Unattainable666
Enlightened
- Mar 31, 2023
- 1,346
I've overstayed my welcome in life. today was an eye opener. I'm very ready to go. I had a friend on here who I admire greatly and is gone. He was a good man but determined to leave. I miss him. Each day that goes by the so-called hope that I have dissipates. I had a huge panic attack at work today. Not one person helped me - I'm not surprised. I'm really not important enough for anyone there to help me. It made me realize that these people were pushing me over the edge - maybe I should thank them. I've certainly lived long enough, met some nice people, traveled. Why would I want to stay here? The world isnt what it used to be - people just don't care about each other - I'm a misfit - I dont fit in anywhere. It's too painful for me to stay and continue to put up with the hatred the world has to offer. I have no family and no friends. I leave no one behind (Im pretty lucky). I want to go peacefully. I want to die the way I want to die. Unfortunately I was never able to live the way I wanted to live. So, time to pack up the old truck and get on the road. I'll be around for a while longer (maybe two weeks). You all have been so good to me and I so appreciate all the input you've given me. I'm sorry this site is here because it makes it so real that there are so many hurting people, but I'm so grateful that it is here because it has helped me and I;ve met some great people. Thanks SS