Today has reminded me why I don't wana be here

[Soulless Angel]

Since my first official breakdown on April 2nd 2019, I have struggled with the mindset of live or not, the latter I have attempted yet failed, as with life if I was to live it.
I did though, what society expects, I fought those barriers, I kept going, that insane comment of *OMG you are so strong* hitting me from every angle, words I loathe, as I have never chosen to be strong, I have no wish to be this way, it was nothing, but forced upon me
I had a few months of, OK I can deal with this shit, of which was thrown on me from every fucking angle, I put up with so much in the last 9 months, stuff I wish upon no one, but oh look, souless angel was strong...
Oh fuck off

Today my inbox on social media has reminded me why life is cunt and I have have been reminded, actually no I don't want this, as I am told *OH when I was in your shoes I was curled in a corner crying and not wanting to live, I don't know how you haven't got to that point yet, you are amazing*

To accusations that have let me to deactivating that cessput they call social media, accusations so sick I will not even repeat them here,
I will remiain here, I tried staying away, but fuck that

society and the realitys of the bull shit it throws at you, we need places like this,
screw my spelling i have a bottle of rum

@Brick In The Wall dude where the fuck be ya tonight?! I don't care if it's day where you are right now, its night, and its bottle time!!!!

 

[FuneralCry]

Toxic positivity really is so incredibly insensitive and it just makes me hate this world even more. At least to me, it's for the best to just avoid people rather than communicate with those who could never understand, it's also disgusting how humans treat other people so badly.

 

[Soulless Angel]

Toxic positivity really is so incredibly insensitive and it just makes me hate this world even more. At least to me, it's for the best to just avoid people rather than communicate with those who could never understand, it's also disgusting how humans treat other people so badly.

this came through a third party, I was asked a question I had to answer, to discover another human being was talking vile false allegations about me to whom would ever listen, false allegations that have cost me so much but I didn'trealise why I had lost what I had until this came about,
Someone who has no right, nor reason, then has the audacity to claim she is concerned for my mental health... i am not a violent person, but i wana throat pnuich her!

 

[CTB Dream]

Vry sry human no undrstnd suffer say only platiud this lang word no mean wst strnt etc mean no thing truth this only suffer ppl no see