Discussion Thoughts on scars?

[bloodybushman]

For those of you with scars, marks, or any other physical indicators of self-harm or attempts to CTB, what are your general day-to-day thoughts and opinions regarding them?

Are your thoughts about them mostly negative, positive, or neutral? Do you sometimes forget they exist?

How much do the opinions of others affect your own thoughts regarding your scars? Would your thoughts on them be any different if society wasn't so judgemental?

Have they caused you any trouble in securing a job or friends?

Do you wish they were gone, and if so, are you doing anything to lessen their appearance? Or do you wish they were more visible?

Do you like or dislike joking about them? Do you like or dislike if other people joke about them? Do you have a favorite and/or least favorite joke in particular?

Do they itch, ache, cause numbness, etc?

Feel free to answer as many or as few of these questions as you'd like. (Or none of them, if you have something else to share regarding scars.)

 

[AngelTear]

For those of you with scars, marks, or any other physical indicators of self-harm or attempts to CTB, what are your general day-to-day thoughts and opinions regarding them?

Are your thoughts about them mostly negative, positive, or neutral? Do you sometimes forget they exist?

How much do the opinions of others affect your own thoughts regarding your scars? Would your thoughts on them be any different if society wasn't so judgemental?

Have they caused you any trouble in securing a job or friends?

Do you wish they were gone, and if so, are you doing anything to lessen their appearance? Or do you wish they were more visible?

Do you like or dislike joking about them? Do you like or dislike if other people joke about them? Do you have a favorite and/or least favorite joke in particular?

Do they itch, ache, cause numbness, etc?

Feel free to answer as many or as few of these questions as you'd like. (Or none of them, if you have something else to share regarding scars.)

1.) I honestly forget they're there until they start itching

2.) Positive, I love them tbh but I do also forget they're there sometimes

3.) Honestly so far no one has been that judgemental of my scars but when they're brought up to does make me wanna do more

4.) I had trouble getting a job long before I even had sh scars and I'm not looking for friends so that's a non issue for me

5.) I wish they were deeper and more visible (they're already pretty noticeable as is) like how some surgery scars look

6.) I have never joked about them before and would rather no one joke about them at all.

7.) They itch regularly but I've gotten used to it however there are some that cause me discomfort from time to time

I feel like I'm the odd man out because I absolutely love my scars and cutting makes me feel so good. I'm not ashamed at all and I want to be covered in scars but I'm just too lazy to do clean up every time so I haven't done anything to myself in a while. I also sorta miss how my suicide attempt felt. I used a noose and when I was about to fall unconscious it was like everything was lifting but I didn't die (obviously) bc of how I tried to do it. It just left me feeling woozy (which I must say was a pleasant experience for me too, it was like I was somewhat high) and pretty bad neck pain...and and extra 2k in debt from a hospital stay Xd

 

[otomedissection]

I think my feelings toward mine are mostly neutral. I stopped self-harming for several years but gradually got back into it when things started getting worse. I don't really bother to try and cover them up, but I've since started cutting in areas that I can easily hide instead. I feel weird about the ones on my arms because I work with young kids and it's sometimes sad having to make up a story when they innocently ask about them. I also feel shame in the sense that the scars on my arms are more shallow because I've always been afraid of going too deep. I'm worried more about people thinking things like "wow, if you're gonna self-harm, do it 'right', you attention seeker" rather than reacting negatively to the fact that I cut itself. Overall, I'd say I've accepted them.

 

[bigwomanbigwoman123]

i actually hate my scars. i feel deeply ashamed of them. at some point during my worst year for self harm, i stopped doing it to cope and started doing because i wanted as many scars as possible. i was attention seeking i guess. and that makes me even more ashamed. the amount of scars that all overlap just looks really ugly, and i look like a weirdo.

my scars have ruined summer for me i think. where most people are lookinh forward to summer, i just isolate more as going outside with long sleeves is just too much for me. and people like to tell me that its okay for me to go sleeveless, that its just part of my body, but that doesnt change how embarrassed i am about my scars

 

[Hvergelmir]

Very neutral - I mostly forget about them. I haven't cut in a long time, so the scars are all old. They don't seem to bother anyone or draw much attention, despite being clearly visible.

i just isolate more as going outside with long sleeves is just too much for me

Coincidentally I prefer long sleaves for sun protection. With thin cloth, it doesn't have to be a burden.

