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harmunee

harmunee

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Jul 25, 2025
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it's nobody's fault that i'm mentally ill. i need to go be with jesus. even if he doesn't take me, i never deserved him anyway. i hope he'll forgive me though.

i don't want to be carried through life anymore. i'm really tired and i won't make it through this hellish world anyway. i can't keep living as a leech and nobody wants my retarded ass working for them anyway. plus i'm tired of buying people & being bought. i couldn't sell myself if i tried, and i have tried.

please don't be sad because i'll always be with you even though i'm leaving my body. thank you so much mom for giving me a beautiful body to live in. you're the perfect mom & i don't want to leech off you anymore.
i wish [your husband] loved me but i know he never will because i'm crazy and retarded. he's lucky to have perfect genes & perfect kids. too bad i'm scared of him even though i think he's cool. i know he's good to you but i also know he doesn't want me.

i'm so sorry for doing this but living hurts me too much. i hope you can be happy for me and i'll see you in heaven if jesus will let me in. words won't do justice for how sorry i am, but i can't eat or relax no matter how hard i try. therapy and normal pills won't fix me. they're just filters for the simulation we live in. i'd rather die in truth than live a lie.

my phone's passcode is [passcode]. please tell [my boyfriend] i love him more than i ever loved anyone else romantically & this isn't anyone's fault. it's my fault and i'm really sorry. really, really sorry. but i need to go home before the world ruins me completely.
i hope [my brother] & [his girlfriend] live good lives. neither of them deserve how i treated them. i know i'm the reason [my brother] wanted to die. i deserve to die for a lot of reasons and that's one of them.

reality isn't a disney movie. i love you more than words can say & i'm really sorry but you deserve better.
 
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NearlyIrrelevantCake

NearlyIrrelevantCake

The Cake Is A Lie
Aug 12, 2021
2,516
Godspeed.
 
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SomewhereAlongThe

SomewhereAlongThe

Goodbye everyone <3
May 17, 2024
466
I'm sorry that you're in so much pain and suffer so much grief. I hope that you find the peace you speak about. Goodbye :'(
 
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darksouls

darksouls

Illuminated
May 10, 2025
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hope you find relief from suffering đź«‚:heart:
 
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Experienced
Jun 11, 2025
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May you find peace, either way you go.
 
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PI3.14

PI3.14

what is chaos to the fly is normal to the spider
Oct 4, 2024
554
I'm sorry you're thinking this. Whether you choose to go with it or not, I hope you find peace either way.
 
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harmunee

harmunee

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Jul 25, 2025
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May you find peace, either way you go.
hope you find relief from suffering đź«‚:heart:
I'm sorry you're thinking this. Whether you choose to go with it or not, I hope you find peace either way.

thank you so much everyone for hearing my possible goodbye note. i'm thinking about hanging myself with partial suspension but i'm still a little scared. i feel less scared about it now than how i used to feel.
 
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fairygirl184

fairygirl184

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Oct 2, 2024
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i hope you find peace <3
 
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PI3.14

PI3.14

what is chaos to the fly is normal to the spider
Oct 4, 2024
554
thank you so much everyone for hearing my possible goodbye note. i'm thinking about hanging myself with partial suspension but i'm still a little scared. i feel less scared about it now than how i used to feel.
I'm a pro-choice, but if you have a doubt about it, then you can wait a bit and see if you change your mind or not.
 
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opheliaoveragain

opheliaoveragain

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Jun 2, 2024
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We're here for you unmet friend.
 
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dasmurphy

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Mar 19, 2025
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I'm sorry the world did this to you, I wish for you to find the love and peace that was hold from you here, safe journey and sleep well.
 
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naookoo128

naookoo128

Student
Jul 13, 2025
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It is a good message. I hope you can forgive yourself and that you wont need that note, but if you do, I wish that there will be peace for you.
 
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nobodycaresaboutme

nobodycaresaboutme

maybe my English kinda sucks
Jun 30, 2025
704
Whatever you decide, I hope you find the peace you are seeking for đź«‚
 
Satori Komeiji

Satori Komeiji

Strange girl
Jul 15, 2025
167
I enjoyed reading your few posts. That's a beautiful note; Looks like something I'd write. Hope you find peace, where ever you may go next <3
 
harmunee

harmunee

Member
Jul 25, 2025
22
I'm a pro-choice, but if you have a doubt about it, then you can wait a bit and see if you change your mind or not.
It is a good message. I hope you can forgive yourself and that you wont need that note, but if you do, I wish that there will be peace for you.
I'm sorry the world did this to you, I wish for you to find the love and peace that was hold from you here, safe journey and sleep well.
I'm sorry the world did this to you, I wish for you to find the love and peace that was hold from you here, safe journey and sleep well.

y'all are gonna make me cry my eyes out. i wasn't even able to attempt. my parents already knew i was feeling this way and they made me keep my door open all night. mom thinks i'm bipolar, it runs in my family. i feel really embarrassed, tired, and sad. but i'm glad i found this forum. 988 could literally never give this kind of human-to-human support. you guys don't belong here. this is a horrible place and we all should run far away to greener pastures, but i know this is the best place for deep mental health problem discussions. i hope we all heal. nobody deserves this shit. spiritual warfare is real
 
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Eriktf

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Jun 1, 2023
835
i hope you find peace if you go through with it.
 
huifu

huifu

always sleepy
Sep 22, 2023
63
i really really hope you're feeling okay now
 
AuraByte

AuraByte

If I'm lost, please don't find me.
Jun 24, 2025
123
I'm sorry, OP.

Whatever decision you make, I hope you find peace.
 

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