Venting Tired of not being able to die.

[Eudaimonic]

It's so emotionally exhausting thinking about all the things I'll have to do to finally be able to CTB. For instance, moving out so I have more privacy and freedom from my parents, and finally getting my driver's license, which I should have gotten years ago. Both of those tasks alone will take an immense amount of effort for me to accomplish because of chronically low energy levels, anxiety, executive dysfunction, and a general sense of apathy, among other things. I am slowly making progress toward my eventual goal, but it's taking such a long time. I just want out now. I don't want to recover like everyone wants me to. My life is a clusterfuck not worth trying to salvage. It can't be salvaged.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand feeling so tired of suffering in this existence, it's so cruel to me how there isn't the option to just easily die in peace. But anyway I hope that you eventually find the freedom you search for, best wishes.