 

[dragonofenvy]

Very negatively at times, other times I don't care about them. I unfortunately cut down my nose because I didn't like how big it was and people in school used to say I was Jewish because my nose is big, so I have to deal with that reminder each time I look in the mirror. My other scars are on my shoulders so they're easy to hide from others and myself so I don't notice them much. Back in the day someone noticed my fresh scars on my shoulders cause they started bleeding and shamed for me them so I still carry the shame on my shoulders, literally and figuratively.

I'm lucky because nobody sees the shoulder scars, and nobody would assume that a scar on someone's nose is SH so I don't get bothered by others about them. SH actually helped me make a friend with someone who also cut and she wanted to see my scars so it's not all bad.

I have been tempted to cut again on my wrists, to try to make deep scars, but I've so far haven't and hopefully can continue doing so.

 

[bloodybushman]

I feel like I'm the odd man out because I absolutely love my scars and cutting makes me feel so good. I'm not ashamed at all and I want to be covered in scars but I'm just too lazy to do clean up every time so I haven't done anything to myself in a while.

I actually understand this a lot. I love my scars and I'm not ashamed of them. I wouldn't mind more, but yeah, I'm also too lazy to clean up. Changing bandages for days afterwards is a bitch as well.

Frankly, I can't really grasp why 'normal' people react so intensely to self-harm... Every doctor, psychiatrist, psychologist, etc is obsessed with asking for information about my self-harm, but for me it's just... a footnote. It's hardly something I think too hard about, y'know? I've always hated the question, "What led you to self-harm this time," because there's never really an answer. Some people can't really understand that there doesn't have to be a trigger or negative emotion leading up to it, I guess.

I also feel shame in the sense that the scars on my arms are more shallow because I've always been afraid of going too deep. I'm worried more about people thinking things like "wow, if you're gonna self-harm, do it 'right', you attention seeker" rather than reacting negatively to the fact that I cut itself.

Oh, I get this feeling a lot. It helps me personally to remind myself that our brains are literally wired to limit us from doing a lot of things, including hurting ourselves. I think it takes strength to listen to that preservation instinct rather than succumb to the call of the void. If anything, it's a sign of a healthy brain (healthy for a mentally ill person, anyway.)

Coincidentally I prefer long sleaves for sun protection. With thin cloth, it doesn't have to be a burden.

The thin cloth is a great idea, thank you! My problem has always been with pants and I sort of forgot they can be made thin as well, so I've been wearing thick baggy jorts in 102°F. Sweat makes my scars itch like crazy.

 

[judestfrancis]

The levity of this is really appreciated!
1) my general every day thoughts on them are pretty neutral. most of mine are hidden by shorts by design. i only ever notice them consistently if its summer and i have to wear shorts.
2) thoughts on them are mostly neutral. unless i am deep in a depressive episode, and then i oscillate quickly between thinking theyre very sexy and the worst physical attribute i have. They're just my body most of the time.
3) I think the shame and sadness others get when they see them forces me to hide them further. if people were more accepting, i'd likely be more open and less frightened.
4) Thankfully not! Again, mine are pretty hidden, so I would be really confused if they caused me any sort of social ostracism.
5) It ebbs and flows. Sometimes I can accept my body as is, and sometimes I feel the shame. I've never done anything to lessen them, but I'e never done anything to heighten them. sometimes I wonder if I was more visibly ill if people would be kinder, but there's more risk than reward
6) I'm only really okay joking with my friends. They're the only people who know the extent of it, and they know that I'm pretty tough. They can joke about me cutting or killing myself and it's fine.
7) Sometimes they swell! I like to pinch and pull the skin to see how wrinkly i get. its kinda funny.

 

[hurts2b]

Pretty avid SHer. I don't love the scars.

Generally speaking I keep them covered around others. I just don't like the thought of someone looking at me (and without me saying a word) instantly knowing there's something wrong with me.

There was one time I lost out on an opportunity because of SH but those were (healed over) cuts and not yet scars.

It's impossible to forget they exist as I have to see them whenever I'm not wearing long sleeves and long pants. Funny enough the ones on my legs don't bother me as much as the ones on my arms.

They do itch at times, and scar skin is less sensitive than regular skin.

I suppose sometimes they're validatedating. I can look at them and think. Yes. I'm covered in evidence of my own damage. But then it can also become a competition with myself. A thing where I need to go deeper and do it worse.

