Help tomorrow I am going to talk w my psychiatrist - how to approach her?

[sgifeei]

So I have been going to psych appointments at this local hospital for almost 3 years.
Anxiety and depression are getting worse and worse, and idk how to deal with that anymore, I cant deal with it anymore.
If I tell her I want to ctb, she will prob put me in a closed type psych ward, which I dont want to, and my parents will be devestated.
But if I do not tell her or just tell her I am anxious she might not take me seriously, or just do nothing w my meds or approach like she did before.
I also cant afford to go to different, private psychiatrist, so she is all that I have.
How would you approach this, or is there any advice you would give to me?
Idk, I am trying so hard to stay alive, and I rly seem to do a bad job at it.

 

[LastNite]

I think if you tell them that you still want to kill yourself they won't put you in a psych ward but if you are at immediate risk then they will. Like having an exact date or plan or the means to suicide for example owning a gun, having drugs at your access, or having a rope that you plan to use.

 

[sgifeei]

I think if you tell them that you still want to kill yourself they won't put you in a psych ward but if you are at immediate risk then they will. Like having an exact date or plan or the means to suicide for example owning a gun, having drugs at your access, or having a rope that you plan to use.

Thank you. I mean, I did tell her before I was suicidal but never that I had a plan even though I had.

 

[LastNite]

Thank you. I mean, I did tell her before I was suicidal but never that I had a plan even though I had.

well I did tell my counselor once that I have a plan but didnt go much into it so she didnt bother much to ask more. I just said I have one. I guess telling them that you have a plan wouldn't put you in a psych ward, but if the plan is all set up then yes? Sorry I really dont know how it all works. Psychiatrists are all different from each other and each one will assess a person differently. One psychiatrist might say that you're at immediate risk and they might put you in a psych ward and the other might say you're not.

just word it in a way so that they won't think you're at immediate risk to avoid going in a psych ward.