Today’s the day… Again

[willitpass]

Today I have my routine IV infusion for my health issues. I've got a syringe of contaminated water ready that's been sitting for a couple of days in mostly ideal conditions to allow as many bacteria to grow as possible. Based on where I've sourced it, it will be millions, maybe even billions of bacteria. Straight to the vein. I will likely be gone, or at least unconscious, within 12 hours or less. I'm so ready to be gone. It won't be pleasant, but I plan on taking some of my prescriptions to try and help with the symptoms.

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

Oh man. That doesn't sound like it'll work.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

You've tried this previously (Today's the day.....Again)? You've researched this "method"?

 

[nobodycaresaboutme]

Are you going to die by sepsis? If you mean this, I'd like you to have a second thought. Even though you are sure the water is full of bacteria, it's not certain that it includes the specific kind of bacteria that leads to sepsis and death. Additionally it will be so painful and you cannot help seeking medical attention by yourself or someone notices you are screaming in pain. If you fully understand those and are still convinced, all I can do is to hope that it goes well. But it's extremely unlikely to work for you. I know this is not what you want to hear. I'm sorry.

 

[kufajoy]

Oh man. That doesn't sound like it'll work.(2)

 

[houseofleaves]

will likely be gone, or at least unconscious, within 12 hours or less

Why do you think so? Some kinds of deaths by blood being contaminated can be very long and gruesome

 

[Arvayn]

No, it'll definitely work if he doesn't seek treatment, sepsis is no joke. It's just... extremely, extremely unpleasant and painful.

I'm sorry that life has brought you to this, mate.

 

[willitpass]

You've tried this previously (Today's the day.....Again)? You've researched this "method"?

I've not done this method before. I have had many attempts before, hence the "again". I have researched this method extensively as well as having a healthcare background. I already have poor health due to rapidly progressing chronic illness. Even a healthy person being inundated with billions of bacteria from my source would likely die within 48 hours at the latest.

Why do you think so? Some kinds of deaths by blood being contaminated can be very long and gruesome

Are you going to die by sepsis? If you mean this, I'd like you to have a second thought. Even though you are sure the water is full of bacteria, it's not certain that it includes the specific kind of bacteria that leads to sepsis and death. Additionally it will be so painful and you cannot help seeking medical attention by yourself or someone notices you are screaming in pain. If you fully understand those and are still convinced, all I can do is to hope that it goes well. But it's extremely unlikely to work for you. I know this is not what you want to hear. I'm sorry.

I've got extensive healthcare experience. I spent a lot of time researching my source for the bacteria, and the kind that will with pretty much absolute certainty be in this are known to be particularly volatile. Even if I am not dead, I will be unconscious. And I have lots of medications due to my chronic health issues that I will take to manage the nausea and pain that also will cause me to be extremely drowsy and fall asleep. I've been septic before, and with where my health issues, I won't feel much different than I do on a bad flare day until things are to later stages, at which point I may already be unconscious or too delirious to know what's happening.

No, it'll definitely work if he doesn't seek treatment, sepsis is no joke. It's just... extremely, extremely unpleasant and painful.

I'm sorry that life has brought you to this, mate.

The odds of not going septic from this are pretty much non existent. And the odds of surviving sepsis without treatment are just the same. This will kill me without treatment, and depending on how delayed it is, likely even with treatment. But yes, it will be a horrific death before I become unconscious. That's why I plan on taking meds to both help with the symptoms and will knock me out. I would never recommend this to anyone, but I've failed so many other methods, I'm at a loss of what else to try. This is unfortunately the best method at my disposal right now.

 

[Arvayn]

Man, I hate the INAPPROPRIATELY SMILING HUG EMOJI they force you to use on this stupid website...

How in particular do you even know that your source has the type of bacteria you're looking for? Unless answering that would give something away that you don't want people to know, I guess.

 

[willitpass]

Man, I hate the INAPPROPRIATELY SMILING HUG EMOJI they force you to use on this stupid website...

How in particular do you even know that your source has the type of bacteria you're looking for? Unless answering that would give something away that you don't want people to know, I guess.