There's just conflicting feelings all around I think.

 

[bloodybushman]

I have been tempted to cut again on my wrists, to try to make deep scars, but I've so far haven't and hopefully can continue doing so.

I'm sorry you've had such bad experiences with your scars. People can be really judgemental towards things they don't understand. In my opinion, they should feel lucky and thankful that they don't, because it means they haven't suffered in that same way.

Also, it's wonderful that you haven't relapsed deeply on your wrists so far. Be proud of your strength! If you get to a point where you're about to relapse for sure, try to practice a bit of harm reduction if that's possible. Look up a map of arteries and nerves to avoid, use a clean blade, wash and cover your wounds, etc. If you can help it, somewhere like the top and outer side (never inner side!) of your upper thighs would be a lot safer to go deep than your wrist. It can be easy to do something irreversible on your wrist, like nerve damage, even if you're trying to be careful. Though I do completely understand the urge to go deep on the wrist, as I feel that often myself, the potential outcomes are not really worth the risk.

The levity of this is really appreciated!

2) thoughts on them are mostly neutral. unless i am deep in a depressive episode, and then i oscillate quickly between thinking theyre very sexy and the worst physical attribute i have. They're just my body most of the time.

7) Sometimes they swell! I like to pinch and pull the skin to see how wrinkly i get. its kinda funny.

Thank you! I understand why conversations around self-harm are usually serious and stilted, but I'm personally not a huge fan of that.

I feel quite the same way. For a majority of the time, they're just another part of my body. It's sort of like how you know you have toes, you don't exactly forget they exist, but you're not thinking about them unless they're relevant. (If that makes any sense? Maybe I just sound insane talking about toes now, whoops).

Lol yess I do that too. The wrinkliness is both funny and interesting. I often find the scar tissue fascinating and like to stare at it for a bit as I look for patterns and stuff. The sensation of touching thick scar tissue and it having that odd numb feeling is something I don't think I'll ever get used to. (I also have this feeling down the entire right side of my right calf, unrelated to scars, and it's cool to me how similar the feelings are despite having two different initial causes!)

 

[adamantc]

For those of you with scars, marks, or any other physical indicators of self-harm or attempts to CTB, what are your general day-to-day thoughts and opinions regarding them?

Are your thoughts about them mostly negative, positive, or neutral? Do you sometimes forget they exist?

How much do the opinions of others affect your own thoughts regarding your scars? Would your thoughts on them be any different if society wasn't so judgemental?

Have they caused you any trouble in securing a job or friends?

Do you wish they were gone, and if so, are you doing anything to lessen their appearance? Or do you wish they were more visible?

Do you like or dislike joking about them? Do you like or dislike if other people joke about them? Do you have a favorite and/or least favorite joke in particular?

Do they itch, ache, cause numbness, etc?

Feel free to answer as many or as few of these questions as you'd like. (Or none of them, if you have something else to share regarding scars.)

Needle marks.

- I don't really mind them much. They can hurt a little, but rarely noticeably
- I don't really mind others. My job isn't really a very subordinate one, and it's marked more on operational performance than colleague reviews.
- Yes. I've been labelled a 'drug addict' (partially true), and was denied a slightly more prestigious role in my 20s because of the marks.
- I'd love if I could inject and draw blood without leaving a mark. However, there isn't really an alternative.
- Nobody jokes to me about them, and I'm not the type of person to joke to others.
- They cause some minimal pain when bending my arms. Not itchy.

 

[never mind me]

I have just a few SH scars on the inner sides of both my arms and I feel neutral about them. But luckily they are small enough that nobody notices them. I never wanted random people to know that I self harm. Therefore I switched from cutting my arms to cutting my private parts (and burning the undersides of my feet when I was younger) quite early. The burns on the feet didn't leave any scars at all. The scars on my private parts I actually like. I just like to look at them and see the maze of small scars that 20 years of cutting in the same place left. (It's lucky that I only cut myself in a superficial way, otherwise this would probably not work for a long time on limited space). For me it feels like an accomplishment that I managed to find a way to self harm without anyone knowing that I do it unless I tell them.
The only time I used a cream for scar reduction was after I burned the inner side of my right arm by pouring a pot of boiling water over it. As I was at the time completely absorbed in self hatred I initially didn't care for the wound at all, went bouldering without covering it and got a lot of dirt into it and still didn't give a fuck until I coudn't stand upright at work from the infection. Only then did I bother to see a doctor. As a consequence I initially had a really ugly scar (and I think burn scars are generally more ugly than scars from cutting) which I wanted to make less visible. So I put this special scar reduction stuff on it as soon as the wound healing process was finished and luckily it reduced the visibilty of the scar a lot, so it is not any worse than my scars from cutting.

