Venting Tired Of this Life

[Anomaly_death48]

I don't know anymore. I feel like I'm holding on a sinking boat. I pretended to be okay but I am not. I try to ignore everything but deep inside I know I'm breaking apart. I feel guilty, insecure and incompetent. I feel voiceless and invisible. I feel like the world is against me. I feel useless and I wanted to disappear and have a break. I'm so fucking tired. I realize that I am on the verge of breaking myself up. I never improved because I feel like I'm on a cycle of misery and despair. I want to escape so badly.

 

[nightmother]

i know that feeling. Its just too much. Maybe you feel that even if you tried to write everything that was wrong right now, you would never feel you are done. I dont know if there is anything anyone can tell you to make you feel better, and i feel the only thing you can do right now is vent.
Its not ok, but its exactly that.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Hello and welcome (1st post!). Holding on a sinking boat can kill or make a situation much worse (I relate to that). Can you change your environment? Take a break? Let things calm down? You're certainly not useless

I'm sorry life is so unfair to you and you have to go through this.

 

[FuneralCry]

It sounds like you suffer a lot, I also feel so tired, I understand feeling tired of suffering in this existence. But anyway best wishes.

 

[Anomaly_death48]

Hello and welcome (1st post!). Holding on a sinking boat can kill or make a situation much worse (I relate to that). Can you change your environment? Take a break? Let things calm down? You're certainly not useless

I'm sorry life is so unfair to you and you have to go through this.

I wish I could take a break. I've been planning to take a break for a while now. But my schedules and activities is so inflexible. Thanks for the reply. I really needed some reflection to do.

It sounds like you suffer a lot, I also feel so tired, I understand feeling tired of suffering in this existence. But anyway best wishes.

Thanks for the support.