tomorrow is Monday...

[Squalo]

this means i'll get up at 7am to go to work in a sad factory like a cog.
I'm sick of my life, I'm sick of being forced to work to survive, but unfortunately this will be my sentence for another 40 years unless my soul leaves my body.

I'm 30 and my unhappy future is already written: I exist only to work, I've never traveled, never kissed, never had a single happy day in this horrible life; I've always lived in a small rural town with a worker mentality that has made me yet another ignorant worker without any talent.

I feel like an ant, an ant in the midst of billions of other ants all the same, that load the alarm clock at 7 to go to work in a sad factory, 5 days a week.
I can't take it anymore, every day is getting worse; I hope to leave this world as soon as possible, because this world full of slaves, pollution, factories and asphalt disgusts me.

 

[NothingElseMatters]

i'm on the same boat, except i wake up at 6.

 

[The Abyss]

Imagine dying before retirement while some other fuck gets 40 years after the fact, an early retirement & plenty of money on hand.

Literally costing money every day just to exist while mostly doing nothing jobs; what a farce.

 

[FuneralCry]

This life really is so horrible, cruel and unfair. To me, life is so pointless and unnecessary as well, it is depressing the thought of suffering until old age just for the sake of it. I'm sorry that you are in this awful situation. I know that it is hard to carry on when things just get worse. I hope that you find what you are looking for.

 

[ornitier199]

I actually loathe the weekends so much, because it means things can't get done. And also things only run its course on "business days".
Besides that I have to get through Monday to be able to get access another method on Tuesday.

 

[hopelessdreams]

the ants analogy perfectly describes it. it's sad humanity has come to the point where you need to work 80% of your life in order to enjoy the other 10% (10% you'll probably sleep). for most people it works, because they have a great social life. but when you're faced with mental illness, childhood trauma or abuse, that 20% of joy becomes 20% of misery and overthinking.

 

[Zegers]

30-ish too and the truth is that life without a job that interests you sucks, as Stephen Hawkings said "dedication is what gives meaning to your life"
but if your job sucks there is no meaning at all.

 

[NobodyKnowsMe]

When I'm in my really dark phases, work is the best place for me because I can focus on the work tasks and not dwell on the depression crap. During those times, the week nights and weekends are the hardest because I have to find ways to keep my mind occupied (like watching tv, reading stuff, etc..) so that I don't start spiraling.

When I'm not really deep into the darkness, then I have to force myself to concentrate at work because I really am totally over this "work for a living" crap.

 

[Hurt]

It sucks A LOT. I fucking hate routine. Work eat study + depression and suicidal thoughts. It sucks so much. I cant be in this world anymore.

30-ish too and the truth is that life without a job that interests you sucks, as Stephen Hawkings said "dedication is what gives meaning to your life"
but if your job sucks there is no meaning at all.

Agreed. Lucky those who make a living of sth they love.

Mondays make me very suicidal. Another shitty week ahead. Fuck the week and wageslavery system. Damn I wish I could kms tonight.

 

[NoWayOut22]

Sadly, the families that rule the world wanted this, for all humanity to be slaves. Its their world, we just take part in it.

Im killing myself because of this reason. I hate being an ant, i say this to my family but they look at me like im weird. Like they would ratha be an ant than die.

Id rather die than be an ant.

The more miserable they make life, the more people will kill themselves, its another way of population control sadly.

 

[Someone123]

this means i'll get up at 7am to go to work in a sad factory like a cog.
I'm sick of my life, I'm sick of being forced to work to survive, but unfortunately this will be my sentence for another 40 years unless my soul leaves my body.

I'm 30 and my unhappy future is already written: I exist only to work, I've never traveled, never kissed, never had a single happy day in this horrible life; I've always lived in a small rural town with a worker mentality that has made me yet another ignorant worker without any talent.

I feel like an ant, an ant in the midst of billions of other ants all the same, that load the alarm clock at 7 to go to work in a sad factory, 5 days a week.
I can't take it anymore, every day is getting worse; I hope to leave this world as soon as possible, because this world full of slaves, pollution, factories and asphalt disgusts me.

My guess is that if you had someone to kiss it could change things, maybe you could find someone- maybe making finding someone a priority could help. :)

 

[8evergo]

06.06.2022 =666 the special day

 

[Judy Garland]

this means i'll get up at 7am to go to work in a sad factory like a cog.
I'm sick of my life, I'm sick of being forced to work to survive, but unfortunately this will be my sentence for another 40 years unless my soul leaves my body.