 

[charlieee]

For those of you with scars, marks, or any other physical indicators of self-harm or attempts to CTB, what are your general day-to-day thoughts and opinions regarding them?

Are your thoughts about them mostly negative, positive, or neutral? Do you sometimes forget they exist?

How much do the opinions of others affect your own thoughts regarding your scars? Would your thoughts on them be any different if society wasn't so judgemental?

Have they caused you any trouble in securing a job or friends?

Do you wish they were gone, and if so, are you doing anything to lessen their appearance? Or do you wish they were more visible?

Do you like or dislike joking about them? Do you like or dislike if other people joke about them? Do you have a favorite and/or least favorite joke in particular?

Do they itch, ache, cause numbness, etc?

Feel free to answer as many or as few of these questions as you'd like. (Or none of them, if you have something else to share regarding scars.)

I have sh scars on my thighs and honestly most of the time I forget I have them. I've stopped for 3 years now so they are not that visible.
I sometimes feel bad about them tho, when I'm in a swimsuit and I can't hide them to my mom or close friends.
Because I have never talked about it, every time a new person sees them I see them trying to hide their chock. I am also scared about their possible questions because the answers are often too private and make me feel too vulnerable to share them.
Luckily no one ever asked any questions.

 

[LilGhost]

For those of you with scars, marks, or any other physical indicators of self-harm or attempts to CTB, what are your general day-to-day thoughts and opinions regarding them?

Are your thoughts about them mostly negative, positive, or neutral? Do you sometimes forget they exist?

How much do the opinions of others affect your own thoughts regarding your scars? Would your thoughts on them be any different if society wasn't so judgemental?

Have they caused you any trouble in securing a job or friends?

Do you wish they were gone, and if so, are you doing anything to lessen their appearance? Or do you wish they were more visible?

Do you like or dislike joking about them? Do you like or dislike if other people joke about them? Do you have a favorite and/or least favorite joke in particular?

Do they itch, ache, cause numbness, etc?

Feel free to answer as many or as few of these questions as you'd like. (Or none of them, if you have something else to share regarding scars.)

I actually love my scars. They are a proof that pain I felt is real. I also like the spacing I did and, idk. It's like "a proof of a warrior". I have few textured scars that I love touching as it kinda grounds. For me sh is about survival and there is nothing shameful in it

They are itching. Mostly those that are healing. I have some scars I didn't touch in months and they are completely fine I don't even remember about them

I also feel kinda scared as they fade, cause it makes me feel like I am betraying myself by forgetting the pain

I wear long sleeves everywhere, unless going quickly to some store. Actually, most passerby's don't give a fuck and I don't think they even notice. People have their own shit to care about. My friends don't like gore so I wear long sleeves in front of them, maximum can afford to walk in bondages if they are comfy with that. Wouldn't say that work places has any problems with them cause, they don't know about them. Like, I won't show up with a cane on my interview not because they necessarily will deny me for being disabled, but just to be safe. Same with scars. Plus, long sleeves are usually look more serious so I always wore those on my interviews or during my work shifts

I take good care of my scars. My medical professional saw once they were fresh and explained how to take care of open wounds to not get infected. It's all ways to get through. I'd bandage my hands if it takes to long for the blood to stop (which is usually the case) but I like seeing how blood is dripping from my arms

Not rlly a joke but when my friend first time saw my scars it was a bit after Halloween and I was wearing my shark hood , so he asked if those were part of my costume. It was funny af. I am okay when people are joking about sh. In my experience, those who does joke like that are the one who sh

 

[FoxSauce]

Moslty I forget there there unless someone points them out.

There on my shoulder so I can easily hide them. But kinda makes me self conscious if I have to wear sleeveless shirts but I only wear em when Im at home.

Tbh I wish they were deeper punishment fitting the crime ig.

 

[iguazo falls]

For those of you with scars, marks, or any other physical indicators of self-harm or attempts to CTB, what are your general day-to-day thoughts and opinions regarding them?

Are your thoughts about them mostly negative, positive, or neutral? Do you sometimes forget they exist?

