Tomorrow-7pm- my goodbye thread

[Idontmatter]

I've made it to our hotel and my ctb partner is getting some stuff together and is headed here shortly. I guess I'll start the goodbye thread. Tomorrow evening at 7 is when we are drinking the sn. I'll post on this thread when we are about to drink it but will probably log off after. I'm scared shitless that I'm going to fail but we are going step by step from the protocol so it should work out. Hopefully my husband forgives me. As always thank you to everyone on here for your support. It's been a long road up to this point. I tried to hold out for any hope but now motivation is completely gone. I'm set on this decision and this is what I want and my ctb partner is as well. We both are ready to get it done and over with. Wish us luck and any positive thoughts are appreciated.

 

[almostoutofhere]

Good luck, hopefully everything goes as you wish

 

[sincerelysad]

good luck, i hope you find peace. hugs

 

[pipapo]

all the best! you won't regret the decision after you took it and all the endless thinking about the situation..

 

[jessisme]

I hope it's a smooth transition for you and your partner. Love and Peace. xo

 

[Idontmatter]

I'm terrified I'm going to wake up after passing out

 

[Fulminare]

I honestly envy you both so much. It's so rare to find a partner that is actually serious about pulling through. I wish you all the best, please take care and be there for each other!

 

[stilhavinightmares]

Wishing for the most peaceful transition for you and your partner, and peace to your husband and family. You will be so missed by so many.

 

[Idontmatter]

I honestly envy you both so much. It's so rare to find a partner that is actually serious about pulling through. I wish you all the best, please take care and be there for each other!

We have been texting back and forth the past several weeks so we can help each other get through until today. We are having a final meal tonight and then fasting starts. Planning on going for a walk tomorrow before we start our prep of the sn.

 

[iwanttodie1]

How did u find a partner For this?

 

[stilhavinightmares]

We have been texting back and forth the past several weeks so we can help each other get through until today. We are having a final meal tonight and then fasting starts. Planning on going for a walk tomorrow before we start our prep of the sn.

What's the final meal?

 

[Idontmatter]

What's the final meal?

Haven't decided yet. I'm waiting for my ctb partner to get here and we are going to have something delivered. I want Mexican… lol

How did u find a partner For this?

We found each other on here through the partners thread. We talked on here for a little while and then started texting. He has the meds and I have the sn so we are joining forces

 

[stilhavinightmares]

Haven't decided yet. I'm waiting for my ctb partner to get here and we are going to have something delivered. I want Mexican… lol

We found each other on here through the partners thread. We talked on here for a little while and then started texting. He has the meds and I have the sn so we are joining forces

Mmmm Mexican…Something with tons of cheese sounds amazing, or at least that's what I would pick

 

[Idontmatter]

Mmmm Mexican…Something with tons of cheese sounds amazing, or at least that's what I would pick

Yes! Yummy..lol. I just have to be careful to make sure my stomach doesn't get upset or anything.. lol

 

[jessisme]

I'm terrified I'm going to wake up after passing out

I am too. I'm scared of other things happening or not happening too. I hope I get over it by this spring when I plan to ctb. I can't do it now because I have to wait until the weather warms up so I can do it outside. I don't think the fears are anything you get over really. Probably just something you have to push through. xoxox

 

[FuneralCry]

Farewell, I envy you, you are fortunate to be leaving this awful world. I hope that you find the freedom that you wish for.

 

[Dead Meat]

Wishing you all the best @Idontmatter for a very comfortable and pleasant journey, and may you find everlasting peace and tranquility you Beautiful Soul

 

[stilhavinightmares]

Yes! Yummy..lol. I just have to be careful to make sure my stomach doesn't get upset or anything.. lol

I know, I was thinking that too lol

 

[GasMonkey]

See you on the Other Side.

 

[Jimblue]

I wish you and him can finally reach what you want. Good luck and hug.

 

[donealready]

 

[Idontmatter]

What's the final meal?

