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Too tired to CTB

khw777

khw777

Just trying to catch a bus!
Oct 18, 2019
235
Anyone else feel this way?
 
Neurodamaged2

Neurodamaged2

Member
Oct 28, 2019
69
Same. After all the failed attempts (probably 7+ serious attempts this year), I'm spent. My brain is mush and doesn't have the will to do it anymore.
 
MaybeMaybeKnot

MaybeMaybeKnot

No ctrl-z when you ctb
Oct 25, 2019
339
I don't ever want to get out of bed. Not to eat or drink or pee or ctb. I always cancel plans including my dr appts. I still haven't started the intensive outpatient therapy I'm supposed to be going to. I just want to sleep or lay with my eyes closed.
 
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Mr2005

Mr2005

Don't shoot the messenger, give me the gun
Sep 25, 2018
3,622
Neurodamaged2 said:
Same. After all the failed attempts (probably 7+ serious attempts this year), I'm spent. My brain is mush and doesn't have the will to do it anymore.
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How are you still alive?
 
Idontexist

Idontexist

Member
Oct 30, 2019
14
Yes me too... I wish someone kill me instead... do hit man really exists? If so I am ready to give all my money!
I can't even enjoy music anymore....everything is grey.. and I don't want to be part of this world anymore.
 
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WhiteDespair

WhiteDespair

The Temporary Problem is Life
Oct 24, 2019
837
Idontexist said:
Yes me too... I wish someone kill me instead... do hit man really exists? If so I am ready to give all my money!
I can't even enjoy music anymore....everything is grey.. and I don't want to be part of this world anymore.
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I also like this idea. At the very least you'll get to see his face when you mention the target. That could be good for a laugh. Knowing my luck I'll wind up with an undercover detective sting operation.
 
Neurodamaged2

Neurodamaged2

Member
Oct 28, 2019
69
Mr2005 said:
How are you still alive?
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Rope came undone, got found and resuscitated another time, backed out another time, ODed and ended up in the hospital the rest. Apparently I suck at killing myself. Def have brain damage from the attempts though.
 
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friendly99

Member
Jul 22, 2018
98
I am too depressed to commit suicide. I too wish I could hire a hitman
 
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