Tonight's the night.

[greenstainless]

SN arrived earlier today. I already measured out the appropriate amount and made 2 drinks (one as backup in case I vomit) and am currently waiting a few hours until it's later at night. Back story about why I'm ready to die:

My mother passed away from a suicide in 2014. I'm an only child and didn't have any brothers or sisters. I somehow remained positive after her death and eventually met a girl. I didn't believe I could ever love anyone the way I loved her. We fell in love and moved in together and were planning on getting married. She was killed this past November simply because she was in the wrong place at the wrong time; she was in her father's business and there was a shooting and she was hit by 2 stray bullets. Every day since she died I have wanted to die but I tried to give myself some time to see how I would feel. It was 3 months this past Friday and it's been getting worse with time. I simply don't have the will to live anymore after she's gone and I want to be with her again.

It's a shame that it's so damn hard to find a way to die without suffering but I'm pretty sure SN will do pretty well. I have only posted once before here but this forum has been a great resource for me and I want to say thank you from the bottom of my heart.

Take care everyone.

 

[Dliena]

Wishing you best luck and eternity of peace from anymore traumas/pains OP. Farewells.

 

[CloudyNightSky]

Im sorry that you had to endure so much pain. You really deserved better, but If you're completely sure about it, then I hope everything works out for you and you have a peaceful journey.

 

[kawaiiphantom]

SN arrived earlier today. I already measured out the appropriate amount and made 2 drinks (one as backup in case I vomit) and am currently waiting a few hours until it's later at night. Back story about why I'm ready to die:

My mother passed away from a suicide in 2014. I'm an only child and didn't have any brothers or sisters. I somehow remained positive after her death and eventually met a girl. I didn't believe I could ever love anyone the way I loved her. We fell in love and moved in together and were planning on getting married. She was killed this past November simply because she was in the wrong place at the wrong time; she was in her father's business and there was a shooting and she was hit by 2 stray bullets. Every day since she died I have wanted to die but I tried to give myself some time to see how I would feel. It was 3 months this past Friday and it's been getting worse with time. I simply don't have the will to live anymore after she's gone and I want to be with her again.

It's a shame that it's so damn hard to find a way to die without suffering but I'm pretty sure SN will do pretty well. I have only posted once before here but this forum has been a great resource for me and I want to say thank you from the bottom of my heart.

Take care everyone.

This genuinely made me want to cry. I'm so so sorry that happened you have been so strong auuu

 

[Guy Smiley]

I'm so sorry for your losses and all the terrible suffering they have caused you. I'm sorry that it has come to this, but I can completely understand why and respect your decision. May you be at peace

 

[Deleted member 65988]

Wow, you've been through so much in such a short amount of time and to have someone you love taken away from you like that, it was absolutely heartbreaking to read. I hope you find peace OP, you truly deserve it, to have it come to this is rather unfortunate.

 

[eashanm]

Good Luck!

 

[ali.hamza]

SN arrived earlier today. I already measured out the appropriate amount and made 2 drinks (one as backup in case I vomit) and am currently waiting a few hours until it's later at night. Back story about why I'm ready to die:

My mother passed away from a suicide in 2014. I'm an only child and didn't have any brothers or sisters. I somehow remained positive after her death and eventually met a girl. I didn't believe I could ever love anyone the way I loved her. We fell in love and moved in together and were planning on getting married. She was killed this past November simply because she was in the wrong place at the wrong time; she was in her father's business and there was a shooting and she was hit by 2 stray bullets. Every day since she died I have wanted to die but I tried to give myself some time to see how I would feel. It was 3 months this past Friday and it's been getting worse with time. I simply don't have the will to live anymore after she's gone and I want to be with her again.

It's a shame that it's so damn hard to find a way to die without suffering but I'm pretty sure SN will do pretty well. I have only posted once before here but this forum has been a great resource for me and I want to say thank you from the bottom of my heart.

Take care everyone.

I hope you find peace.

 

[boddibo]

Gosh, I'm so sorry for your losses, that's just heartbreaking to read. Life's just unfair.

I hope you find peace.

 

[rozeske]

This really is heartbreaking, am so sorry for the loss and pain you had to indure. I hope you have found your peace. Rest easy 🕊

 

[The Schizoid]

Just so you know you'll never be with her again.

I'm for anyone's right to die but as long as you're aware of what you're signing up for when it comes to death.

I want people to make informed decisions.

If you're dying because you genuinely think you'll see her again in the afterlife, realise that's quite unlikely.
Get triggered guys. You should formulate beliefs based on evidence not just whatever the fuck sounds nice to you.

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope that you find freedom from your suffering, best wishes.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I hope that you find peace in whatever you do

 

[SVEN]

Every good wish in achieving peace and rest. Go well, sleep easy unmet friend.

 

[Raven2]

I'm sorry for your losses, must be hard to bear.

 

[SadCloud1995]

I just read your post today. I'm so sorry for your loss. I hope you find peace my friend