Dazaii

Dazaii

Suicides all whats on my mind
Jun 13, 2023
8
I don't have anything, but I don't want to die either. Whats keeping you all alive?
 
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sunsetboat234

sunsetboat234

Over it all
Jun 13, 2023
60
The fear of failure and the minutes/ seconds leading up to it is what keeps me. It takes a lot of motivation leading up to go through with it.
 
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enough of this

enough of this

Specialist
Jun 4, 2023
382
That's the big mystery to me. I've lost so much, but I still HAVE so much. Although, I realize material things have nothing to do with life.
 
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Marine

Marine

*~ 絶対に 全てを取り戻させてもらう ~*
Jul 5, 2020
678
I need to experience love, or at the very least affection with a compatible person before I die... I wish I could be saved honestly even if I have no idea how...
 
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enough of this

enough of this

Specialist
Jun 4, 2023
382
I need to experience love, or at the very least affection with a compatible person before I die... I wish I could be saved honestly even if I have no idea how...
I have the same desire. I've never experienced true love with another person. It's the one thing I'd like to do before I die.
 
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irregularreconcile

irregularreconcile

i'm such a coward; these wretched things i do
Jun 15, 2023
65
I don't have anything, but I don't want to die either. Whats keeping you all alive?
i would say honestly, during the times i lost Everything, in such a strange, isolated and deluded sense of mind, i managed to create things to live for. even if it was from delusions, say i became friends with a spider to creating a world in my head, there were capabilities in nothing to find something.

that's just my experience! i can't speak for others. i'm still thankful for some little weird things i found to fixate/focus on in times where i had nothing at all.
 
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Vivacious_Vee

Vivacious_Vee

Member
Jun 17, 2023
70
I need to experience love, or at the very least affection with a compatible person before I die... I wish I could be saved honestly even if I have no idea how...
I see you, for me as a mature woman, I feel nothing now after last year, empty, void of caring for myself, my smile has gone, I too thought it was love, that I needed someone to save me, but that's not it for me, for me, I need to save myself, only way for me to do that is CTB.
 
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FungusButler

FungusButler

Member
Jun 18, 2023
17
I don't have anything, but I don't want to die either. Whats keeping you all alive?
In my case, it's honestly laziness. The funny thing about leaving life behind is that you can procrastinate it the same way you can procrastinate anything else. After all, as long as there are still a few decent things to look forward to, why rush? You can always CBT tomorrow, instead. 🕰️



How about you, OP? Have you found anything worth sticking around for recently? (even if its something really minor)
 
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Taraxacum

Member
May 11, 2023
10
I don't have anything, but I don't want to die either. Whats keeping you all alive?
I have mental illness and it was diagnosed late in life. I used to be so happy back then and surrounded by wonderful people and I tried really hard to get it all together now.

So I guess seeing that same little kid happy again would be the thing that keeps me going.
 
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Remeer

Remeer

Member
Mar 8, 2023
85
I suppose you mean material things and personal relationships, because in the end the only thing we have is ourselves
and no, I still have "things" and I asked myself: what would happen if I lost everything? I suppose that everything would depend on the meaning that you are giving to life at that moment
At this moment in my life, it is living calmly, without working or studying, going at my own pace, enjoying the process of changes that I am experiencing, with its problems and joys.
greetings, be well
 
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sulli

sulli

Student
Jan 25, 2023
197
i gotta get to my goal weight before i ctb or my body's gonna be the most disgusting thing in the morgue
 
phantomisgone

phantomisgone

Saving my world first before theirs.
Oct 17, 2022
50
For me, it's helping other people out.

I've been through so many things in my life and I just turned 20. Majority of it was from other people, but some things were caused by my own hand. But a little sense of happiness that I can always count on is always putting a smile on other people's faces. Cheering them up when they are down. Just knowing that I've impacted someone else's life in a good way keeps me going.
 
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hopelessdreams

hopelessdreams

life and its opposite
Mar 1, 2022
176
spreading my knowledge to friends, the knowledge I've accumulated from years of trauma. it would be a waste to die without giving away what I have
 
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lostlap

Member
Jun 20, 2023
7
Hugs to everyone on this thread. May you all find something to live for.
 
iLikeFrogs

iLikeFrogs

Most likely dissociating
May 5, 2023
98
my si and the fact that I'm deep inside scared of the process o dying, doing the last step. And universe itself for some reason
 
SolomonKado

SolomonKado

This is taking too long…
Jul 4, 2023
424
I don't have anything, but I don't want to die either. Whats keeping you all alive?
I don't have anything keeping me here anymore. It used to be "I still have to…." and after I had experienced it then I became closer and closer to my CTB because of the way it turned out. Even used to want to stay for material items until I realized material items are here for exactly that. To keep us here and acting as drones..
 
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untothedepths

untothedepths

ego death, then death
Mar 20, 2023
587
The hope that things will still get better. The worst part about it is, like my ability to feel safe and secure, it's being irrevocably eroded. I'm sorry I don't have much else to tell you, if it would help you.
 
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Dogged fellow

Dogged fellow

Member
Aug 25, 2023
10
To be honest its a simple maybe even kinda stupid mantra: "i am scared of killing myself that means i want to be happy, not dead and dying wont help me archive that goal." There has been a point in my life i genuinly believed my life was over but by aplying this mantra and slowly bit for bit managing to better myself and my circunstances i managed to mostly make it out of that mindest even if i wouldn't concider myself truly happy at the moment.
 
BeansOfRequirement

BeansOfRequirement

Behind the guilt was compassion
Jan 26, 2021
5,750
Family would feel bad, and I have the belief that I may rid myself of the need for a girlfriend with enough mindfulness. If I can genuinely not want a girlfriend I'd feel as if I've won the battle that has been fucking me up for like 9 years by now. Guess I'll have to throw in some hadephobia as well, though. And I suppose just genetic programming, too. Those four should cover most of it. Well, actually, the fact that I've been lucky with health and having food and stuff should also be a factor. All-right, so those 5 should be enough to cover most of it. Won't mention the other side of this equation here, though.
 
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aquasaltstripes

Member
Jul 2, 2023
52
I don't have anything, but I don't want to die either. Whats keeping you all alive?
Food, music, and my favorite streamers. Stress-eating and escapism till the end, I guess 😅
 
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BornByGhosts

wants to overcome Sports Illustrated
Mar 3, 2023
98
soon nothing
 

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