Tomorrow is my last day on Earth / Goodbye

[someonelse]

Tomorrow I will ctb at midnight Los Angeles time. I fluctuate between being very numb and crying a lot. I feel bad that I'm having my last conversations with friends and family and they don't know it but I do. And I feel bad that I'm not prepared enough. I don't have a will but I also don't have much money so I've kind of just left things to be settled. I can't imagine there being any fighting over my meager savings.

Tomorrow I'm getting a massage and going to the beach to watch the sunset. Any thoughts on what else I should do my last day on Earth?

I'm finding a lot of comfort in this site so just wanted to post. I'll update this once I take the SN or am preparing to. Thank you for reading.

 

[olkf]

What is exact regime?

 

[someonelse]

What is exact regime?

I'm following this but I'm using Ondansetron instead of Metoclopramide because it's all I could get from my doctor.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

Sorry life brought you here. I hope you are able to find peace. Watching the sunset sounds awesome.
I don't live near a beach or I would do the same. I would love to CTB on a beach at sunset. Just drift off peacefully into the night. I may watch a movie I like and listen to music. I just would like to be alone.

 

[Kristicide]

I hope you find peace. The massage and beach sounds really nice if you ask me. I know when I do it I'll be too lazy to do anything special. I can fake the beach though by watching one of those 7hr videos on YouTube of a beach with waves crashing. So you inspired me a little.

 

[occamsrazor]

I would add dancing to my favorite song like a fool since it would be my last dance. Otherwise, seems like a beautiful day. I hope you have a safe trip, love

p.s take this with little stress onto yourself or no importance at all but I would recommend you write even simple instructions on scratch paper as to how to handle your bank account if you have no joint owner or beneficiary. I understand you said you didn't have much; if no indication is given by the acct owner the funds are given to the state gov

You are deserving of all the love and happiness.

 

[olkf]

@someonelse I also could only get Ondansetron but stated before it will not work as an AE for SN

 

[NearlyIrrelevantCake]

Godspeed.

 

[Bake]

May you be free from suffering in the hereafter

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry for all of the suffering that has lead you to this point. I like the idea of watching the sunset. I wish you the best in whatever happens.

 

[OldDrummer]

Tomorrow I will ctb at midnight Los Angeles time. I fluctuate between being very numb and crying a lot. I feel bad that I'm having my last conversations with friends and family and they don't know it but I do. And I feel bad that I'm not prepared enough. I don't have a will but I also don't have much money so I've kind of just left things to be settled. I can't imagine there being any fighting over my meager savings.

Tomorrow I'm getting a massage and going to the beach to watch the sunset. Any thoughts on what else I should do my last day on Earth?

I'm finding a lot of comfort in this site so just wanted to post. I'll update this once I take the SN or am preparing to. Thank you for reading.

Safe travels.

 

[someonelse]

@someonelse I also could only get Ondansetron but stated before it will not work as an AE for SN

Did you try it? I don't really have any other options so am going to hope for the best I guess. I read that some people manage to do it without an antiemetic

 

[FractalTears]

i wish you all the best. Please don't forget its always okay to opt out or change things.

 

[forgetme]

Listen to music while you watch the sunset. I wish you peace

 

[Sanva]

safe travels, I hope you can find peace.

 

[Feeding Pigeons]

Good luck, godspeed.

 

[olkf]

Did you try it? I don't really have any other options so am going to hope for the best I guess. I read that some people manage to do it without an antiemetic

Nope, but from spreading time on this forum it will not work. If it worked I would have taken it weeks ago

 

[angiegirl30]

I am thinking of you. Remember it's okay to change your mind or your plans. Sending love your way.

 

[Enoughnow]

Tomorrow I will ctb at midnight Los Angeles time. I fluctuate between being very numb and crying a lot. I feel bad that I'm having my last conversations with friends and family and they don't know it but I do. And I feel bad that I'm not prepared enough. I don't have a will but I also don't have much money so I've kind of just left things to be settled. I can't imagine there being any fighting over my meager savings.

Tomorrow I'm getting a massage and going to the beach to watch the sunset. Any thoughts on what else I should do my last day on Earth?

I'm finding a lot of comfort in this site so just wanted to post. I'll update this once I take the SN or am preparing to. Thank you for reading.