I won't say it outright, as again, this is something I wouldn't want anyone to repeat. Anyone who wants to try this would be able to put two and two together, but I personally just feel better making it less obvious. May be stupid, but morally I just wouldn't want to be the reason someone else did this. But it's a source available to anyone. It's a natural source that happens all day every day, and these bacteria are already living inside everyone at all times, but they are not meant to enter the bloodstream. IV drug users or extreme trauma are the most common ones to get these bacteria in their bloodstream, and the outcomes are grim. The type and quantity of bacteria are known to cause rapid onset sepsis, causing critical illness (and thus delirium or stupor) often in 6 hours or so. Death is pretty much guaranteed if treatment is delayed by 6 hours, which my hope is to be able to take my meds in time to fall asleep well before then and simply never wake up. I won't feel good by any means, but it wouldn't be too far off from going to bed when having a bad symptom flare from my chronic illness. Then I can die in my sleep, unaware of what's happening.

 

[nobodycaresaboutme]

I've got extensive healthcare experience. I spent a lot of time researching my source for the bacteria, and the kind that will with pretty much absolute certainty be in this are known to be particularly volatile. Even if I am not dead, I will be unconscious. And I have lots of medications due to my chronic health issues that I will take to manage the nausea and pain that also will cause me to be extremely drowsy and fall asleep. I've been septic before, and with where my health issues, I won't feel much different than I do on a bad flare day until things are to later stages, at which point I may already be unconscious or too delirious to know what's happening.

If you have gotten extensive healthcare experience, why do you prefer the dirty water over SN, hanging, or N that might be accessible to healthcare workers. And haven't you seen a patient suffering from severe pain which cannot be alleviated even by opioids? I honestly feel like a big red flag is waving in front of me.

 

[willitpass]

If you have gotten extensive healthcare experience, why do you prefer the dirty water over SN, hanging, or N that might be accessible to healthcare workers. And haven't you seen a patient suffering from severe pain which cannot be alleviated even by opioids? I honestly feel like a big red flag is waving in front of me.

I've survived both SN and multiple attempts at hanging. I've also survived going over a dam in freezing temperatures as well as overdoses and years of potentially lethal self harm. This is not my first choice of a method. And at least in the US, N is not available to healthcare workers. And yes, I have both seen and experienced intractable pain. My health is declining rapidly. I am in pain every day. I am reliant on medications and surgically implanted medical devices to even sort of live, and there is no quality of life in it. I did not opt into this lightly. I am well aware of the risk I am taking, and hence my not sharing the source of bacteria as I would never want anyone else to try this. But the pain for the 6-48 hours following (though I would slip into unconsciousness well before death) are worth it to cease my daily mental and physical pain.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Even a healthy person being inundated with billions of bacteria from my source would likely die within 48 hours at the latest.

Says who? As I'm sure you know because of your background, we all ingest millions upon millions of bacteria each and every day. Our body's immune system has "memory" as to how to fight these bacteria and kill them off. In most cases it takes a "novel" bacterium that are immune system has never encountered to do us real harm. I just don't think you're going to get that from some water that's been sitting out. You might get sick from it for a time, but a lot of that sickness will be from the effects of the immune system doing its job. To me, for this "method" to be effective, you would need to inject yourself with "something".....something known to exist in the injection, like botulinum toxin, or Salmonella, or something that is actually present in the water. Just because the water is putrid doesn't make the "deadly" bacteria magically appear. And I don't know what kind of water you're using, but (usually, in most places) it has been "treated" with all kinds of chemicals entirely meant to retard, or prohibit, the growth of truly dangerous bacteria. Honestly, I just don't see this working out the way you desire.

 

[willitpass]

Says who? As I'm sure you know because of your background, we all ingest millions upon millions of bacteria each and every day. Our body's immune system has "memory" as to how to fight these bacteria and kill them off. In most cases it takes a "novel" bacterium that are immune system has never encountered to do us real harm. I just don't think you're going to get that from some water that's been sitting out. You might get sick from it for a time, but a lot of that sickness will be from the effects of the immune system doing its job. To me, for this "method" to be effective, you would need to inject yourself with "something".....something known to exist in the injection, like botulinum toxin, or Salmonella, or something that is actually present in the water. Just because the water is putrid doesn't make the "deadly" bacteria magically appear. And I don't know what kind of water you're using, but (usually, in most places) it has been "treated" with all kinds of chemicals entirely meant to retard, or prohibit, the growth of truly dangerous bacteria. Honestly, I just don't see this working out the way you desire.

