Venting tired of trying to get better

[notsosillybilly]

i've been homeless since november of 2025 and have been going through hell ever since. it's exhausting trying to get back on my feet and i'm honestly ready to just give up. i've been dealing with shit my whole life and i think this is what finally broke me. i've lost almost all my friends, my family is fucking horrible and won't help, i'm unable to find a job, i'm drowning in college fees (wasn't even my choice to go mind you), my brain is always in a constant state of panic/stress, i have no motivation for anything anymore, so i really think after the summer i'm gonna ctb. i'm fucking TIRED. the only reason i've made it this far is because i promised my bsf that i would get better, i went through all this pain FOR her. i feel like a piece of shit because i know that me being gone would absolutely crush her. i tried so much, but the thought of giving up and getting away from this shit life sounds so peaceful.

 

[Deer_Dairy]

Wish I can help you with your situation. I hate to hear about people got pushed towards suicide by externalities beyond their control.
When you don't have family to rely on, is there, in your area, some organization designed to help people in similar situation? Like providing short term housing and help with getting a job. There must be people who cares about others...

 

[AnxiousLife]

I am so sorry to hear that. Being homeless for more than 6 months now, losing almost all your friends and your family being horrible and not helping you sounds so difficult. I understand being tired of trying to get better, I understand it a lot :/