Hi just to be clear I'm not judging in anyway because I fully intend to kill myself in the next few days too I'm going to sound very hypocritical in saying this considering I'm not taking my own advice but is there anyway you can just do those things most days like massage and going to the beach clearly that's something you do that gives you some sort of peace is there a way before you go ahead with it that you can find some way of doing things that give you this kind of peaceful feeling everyday then maybe you'll experience happiness and not have to go through with it I'm sorry I'm not trying to sound in anyway judgey because I know I'm being a hypocrite I know Its not usually possible I'm making it sound easy it's not possible for me personally but I just thought I'd ask before you do it because once it's done it can't be undone I'm sorry I just thought I'd ask if there's anyway before it's too late
Big hugs and much love ❤

 

[someonelse]

Nope, but from spreading time on this forum it will not work. If it worked I would have taken it weeks ago

I'm going to still try it. I found a case online where someone passed using it with SN

https://www.researchgate.net/publication/341834507_A_fatal_case_by_a_suicide_kit_containing_sodium_nitrite_ordered_by_the_internet

Hi just to be clear I'm not judging in anyway because I fully intend to kill myself in the next few days too I'm going to sound very hypocritical in saying this considering I'm not taking my own advice but is there anyway you can just do those things most days like massage and going to the beach clearly that's something you do that gives you some sort of peace is there a way before you go ahead with it that you can find some way of doing things that give you this kind of peaceful feeling everyday then maybe you'll experience happiness and not have to go through with it I'm sorry I'm not trying to sound in anyway judgey because I know I'm being a hypocrite I know Its not usually possible I'm making it sound easy it's not possible for me personally but I just thought I'd ask before you do it because once it's done it can't be undone I'm sorry I just thought I'd ask if there's anyway before it's too late
Big hugs and much love ❤

Thanks for writing. Nothing really gives me peace but sleep. And I'm looking forward to sleeping forever. You're not a hypocrite. It's hard to read these messages and I often have the same instinct: to try to stop people. But I'm so miserable and my life is such a disaster that it feels like the only option for me. I don't want you to kill yourself either. I don't want anyone to kill themselves but after what I've been through in life I understand it. I hope you find peace and sending you big hugs and much love back.

 

[Of The Universe]

I hope you are free from suffering and as always its your choice!!! If you need to wait,that's fine! Good luck!

 

[miserableforever]

Thanks for writing. Nothing really gives me peace but sleep. And I'm looking forward to sleeping forever. You're not a hypocrite. It's hard to read these messages and I often have the same instinct: to try to stop people. But I'm so miserable and my life is such a disaster that it feels like the only option for me. I don't want you to kill yourself either. I don't want anyone to kill themselves but after what I've been through in life I understand it. I hope you find peace and sending you big hugs and much love back.

That's exactly how I feel. I don't want anyone here to depart, but I also know how life sometimes makes it look like there is no other option.
You live pretty close to me and for some reason that makes it even harder to watch. I'm so sorry you feel like this. I wish I could send band aids to everyone to make the pain go away.
All the best to you

 

[Ψ YearZero Ψ]

Safe travels. I hope you find peace.

 

[someonelse]

It's now a little under six hours until I take the SN. I'm now afraid my antiemetic won't work but I'm hoping for the best. I'm getting a bit anxious. Got a massage and watched the sunset at the beach today. I cried a lot while at the beach. What a sad life. Thank you everyone for the kind comments. I really appreciate them. You all make me feel less alone. Please PM me if you feel like talking.

 

[wanttodie]

good luck

 

[Rabhen]

Tomorrow I will ctb at midnight Los Angeles time. I fluctuate between being very numb and crying a lot. I feel bad that I'm having my last conversations with friends and family and they don't know it but I do. And I feel bad that I'm not prepared enough. I don't have a will but I also don't have much money so I've kind of just left things to be settled. I can't imagine there being any fighting over my meager savings.

Tomorrow I'm getting a massage and going to the beach to watch the sunset. Any thoughts on what else I should do my last day on Earth?

I'm finding a lot of comfort in this site so just wanted to post. I'll update this once I take the SN or am preparing to. Thank you for reading.

My heart to you. My thoughts are with you. I will miss your postings and responses. Peace and comfort to you.

It's now a little under six hours until I take the SN. I'm now afraid my antiemetic won't work but I'm hoping for the best. I'm getting a bit anxious. Got a massage and watched the sunset at the beach today. I cried a lot while at the beach. What a sad life. Thank you everyone for the kind comments. I really appreciate them. You all make me feel less alone. Please PM me if you feel like talking.

Peace and comfort my love, my heart is with you.

 

[demuic]

I hope that all goes well and you are free from pain and suffering.

 

[miserableforever]

It's now a little under six hours until I take the SN. I'm now afraid my antiemetic won't work but I'm hoping for the best. I'm getting a bit anxious. Got a massage and watched the sunset at the beach today. I cried a lot while at the beach. What a sad life. Thank you everyone for the kind comments. I really appreciate them. You all make me feel less alone. Please PM me if you feel like talking.

I'd think it's very normal to feel anxious. I'm not here to tell you to choose another day, but you could.
I hope tonight works out however you want it to.

 

[albino_elk]

bye

 

[olkf]

I wonder if he was successful