Tics (?) from mind trying to suppress embarrassing memories

[TripTheLight]

I have randomly started getting tic-like symptoms after I had an especially rough weekend at work last week. I get them mostly at night time while at bed. Just wondering if other people have had similar experiences, since this has come out from nowhere for me.

So I had a really bad time at work last week. On top of it being extremely busy, my coworker was an asshole to me most of the time, and I constantly fucked up. I work in a kitchen without having any professional training (no idea why I was even hired honestly, I've only worked at fast food- level places before), so I feel like I'm constantly an inconvenience to my coworkers. I also have 0 social skills so I just say dumb things constantly. My shifts have always left me pretty emotionally wrecked after every shifts to the point that I need a whole therapy session just to recover from them, but the job pays so well I don't feel like I can quit.

During this shift I was already in a bad shape, so once I got home I was a total mess. I went back to self harming and my arm looks awful now. Then I got the urge to hit my head into things to get the flash backs from the shift out of my head. I'm terrified of damaging my apartment, so I couldn't hit it too hard, but I feel like my tics might have started from that. I spend most of the night awake trashing my head and legs involuntarily whenever I felt even a faint memory from the shift coming to my head. The tics have calmed down now, but I still involuntarily shake my head occasionally when I think about work. Its such a silly thing to be worked up over, but my anxiety has made me a total mess.

 

[yowai]

I have randomly started getting tic-like symptoms after I had an especially rough weekend at work last week. I get them mostly at night time while at bed. Just wondering if other people have had similar experiences, since this has come out from nowhere for me.

So I had a really bad time at work last week. On top of it being extremely busy, my coworker was an asshole to me most of the time, and I constantly fucked up. I work in a kitchen without having any professional training (no idea why I was even hired honestly, I've only worked at fast food- level places before), so I feel like I'm constantly an inconvenience to my coworkers. I also have 0 social skills so I just say dumb things constantly. My shifts have always left me pretty emotionally wrecked after every shifts to the point that I need a whole therapy session just to recover from them, but the job pays so well I don't feel like I can quit.

During this shift I was already in a bad shape, so once I got home I was a total mess. I went back to self harming and my arm looks awful now. Then I got the urge to hit my head into things to get the flash backs from the shift out of my head. I'm terrified of damaging my apartment, so I couldn't hit it too hard, but I feel like my tics might have started from that. I spend most of the night awake trashing my head and legs involuntarily whenever I felt even a faint memory from the shift coming to my head. The tics have calmed down now, but I still involuntarily shake my head occasionally when I think about work. Its such a silly thing to be worked up over, but my anxiety has made me a total mess.

Find something to immerse yourself in like a tv show or video games to get your mind off of it, I have tics like that too sometimes but that's probably because I'm autistic haha. It's like trying to relieve the tension in my head physically