How much do the opinions of others affect your own thoughts regarding your scars? Would your thoughts on them be any different if society wasn't so judgemental?

Have they caused you any trouble in securing a job or friends?

Do you wish they were gone, and if so, are you doing anything to lessen their appearance? Or do you wish they were more visible?

Do you like or dislike joking about them? Do you like or dislike if other people joke about them? Do you have a favorite and/or least favorite joke in particular?

Do they itch, ache, cause numbness, etc?

Feel free to answer as many or as few of these questions as you'd like. (Or none of them, if you have something else to share regarding scars.)

first of all holy fuck fire pfp. second of all, idk, i have visible scars on arms and legs and it doesn't really change much. i've received only one negative comment but that guy is literally demented and more miserable than me so i don't really care. people mostly ignore/don't acknowledge it. some people have complimented them. i cover up in job interviews, and at work noone mentions them. i don't really care about them, i used to be pretty upset when my mum would try and find ways to fix the appearance. they don't seem to cause any issue for me, but i haven't hit any nerves, muscle, veins or arteries. i think my skin is generally more numb with certain sensations though.

when i was younger i used to go to work with fresh wounds (in fast food; pretty gross but i didn't feel i had a choice at the time), and recieved some bad comments or just curiosity, i don't really care these days though. like you see a mentally ill teenager serving you, and you abuse them, that's certainly not my problem. no coworker ever commented either lmfao.

 

[AngelTear]

I actually understand this a lot. I love my scars and I'm not ashamed of them. I wouldn't mind more, but yeah, I'm also too lazy to clean up. Changing bandages for days afterwards is a bitch as well.

Frankly, I can't really grasp why 'normal' people react so intensely to self-harm... Every doctor, psychiatrist, psychologist, etc is obsessed with asking for information about my self-harm, but for me it's just... a footnote. It's hardly something I think too hard about, y'know? I've always hated the question, "What led you to self-harm this time," because there's never really an answer. Some people can't really understand that there doesn't have to be a trigger or negative emotion leading up to it, I guess.

One of the psychiatrists I saw tried to pathologize me as having bpd or bipolar bc of my scars...I swear they just wanna see the things they want to and they give out bpd diagnosis like candy.

Also yeah, normies just doing normies shit I guess

 

[bloodybushman]

I actually love my scars. They are a proof that pain I felt is real. I also like the spacing I did and, idk. It's like "a proof of a warrior". I have few textured scars that I love touching as it kinda grounds. For me sh is about survival and there is nothing shameful in it

I also feel kinda scared as they fade, cause it makes me feel like I am betraying myself by forgetting the pain

I'd bandage my hands if it takes to long for the blood to stop (which is usually the case) but I like seeing how blood is dripping from my arms

Not rlly a joke but when my friend first time saw my scars it was a bit after Halloween and I was wearing my shark hood , so he asked if those were part of my costume. It was funny af. I am okay when people are joking about sh. In my experience, those who does joke like that are the one who sh

The view you have of your scars is beautiful. I see them the same way, as scars from a battle. I know a lot of normies see self-harm scars and instantly think 'weak,' but I really admire anyone with self-harm scars who is still among the world of the living. It means they are fighting a battle daily and still winning. Stuff like that takes a lot of strength.

I get what you mean about them fading. It makes me pretty upset that the 'proof' of my illness is slowly disappearing. I try to remind myself that I don't owe anyone proof of my pain.

Blood dripping from my arms is a big reason I self-harm, actually. Something about it really calms me down.

That shark joke is hilarious LOL. The only bold joke I've gotten about my own scars is the one time when my friend grabbed my wrist and held it over the barcode scanner at a self-checkout. I still giggle about it years later. It's really great to have friends who understand and can be light-hearted about it.

first of all holy fuck fire pfp.

LOL thank you!

some people have complimented them.

Oh wow, this is really interesting to me. I've never heard of this happening. That's either really sweet or really morbid, depending on how you choose to view it. Maybe both at once.

when i was younger i used to go to work with fresh wounds (in fast food; pretty gross but i didn't feel i had a choice at the time), and recieved some bad comments or just curiosity, i don't really care these days though. like you see a mentally ill teenager serving you, and you abuse them, that's certainly not my problem.