If I were to drink the water or put it in a cut, or something of the like, yes, the body would fight it off. But to put a direct, incredibly massive load of bacteria into the bloodstream bypasses the immune defenses that would typically prevent this from becoming lethal. And again, I will not be sharing my source of the bacteria, but I can promise it contains very dangerous bacteria to enter the bloodstream. I am not stupid. I already have a healthcare background, as I said. If a patient presented with this case, it would be treated like a medical emergency before symptoms even began. And as I said, I am also aware of the risks. Worst comes to worst I am simply sick for a little while and then eventually get better, but through my preexisting medical knowledge and extensive research on this, that is a nearly impossible outcome. Critical illness and eventual death, even with treatment, are nearly inevitable in this case.

 

[nobodycaresaboutme]

I've survived both SN and multiple attempts at hanging. I've also survived going over a dam in freezing temperatures as well as overdoses and years of potentially lethal self harm. This is not my first choice of a method. And at least in the US, N is not available to healthcare workers. And yes, I have both seen and experienced intractable pain. My health is declining rapidly. I am in pain every day. I am reliant on medications and surgically implanted medical devices to even sort of live, and there is no quality of life in it. I did not opt into this lightly. I am well aware of the risk I am taking, and hence my not sharing the source of bacteria as I would never want anyone else to try this. But the pain for the 6-48 hours following (though I would slip into unconsciousness well before death) are worth it to cease my daily mental and physical pain.

I'm sorry for your previous unsuccessful attempts. I understand that you cannot trust the methods anymore but I'd like to emphasize that it's the best to stick to reliable methods and follow the protocol.

 

[willitpass]

I'm sorry for your previous unsuccessful attempts. I understand that you cannot trust the methods anymore but I'd like to emphasize that it's the best to stick to reliable methods and follow the protocol.

I'm aware. Again, I am protecting my source because I would never want anyone to do this. The likelihood of not slipping into septic shock within hours is negligible. Even with treatment, severe illness and death are statistically extremely high probability. If I were to get taken to the hospital I would risk permanent organ damage, amputations, brain damage, etc. I am playing a massive gamble with the possibility of survival with very poor outcomes. And I will feel extremely unwell in the time between injecting it and when I slip into unconsciousness. I will do my best to manage with medications, but I know I will feel incredibly, incredibly sick. At this point, the pain and risk are ones I am willing to take. But yes, I agree that others should avoid this at all costs, the risks are extremely high.

 

[BullsDon'tFly]

I'm sorry you resorted to this option, sounds extremely painful. May I ask you why hanging and SN didn't work?
I hope you'll be feel better. Many hugs.

 

[willitpass]

I'm sorry you resorted to this option, sounds extremely painful. May I ask you why hanging didn't work?
I hope you'll be feel better. Many hugs.

I survived partial as my first attempt. I passed out several times and firmly believe if I had managed to pass out just one more time I would have died. But I had a headache like no other, and pain in my neck from rope burn. I was young, and my legs had gone numb and my nose was bleeding heavily, which scared me, so I called for help. Since then, I have trauma from that attempt. Now anytime I put anything around my neck, my body subconsciously causes my muscles to tense and my body to fight so I become unable to pass out. I've even tried take overdoses of muscle relaxers to fix that problem but the PTSD is too intense and I can't pass out.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

And again, I will not be sharing my source of the bacteria, but I can promise it contains very dangerous bacteria to enter the bloodstream.

All you said is that you (basically) left some water out. Still, I think, you need to know "what's" in it, and not just count on "it" being there. Ofc, the immune system is still going to fight whatever enters the body even if it enters directly via the bloodstream - we've all had cuts that have become infected. Unless you're introducing a known, dangerous bacterium, I'd have to give this a miniscule chance of working. Sorry. That's just how I see it. E-Coli killed my cousin, but he had ZERO immune system due to a previous bone marrow transplant. The body is more resilient than you think.

 

[The Sad Jeep Kid]

Brotato chip that is NOT gonna work.

