tonight possibly

[internetslut]

I think tonight I'll go through with it.. the past week has been miserable, always ending with me sobbing my eyes out to my boyfriend through text. He doesnt know that I'm going to attempt; I'll probably just overdose and do a partial hanging. I guess you guys will see tomorrow if it worked

 

[Dliena]

i'm really sorry life has been a cruel bastard to ya and I wish you eternal peace if this is the outcome if not then hopefully it can come thru some other way.

 

[StaringIntoAnAbyss]

sounds fucking horrible, I hope it gets better. And I wish you best of luck In whatever decision you make

 

[internetslut]

Update on this: I'm pretty fucking sure that my boyfriend knows something is way wrong with me tonight, and made me promise to never leave his side ever - now I feel like shit even considering ctb because I feel horrible for "promising" him something that I'm going to permanently break in just a couple minutes. I probably wont do it now.. why do relationships have to be so hard when you're suicidal??