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Natbee

Natbee

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Oct 22, 2025
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Today I broke down, I completely broke. I have been feeling empty. I'm stressed every single day and I just couldn't take it any more.
I went down to our local reserve and walked deep into the reserve forest threw a rope over the tree had metho in my hand. My husband realise something was wrong and kept texting me and I cried and I cried.

I sent him this text and I'm sending below and he left work and tracked my location and brought me home. I feel so hopeless an empty and I just don't wanna go on any more but I don't have the guts to go through with my suicide. The hospital just sends me home. I do not care.
Police and ambulance have taken me up three times in the last seven days in the Hospital discharges me. I don't know what to do anymore.

Hello My love

I love you with every ounce of my being , I love our family so much oh my god I am hurting so much. I don't know how to describe the pain that every day is getting harder and harder to breathe to function to be alert. I test hurt so much. I am so tired, not physically tired and mentally emotionally. I just I have tears pouring down my face as I send you this message. I want to be back to myself. I want to be the best wife for the best mother, but I don't know how the medication is not working and I can't keep waiting.
You think that I don't want to live because I don't love my family. I love you so much. It hurts and you are the children are the only thing that has been keeping me alive but I can't do it any more. I am so tired please forgive me Craig . Please tell your family that I'll always love them. Blocked mums number so she can't call and tell me off.

I love you please always remember that please please please always remember how much I love you
 
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