It did end up being Mexican food . Now I just have to calm my nerves.. lol

 

[stilhavinightmares]

It did end up being Mexican food . Now I just have to calm my nerves.. lol

Yes!!! I hope you both enjoyed. I cannot imagine how you feel right now. Thank goodness you have your partner and you are keeping each other company while waiting!

If you don't mind me asking, where does your husband think you are currently?

 

[Idontmatter]

Yes!!! I hope you both enjoyed. I cannot imagine how you feel right now. Thank goodness you have your partner and you are keeping each other company while waiting!

If you don't mind me asking, where does your husband think you are currently?

He thinks I'm on a trip for work. I feel so guilty for lying to him. He will be devastated when he gets the call about me. Hopefully he will understand

 

[Miss Anthropy]

I wish you both all of the best!

 

[Idontmatter]

Today is the day and I'm nervous. Also hungry.. lol. Tonight must work. I'll take seroquel later today before drinking sn since it makes me sleepy. My ctb partner is still sleeping. Once he gets up we can prepare stuff for tonight. Sorry if I ramble.. I ramble when I'm nervous. I'm ready to lay in bed and go to sleep forever. I want to eat but can't. It's crazy to know that these are my last hours alive. Once 7pm hits the sn will be drank and it will be all over.

 

[MideonNViscera]

Today is the day and I'm nervous. Also hungry.. lol. Tonight must work. I'll take seroquel later today before drinking sn since it makes me sleepy. My ctb partner is still sleeping. Once he gets up we can prepare stuff for tonight. Sorry if I ramble.. I ramble when I'm nervous. I'm ready to lay in bed and go to sleep forever. I want to eat but can't. It's crazy to know that these are my last hours alive. Once 7pm hits the sn will be drank and it will be all over.

Don't worry about rambling. We're all right here willing to listen to anything you have to say.

 

[pained_soul]

Today is the day and I'm nervous. Also hungry.. lol. Tonight must work. I'll take seroquel later today before drinking sn since it makes me sleepy. My ctb partner is still sleeping. Once he gets up we can prepare stuff for tonight. Sorry if I ramble.. I ramble when I'm nervous. I'm ready to lay in bed and go to sleep forever. I want to eat but can't. It's crazy to know that these are my last hours alive. Once 7pm hits the sn will be drank and it will be all over.

Thinking of you, ramble if it helps, but you've nothing to apologise for.
Do you mind if I ask if you're taking any other meds, or just seroquel then sn?

 

[jessisme]

Today is the day and I'm nervous. Also hungry.. lol. Tonight must work. I'll take seroquel later today before drinking sn since it makes me sleepy. My ctb partner is still sleeping. Once he gets up we can prepare stuff for tonight. Sorry if I ramble.. I ramble when I'm nervous. I'm ready to lay in bed and go to sleep forever. I want to eat but can't. It's crazy to know that these are my last hours alive. Once 7pm hits the sn will be drank and it will be all over.

We feel honored that you choose to include us in your final hours and hope we can be of some help or comfort to you through the process. I'm sure it seems scary but it seems you are assured of the outcome you desire as you have done everything right. Do keep us posted. Hugs and love to you. xoxoxoxo

 

[Idontmatter]

Thinking of you, ramble if it helps, but you've nothing to apologise for.
Do you mind if I ask if you're taking any other meds, or just seroquel then sn?

My ctb partner has an ae, I forget which one. He has some Oxy as well. He has the protocol steps written down so we can follow it. Hell, I'm already sleepy. Lol

We feel honored that you choose to include us in your final hours and hope we can be of some help or comfort to you through the process. I'm sure it seems scary but it seems you are assured of the outcome you desire as you have done everything right. Do keep us posted. Hugs and love to you. xoxoxoxo

I'll probably post throughout the day to keep my nerves calm. We have to get some small things we still need. Once my ctb partner wakes up we can go from there.