I'm 30 and my unhappy future is already written: I exist only to work, I've never traveled, never kissed, never had a single happy day in this horrible life; I've always lived in a small rural town with a worker mentality that has made me yet another ignorant worker without any talent.

I feel like an ant, an ant in the midst of billions of other ants all the same, that load the alarm clock at 7 to go to work in a sad factory, 5 days a week.
I can't take it anymore, every day is getting worse; I hope to leave this world as soon as possible, because this world full of slaves, pollution, factories and asphalt disgusts me.

I know the feeling. I felt like that at every place I worked. Just a number who can easily be replaced. I no longer work and I always have homelessness looming over me. I'll be dead before being homeless again. If I go homeless, my first and last stop is the woods 2 miles away. There, I would take my SN and sit back on a tree.
Do this! Or else! People are afraid of homelessness, so they work, sometimes 2 jobs. I wish I were dead.

 

[NobodyKnowsMe]

My guess is that if you had someone to kiss it could change things, maybe you could find someone- maybe making finding someone a priority could help. :)

Not necessariy. I have someone to kiss -- it doesn't help.

 

[Messgram]

every sunday at afternoon i suffer from anxiety because on monday i have to wake up at 6 am to work. I hate having to work, I hate having to wake up early and go to that hell to do things I hate and see those stupid people that I don't care about . So much struggle to earn a miserable salary that doesn't bring me any dignity.
I hate how people demand the most from me at work but when it's time to pay me they give me the least. I hate the way I'm treated there, like I'm an object, a robot that must keep producing non-stop until the last drop of blood runs out.
I'm seriously considering injuring myself mortally so I can be crippled and never have to go back to that prison-like factory again.

 

[NobodyKnowsMe]

Oh, I was confused because your post said "never kissed".

It was the OP that said they had never kissed.

I was simply replying that having someone to kiss does not necessarily fix the suicidal stuff.

 

[Adamsnolife]

I hate it. It also means when Monday comes it's another week gone that I haven't ctb.

 

[September5th]

The fundamental problem is that, unless you're having the time of your life, you can't enjoy the "little things". You can't enjoy a warm day or a nice sunset. It's all about working and dealing with problems created by other humans. It sucks. Yeah, life has its moments. However, we shouldn't endure a miserable existence just to get to them. I was happy for what? An year? Nice. But the rest sucks so much.
Having to work just to eat is so fucking miserable. I'm in a similar place as you. I've lost everything. EVERYTHING. I'll be waking up tomorrow just to sorrow. Shit life.

 

[Someone123]

It was the OP that said they had never kissed.

I was simply replying that having someone to kiss does not necessarily fix the suicidal stuff.

Sorry, I thought you were the OP, because that seemed important to that person. Of course there are bigger problems that this cannot help. Sorry I misunderstood.

 

[DarkRocket]

30-ish too and the truth is that life without a job that interests you sucks, as Stephen Hawkings said "dedication is what gives meaning to your life"
but if your job sucks there is no meaning at all.

Yes, and this is why life is terrible and horrible. In order to survive and thrive in life, you have to do a job you HATE or dislike. I chose a career with interests that I like, the law specifically. However, paralegals these days make horrible money for the most part, compared to inflation at least.

If I did a "useful" job, I may get paid more, but I'd be miserable or sad doing it. That's why life is terrible......it's almost always filled with bad choices.

Sadly, the families that rule the world wanted this, for all humanity to be slaves. Its their world, we just take part in it.

Im killing myself because of this reason. I hate being an ant, i say this to my family but they look at me like im weird. Like they would ratha be an ant than die.

Id rather die than be an ant.

The more miserable they make life, the more people will kill themselves, its another way of population control sadly.

Fully agreed. I will kill myself at some point, for this reason right here. Life as an ant not making much money sucks, and a waste of time in my opinion. I'd rather die than be a slave in a pointless system that will only impoverish me (aka not give me enough money to afford a home).

 

[WeepingWillow]

06.06.2022 =666 the special day

Really like where you're going with this

 

[Adamsnolife]

Really like where you're going with this

At 06:06 am

At 06:06 am

Really like where you're going with this

Actually if I did that, I'd be off in under 20 minutes time as it's 5:48 am

 

[M.i.245541]

Mondays are the worst, but then again, it's just another trigger for me. Life sucks sadly