I don't understand what it is that makes people feel entitled to abuse food and retail workers. It's especially egregious since (at least where I live) those roles are mostly filled by teenagers or the elderly. Sorry you had to go through that. Anyone who feels the need to pick on a teenager serving them food because they have scars has to be living a sad life.

One of the psychiatrists I saw tried to pathologize me as having bpd or bipolar bc of my scars...I swear they just wanna see the things they want to and they give out bpd diagnosis like candy.

If you ever mention having mood swings I swear it's like they foam at the mouth to bring up bipolar.

 

[LilGhost]

The view you have of your scars is beautiful. I see them the same way, as scars from a battle. I know a lot of normies see self-harm scars and instantly think 'weak,' but I really admire anyone with self-harm scars who is still among the world of the living. It means they are fighting a battle daily and still winning. Stuff like that takes a lot of strength.

I get what you mean about them fading. It makes me pretty upset that the 'proof' of my illness is slowly disappearing. I try to remind myself that I don't owe anyone proof of my pain.

Blood dripping from my arms is a big reason I self-harm, actually. Something about it really calms me down.

That shark joke is hilarious LOL. The only bold joke I've gotten about my own scars is the one time when my friend grabbed my wrist and held it over the barcode scanner at a self-checkout. I still giggle about it years later. It's really great to have friends who understand and can be light-hearted about it.


LOL thank you!



Oh wow, this is really interesting to me. I've never heard of this happening. That's either really sweet or really morbid, depending on how you choose to view it. Maybe both at once.



I don't understand what it is that makes people feel entitled to abuse food and retail workers. It's especially egregious since (at least where I live) those roles are mostly filled by teenagers or the elderly. Sorry you had to go through that. Anyone who feels the need to pick on a teenager serving them food because they have scars has to be living a sad life.


If you ever mention having mood swings I swear it's like they foam at the mouth to bring up bipolar.

Thank you ^^. Omg, your friend joke made me chuckle too. Sh doesnt necessarily mean that person has ctb plans, but it is certainly a ctb prevention method. I am waiting to get a bit more stable and once my wounds be healed draw with henna sharks on them. Any plans like that?

 

[suicidewristrag]

I don't think about my scars all that much since I wear long sleeves only. Not because of them, but because I hate the shape of my arms. (I've been hiding my arms even before I started self harming)

I'm pretty neutral about them because again, I barely think about them apart from seasonal depression lows where I want to cut again.

I've never had some stranger comment on my scars because again, long sleeve only, but I had some seniors and children in my family ask about them. I don't answer anything.

I actually don't mind the state they're in right now, but my family does and they have sent me some bullshit for me to lessen their appearance. I don't use those.

 

[softfur]

i see them as the chemical reaction between me and the world i live in. they belong there.
i wear long sleeves and pants though, not just because of this. people i trust can see, but those are few and far between.

Do they itch, ache, cause numbness, etc?

uhh these ones high up on my thigh itch sometimes. i was really trying to hurt myself with those. they're the darkest thickest scars i've ever had. and i don't like those ones, actually. it's an invasive location. i just like them on my arms

 

[sla_porra22]

I don't have self-harm scars, so I'm not exactly the target audience for the question. However, I find scars in general very beautiful. Both aesthetically and symbolically, since in my mind there's It's all about the person's history, often involving overcoming challenges, and so on. I have many scars from accidents and things like that, and I love them all. I'm even thinking about getting scarification in the future, although I haven't chosen a design yet

 

[never mind me]

Actually I have a scarification on my leg. It's like a joke that only I can understand, because scarification (i.e. getting scars for asthetic reasons) is socially accepted whereas having scars from self harm is not. People sometimes ask me the meaning of my scarification, but I mostly answer evasively, because it is not others' business.

 

[StupiderJuniper]

i got a bunch of scars on my thighs, but nobody ever seen them. im mostly neutral about it, they havent really impacted my life and nobody have ever given me shit for it because nobody saw em lmao. sometimes i kinda like em for some reason. i do avoid doing anything on my arms though, im terrified of the judgement id get or if i get thrown in somewhere for it even if i instinctively never wear short sleeves or shorts. i especially avoided it because i thought i would be getting a job soon (that didn't pan out), but idk anymore.

i don't mind keeping these scars, they kinda feel like part of me at this point.

i dont mind joking about it, but theres almost nobody i can actually joke about it to because its my own secret. other people joking about it would prolly hurt if its in a cruel manner.

they dont itch, ache, or do anything like that thankfully.