We're suicidal because we feel suicidal. Thinking about the reasons why i'm suicidal, there are some big underlying reasons and some small silly reasons. But some moments i'm more suicidal than others, even tho my reasons stay the same. What changes is the feeling of ideation.
Maybe the feeling of ideation is the cause. This is more so clear when i feel strong ideation over silly reasons. It more so feels like the strong ideation makes small things seem like reasons to kill myself. Maybe a sideways comment someone made to me feels like a reason to kill myself because i'm already feeling ideation, and not the comment being an actual reason, and maybe that's the case for all the reasons.
I know first there had to be a reason to set off the ideation, but maybe it's not the case anymore.
Anyway i know everybody is not going to relate to this, just some thoughts i had.
Maybe the feeling of ideation is the cause. This is more so clear when i feel strong ideation over silly reasons. It more so feels like the strong ideation makes small things seem like reasons to kill myself. Maybe a sideways comment someone made to me feels like a reason to kill myself because i'm already feeling ideation, and not the comment being an actual reason, and maybe that's the case for all the reasons.
I know first there had to be a reason to set off the ideation, but maybe it's not the case anymore.
Anyway i know everybody is not going to relate to this, just some thoughts i had.