And if it somehow does it's gonna be one of the most painful deaths. Do NOT do that dude.

 

[willitpass]

All you said is that you (basically) left some water out. Still, I think, you need to know "what's" in it, and not just count on "it" being there. Ofc, the immune system is still going to fight whatever enters the body even if it enters directly via the bloodstream - we've all had cuts that have become infected. Unless you're introducing a known, dangerous bacterium, I'd have to give this a miniscule chance of working. Sorry. That's just how I see it. E-Coli killed my cousin, but he had ZERO immune system due to a previous bone marrow transplant. The body is more resilient than you think.

Again, I am aware of what bacteria are in this water, but as I've said multiple times, I will not be sharing what it is. And yes, the immune system is more resilient than you think. But that's because there are many different check gates for bacteria to be stopped before they enter the blood. An infected cut has multiple sources of infection control before it enters the blood stream. When you inject bacteria directly into the blood, those systems are bypassed, and when there are millions to billions being injected at one time, the body cannot amount a reaction fast enough. If you are so worried, you can do some of your own research into contaminated water (again, I am aware of my source and the bacteria it will contain, I am just not sharing it, so you can use your discretion there) entering the blood stream. There are many sources discussing IV drug users, though there are also some case studies on medical contamination into IVs due to poor hygiene practices or contaminated blood products.

 

[BullsDon'tFly]

I survived partial as my first attempt. I passed out several times and firmly believe if I had managed to pass out just one more time I would have died. But I had a headache like no other, and pain in my neck from rope burn. I was young, and my legs had gone numb and my nose was bleeding heavily, which scared me, so I called for help. Since then, I have trauma from that attempt. Now anytime I put anything around my neck, my body subconsciously causes my muscles to tense and my body to fight so I become unable to pass out. I've even tried take overdoses of muscle relaxers to fix that problem but the PTSD is too intense and I can't pass out.

Sorry to hear that. I'm thinkin about hanging but I'm really afraid to miss the sweet spot and either suffer for minutes or be left with permanent damage. I couldn't imagine suffering enough to resort to infected water to spark sepsis. I wish you'll find a cure for your pain

 

[DeathSweetDeath]

I've survived both SN and multiple attempts at hanging.

I'm sorry . I hope this works for you. Could you tell us how you survived SN, and how bad the experience was?

 

[locked*n*loaded]

If you are so worried, you can do some of your own research into contaminated water (again, I am aware of my source and the bacteria it will contain, I am just not sharing it, so you can use your discretion there) entering the blood stream.

I'm not worried. Why would I be? It's your body. Do as you like. It's certainly foolhardy, imo, and it's not going to do what you hope it will do. And no, injecting into the bloodstream directly does not bypass all immunity safeguards. You should do your own research on that. That's my opinion and final word. Good luck.

 

[Forveleth]

Just wanted to check in and see if you are still with us.

 

[willitpass]

Just wanted to check in and see if you are still with us.

It's been about two hours since I did it. I've got a low grade fever, and despite receiving ample IV fluids during my appointment, my heart rate is very high. I have a mild headache and am a bit cold, and some random muscle pains. I took some meds and plan to go to bed. At the earliest, I could pass in my sleep over the next 12 hours, on the later end of things I may wake up in the morning feeling extremely unwell. Time will tell.

 

[TANETS]

Ty for your contributions to this site. Safe travels

 

[2muchpain2]

It's been about two hours since I did it. I've got a low grade fever, and despite receiving ample IV fluids during my appointment, my heart rate is very high. I have a mild headache and am a bit cold, and some random muscle pains. I took some meds and plan to go to bed. At the earliest, I could pass in my sleep over the next 12 hours, on the later end of things I may wake up in the morning feeling extremely unwell. Time will tell.

if you are still around in 24 hours please keep us posted. good luck I hope you find peace.

 

[willitpass]

Horrible chills and shakes, fever is climbing. Hips and leg muscles hurt, but I took some pain meds that are starting to kick in.
fever is climbing very very quickly even with meds

 

[darksouls]

Horrible chills and shakes, fever is climbing. Hips and leg muscles hurt, but I took some pain meds that are starting to kick in.
fever is climbing very very quickly even with meds

love and peace to you