Tonight Might Be it (Method Fentanyl)

[darksoul999]

So in my last post i was venting about how i had to change my CTB plan's to next week because my Dad wanted to take a trip this weekend out of the blue to see my grandparents.

I told him i don't really feel up to it, he said i could just stay home.

I Unfortunately cancelled my hotel room for tonight because i did not want to seem sus staying home & not going.

The difference now is, he brought up the idea that i can just stay home "if i wanted"

well, ill have the house to myself with 2 grams of Fentanyl.

Should i book the room again?

Part of me does not want to be found dead by him, but i also would like to die comfortably in my clean room.

idk, ill make up my mind within the next few hours....

if i do decided to CTB tonight, i will make a Goodbye post documenting the whole thing.

Cheers :)

 

[hevnsfall]

It is up to you and your relationship with your dad. Are you two close or not? If yes, he will be the one to find you. And stuff like that would leave prolongued aftershock.

 

[Playingwiththedead]

So in my last post i was venting about how i had to change my CTB plan's to next week because my Dad wanted to take a trip this weekend out of the blue to see my grandparents.

I told him i don't really feel up to it, he said i could just stay home.

I Unfortunately cancelled my hotel room for tonight because i did not want to seem sus staying home & not going.

The difference now is, he brought up the idea that i can just stay home "if i wanted"

well, ill have the house to myself with 2 grams of Fentanyl.

Should i book the room again?

Part of me does not want to be found dead by him, but i also would like to die comfortably in my clean room.

idk, ill make up my mind within the next few hours....

if i do decided to CTB tonight, i will make a Goodbye post documenting the whole thing.

Cheers :)

This is entirely up to you. You have to take into account your relationship with your dad, and also how desensitized/ not desensitized he is to seeing disturbing things. People seem to get extra traumatized seeing someone they are attached to dead by suicide especially if they have a super conservative view on it they will be even worse affected because of their views (i have talked to many personally and i think they sound ridiculous i.e. an old suicidal man saying his 15 year old daughter was a "selfish asshole" because she ctb). I doubt you have as terrible a relationship with your parents as me and thus wouldnt want to give them a big fuck you in death, if that is the case that you dont want that i would definitely advise to not do it at home

 

[darksoul999]

This is entirely up to you. You have to take into account your relationship with your dad, and also how desensitized/ not desensitized he is to seeing disturbing things. People seem to get extra traumatized seeing someone they are attached to dead by suicide especially if they have a super conservative view on it they will be even worse affected because of their views (i have talked to many personally and i think they sound ridiculous i.e. an old suicidal man saying his 15 year old daughter was a "selfish asshole" because she ctb). I doubt you have as terrible a relationship with your parents as me and thus wouldnt want to give them a big fuck you in death, if that is the case that you dont want that i would definitely advise to not do it at home

I could make it look like an accidental overdose?

Put some shows on or a game and make it look like i was playing... Ill just look asleep but dead...

idk, do people take overdoses better emotionally than suicide?

its either i make it look like an accident. Or, suicide but at a hotel.

 

[Somewhat Suicidal]

I could make it look like an accidental overdose?

Doesnt make it necessarily less terrible for him...

You got benzos to go with the fentanyl? otherwise seems unsafe anyway depending how pure your fentanyl is...

good luck in any case