Tomorrow’s the day

[gr1lledcheese]

This morning I booked a room. I made it for three nights just to be sure I don't get found too quickly.

I'm nervous, and of course now that my time is imminent I'm starting to have second thoughts. But I know I have to do it.

I got a text about an hour ago from a friend I pet sit for about an upcoming job I have. I know I should answer her quickly, and tell her I can't do it so she can make other arrangements, but I'm dreading the conversation in general. I wish I'd canceled a few days ago when I realized how close it was.

It's scary planning this.

 

[NothingElseMatters]

It's scary planning this.

it is indeed

 

[dreadpirateroberts69]

I imagine it must be nerve wracking and scary. Just let yourself feel what you have to feel, only you can know if this is the right decision for yourself. And if you feel you need to reach out to someone for whatever reason, my inbox is open. I wish you peace.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand why you would be nervous. For many people it can be difficult to come to terms with the fact that you might die soon as after all existence is all we know. Whatever happens, I wish you the best.

 

[Crazy4u]

I hear you. We get nervous over silly things. It is understandable to feel nervous about ctb. If you don't feel ready, no rush. Sourcing out affairs can be daunting

 

[gr1lledcheese]

I understand why you would be nervous. For many people it can be difficult to come to terms with the fact that you might die soon as after all existence is all we know. Whatever happens, I wish you the best.

Thanks. I've got the SN, and the other things I need. I wanted to do this a couple weeks ago but remembered a pet sitting job I couldn't cancel. And so it was postponed. I don't want to wait any longer because of certain events that are coming up, and I want to be gone before they happen.
So I'll do it. But I am scared.

 

[Braindead Atheist]

This morning I booked a room. I made it for three nights just to be sure I don't get found too quickly.

I'm nervous, and of course now that my time is imminent I'm starting to have second thoughts. But I know I have to do it.

I got a text about an hour ago from a friend I pet sit for about an upcoming job I have. I know I should answer her quickly, and tell her I can't do it so she can make other arrangements, but I'm dreading the conversation in general. I wish I'd canceled a few days ago when I realized how close it was.

It's scary planning this.

I wish you luck and I wish you peace. I'm killing myself at the end of June. I bought a rope and hid it. I feel no attachment to this life.

 

[Thankyoufortoday]

I understand being nervous. I've backed out a few times myself. There's no shame in changing your mind or postponing your plans should it come to that

 

[gr1lledcheese]

I wish you luck and I wish you peace. I'm killing myself at the end of June. I bought a rope and hid it. I feel no attachment to this life.

Thank you. I have little to no attachment to this world either. I do wish I had more time though. I wish you much luck.

 

[VoidDesirer22]

Thanks. I've got the SN, and the other things I need. I wanted to do this a couple weeks ago but remembered a pet sitting job I couldn't cancel. And so it was postponed. I don't want to wait any longer because of certain events that are coming up, and I want to be gone before they happen.
So I'll do it. But I am scared.

Isn't it strange how we get so worried about clearing our schedule up, even if we'd be dead? I worry about this too, and want ample time for my shifts to be covered properly. I guess it is just best to minimize inconvenience.

 

[gr1lledcheese]

Isn't it strange how we get so worried about clearing our schedule up, even if we'd be dead? I worry about this too, and want ample time for my shifts to be covered properly. I guess it is just best to minimize inconvenience.

I guess it is. I know my death will be disruptive to my family and some of my friends (some more than others), but I want to do as much as I can to prevent inconveniences for others. I recently organized my tax information. I don't have all the paperwork yet so I can't do them myself before I go. I do feel bad for all the pet sitting I scheduled for people in the coming months though. Hey, if I could live on my pet sitting money alone, I wouldn't be on this site.

 

[GentleJerk]

Oh @gr1lledcheese I'm so sorry. I've really enjoyed your presence around here. Of course you would be nervous, that's perfectly understandable! There's something very noble about considering others even in the face of such a significant event. Make sure you consider yourself as much as others especially during this time, you deserve all the very best, if there's anything to help make all of this easier or less stressful for you, that's extremely important.

 

[Alec]

I love you and I'm thinking about you, you are not alone

 

[someonelse]

This morning I booked a room. I made it for three nights just to be sure I don't get found too quickly.

I'm nervous, and of course now that my time is imminent I'm starting to have second thoughts. But I know I have to do it.

I got a text about an hour ago from a friend I pet sit for about an upcoming job I have. I know I should answer her quickly, and tell her I can't do it so she can make other arrangements, but I'm dreading the conversation in general. I wish I'd canceled a few days ago when I realized how close it was.

It's scary planning this.

I'm planning to ctb on Saturday and im having similar feelings. I think it's normal to be nervous and a bit scared. Whatever you decide I wish you the best and hope you find peace in whatever form you can find it.

 

[gr1lledcheese]

I just checked in, and unpacked. Still pretty nervous. The hardest part so far was saying goodbye to my friend's dogs. At least they'll never know.

 

[Gordy99]

I just checked in, and unpacked. Still pretty nervous. The hardest part so far was saying goodbye to my friend's dogs. At least they'll never know.

I hope you find peace. I wish you the best.