]

I'm a 6'1'' cisgender male and I've also struggled with being overweight my whole life. I've been as high as 330 and as low as 185. That low was the product of two years worth of starvation and working out obsessively.

One day it finally hit me that I had the body I'd always wanted, but it didn't fix a goddam thing. I was still just as broken as before, except people were treating me way better. Women noticed me. Men did, too.

Which made me think whether their affection could ever be genuine since it seemed to depend on me being skinny. Total mind fuck.

As others have said above, way better than I can, life has taught me skinny or fat, rich or poor, it's miserable to not truly belong. For some of us, that's likely to never change. How we answer that possibility is up to us. We have that right as free agents. Whatever you choose, may you find the comfort that has eluded you thus far.

To be fair, physical attraction is one of the main factors in a relationship. You cannot be into someone you are not physically attracted to (unless you are demisexual) Their affection was genuine but it takes more than personality compatibility for most relationships to work. is it shallow to care about looks? Maybe. However, we are visual creatures and we generally like things (and people) that look good to us.

Unfortunately for me, I know that my problem is that I don't have the physical appearance I want. If I had that, I would not be feeling the way I am right now, I 100% guarantee you. I'd be "fixed" if you will. Unfortunately, that is simply not possible for me so I will never be able to prove it :(

I do acknowledge for some people being rich or attractive is not enough and I am sorry for them. All I ask for is to be what I deem attractive, but that is not possible.

 

[The Abyss]

I spent the last 2 days reevaluating everything. The reason i'm depressed, the reasons I hate being male, whether transitioning would even make significant improvement for me, if there are ways to find fulfillment and happiness otherwise or if there's any realistic chance of me being able to find real happiness in the future, and I reached the same conclusion in this thought exercise that i have through out the year, and that is No to every one of those questions. Is this sign I have been waiting for to tell me it is time to give up?

I am a very 300+ lbs garbage bag of testosterone who feels so much despair when he sees attractive women out in public, when heres women call each other "pretty", when he sees the validation attractive women get. I am someone who cringes the moment i think a woman is attractive. I don't have a right to feel that way. I should stay in my own lane.

Im not going to college, im not working, im not doing any of my usual hobbies because i dont have the energy or motivation to. All i can do is sleep, eat and browse discord/ sasu. I cant even take a shower bc the very idea of me looking at my body makes me so fucking sick.

I try to understand why attractive people take their own lives, but i just simply cannot. Those woman are throwing away their looks when I'd kill to be them. It's like a person in poverty watching someone burn money in front of them. I know they have their own reasons, but what i wouldn't give to be able to try play with the hand that they were dealt.

I know i could try drugs to help me get through life be it medication, recreational drugs or illegal substances, but if I can't even be remotely content without them much less happy, is it even worth fighting and dying of old age? I certainly do not believe so...

I don't want anyone to try to talk me into trying anything. I just needed a place to air my grievances. I am of no use alive and life is of no use to me. All signs point to me needing to CTB and being rid of this trash body.

I wish i could say that the tl:dr of this thread is i am going to recover, but it is not. The tl:dr is that i have once again reached the same conclusion i always have.

That's a lot going on, one thing I will say about transitioning though is if your main goal for seeing that through is to effectively be treated like an attractive woman getting compliments about your appearance that's a complete waste of time, to pull off an effective ruse you need to already have what are universal traits that are considered attractive such as bone structure & ratio, then you'll need makeup game on point & the earlier you get on estrogen the better chance the results will have & even then you won't find that many holding the views you're looking for if they know you're trans.

I understand the sentiment many hold wanting to be beauty as opposed to beast, if you're attractive or in demand you get away with more shit, expectations set upon you are lower & you get ass kissers. Of course you get negative attention too but the positives outweigh the negatives whereas if you're ugly or undesired first impressions are overly negative with you being lumped in with meme tropes (peado, creep, serial killer in basement wearing mothers underwear), you have to work harder to turn the bias around, everyone is waiting for you to fuck up & you're an easy mark for a quick social boost another wants to exploit.

Life isn't fair & you've no say in your starting position, trans stuff working out well is generally for your own opinion as opposed to external results, you're already attractive or using the recent social movement to get less slack from others by hiding behind transphobia accusations to hopefully ward off some bullies; this is a mixed bag as you're attracting more scorn too from those that don't care about laws.

Criticise Israel using white phosphorous on Palestinians? Just shout antisemitism.

Problem with abortions out the wazoo instead of using other methods of protection first? Misogynistic.

High crime rate in a predominately black area? Obviously racism.

Angry you're shit on often & fed up with the same snide remarks due to your height so you lash out? Napoleon conplex/angry little man.

The first 3 are taken seriously yet the last one isn't; more on this later.

I'm not being mean but saying it how I see it, I see plenty of MtF trans that when you look at the face it's clearly a man but their anime/2d rendition self insert is clearly a girl.

On the other side of things I see FtM trans expecting to get Alpha male Chad energy or treatment after the fact yet they're 5'2 not 6'4, wide hips narrow shoulders when they should have swimmers dorito triangle torso, don't have good facial forward growth, the voice pitch ain't right etc...

Point is you can't suddenly get the rewards of being a top 20% attractiveness reward regardless of gender by suddenly switching to the other if you were nowhere near that mark to begin with.

Society talks about inclusion & destroying discrimination with all the usual ways it's displayed but theres no movement acknowledgement for the discrimination the short or ugly face.

This went a bit off track; sorry.

Point is if you're looking for happiness from others & you've not been receiving that in the first place it's hard to change that.

The reality is looks & status are more important now than ever, be attractive or get a huge following for something.

All these dudes with the right facial symmetry have that stupid fuckboi haircut that looks like a small dog is resting on their head. All to add a few inches to height & make the head look longer.

Makeup on point & squats for the ladies.

It's the current algorithm of vanity.

 

[dustyfurcollector]

yeah my country is very homophobic and trans phobic , i wish i could move to canada or usa they seem more accepting of trans.

USA is definitely transphobic. Florida has made laws to prevent trans people from existing publicly. You can't say gay in school in Florida. Texas had passed laws denying trans girls the ability to participate in school sports.

Please don't suffer under the delusion that or country has any redeeming values anymore