woofwag
Bad dog
- Sep 17, 2025
- 388
TW CSA, SA, genocide, torture, cannibalism, genuinely sickening shit
I have known for my whole life the atrocities humanity is capable of committing. I learned in middle school that the Nazis used babies as target practice. Babies. Just recently I learned about the rape of Nanjing. Even more recently I learned that during Imperial Japan there was a facility called Unit 731 where they tortured around 14,000 people to death, adults and children. They would perform live vivisections on people, exposed them to deadly diseases and chemicals, women raped and forced to become pregnant so they could have more tests done on them, among other horrifying shit. And they killed hundreds of thousands from the biological warfare they developed there too.
A lot people try to think as this kind of stuff happening in the past, that we as a society have evolved beyond such barbaric practices. But no, this kind of sick shit absolutely still happens. There are a lot of eyes on the genocide of Palestine right now (which to be clear is a good thing, free Palestine), but there are always global acts of terrorism happening that are hidden from the public. Disgusting horrors happen just within the homes of millions of people. I would know. And even the things that happened to me aren't nearly as horrifying as stories of people you can find posted anywhere, spoken of anyone sometimes just in passing.
Right now is the Epstein files. All of this crazy shit is mind-boggling to learn about, and I am not actively seeking it out. I don't want to know about a lot of it seeing as I am a victim of CSA. But it finds me anyway since it is so huge. A few days ago I had the displeasure of reading the pacifier email. Plz don't look it up unless you are prepared to be sick to your stomach. I know it did mine. Just yesterday I learned they fucking ate babies. And that their youngest victim wasn't even separated from the umbilical cord yet. It makes me want to puke. And if you think this stuff isn't happening right now, you'd be wrong. Need I remind anyone about MKUltra, and how although that has since been declassified, those types of experiments absolutely still take place today, only the current ones are classified so we don't hear about them. Even now I know there are experiments taking place attempting to create sleeper agents, experiments which often start before a baby has even exited the womb. It is mind-boggling, it feels like it can't be real, but it is. Not just stranger than fiction, but a million times more horrifying than any story anyone could write. Because no one would want to read about the kind of shit they do to people.
I can't take it. Yes, there are good things that happen in the world. I've had plenty of good things happen to me too despite my traumatic childhood. But I cannot stand to live in a world so cruel, so evil, one that would allow any of these things to happen in the first place. Life is supposed to be this amazing gift, yet people in government are EATING BABIES like wtf how is this real, how is any of this real, yet it all unfolds in front of our eyes. And these are just the things they're declassifying!! Imagine what else goes on.
In a weird way it makes me wish worse had happened to me. I mean in comparison what happened to me was nothing. I wish I could have experienced more brutality to justify how shitty I am, and to give me infinite more reason to ctb. But at this point, learning (unwillingly mind you) about all of this, I can't take it. What happened to me was a tiny little drop in a much, much bigger ocean of evil. I'm glad people can compartmentalize it and go about their day, but I cannot. It hurts... it hurts so much and it didn't even happen to me directly. I feel so disgusted and dirty :(
I have known for my whole life the atrocities humanity is capable of committing. I learned in middle school that the Nazis used babies as target practice. Babies. Just recently I learned about the rape of Nanjing. Even more recently I learned that during Imperial Japan there was a facility called Unit 731 where they tortured around 14,000 people to death, adults and children. They would perform live vivisections on people, exposed them to deadly diseases and chemicals, women raped and forced to become pregnant so they could have more tests done on them, among other horrifying shit. And they killed hundreds of thousands from the biological warfare they developed there too.
A lot people try to think as this kind of stuff happening in the past, that we as a society have evolved beyond such barbaric practices. But no, this kind of sick shit absolutely still happens. There are a lot of eyes on the genocide of Palestine right now (which to be clear is a good thing, free Palestine), but there are always global acts of terrorism happening that are hidden from the public. Disgusting horrors happen just within the homes of millions of people. I would know. And even the things that happened to me aren't nearly as horrifying as stories of people you can find posted anywhere, spoken of anyone sometimes just in passing.
Right now is the Epstein files. All of this crazy shit is mind-boggling to learn about, and I am not actively seeking it out. I don't want to know about a lot of it seeing as I am a victim of CSA. But it finds me anyway since it is so huge. A few days ago I had the displeasure of reading the pacifier email. Plz don't look it up unless you are prepared to be sick to your stomach. I know it did mine. Just yesterday I learned they fucking ate babies. And that their youngest victim wasn't even separated from the umbilical cord yet. It makes me want to puke. And if you think this stuff isn't happening right now, you'd be wrong. Need I remind anyone about MKUltra, and how although that has since been declassified, those types of experiments absolutely still take place today, only the current ones are classified so we don't hear about them. Even now I know there are experiments taking place attempting to create sleeper agents, experiments which often start before a baby has even exited the womb. It is mind-boggling, it feels like it can't be real, but it is. Not just stranger than fiction, but a million times more horrifying than any story anyone could write. Because no one would want to read about the kind of shit they do to people.
I can't take it. Yes, there are good things that happen in the world. I've had plenty of good things happen to me too despite my traumatic childhood. But I cannot stand to live in a world so cruel, so evil, one that would allow any of these things to happen in the first place. Life is supposed to be this amazing gift, yet people in government are EATING BABIES like wtf how is this real, how is any of this real, yet it all unfolds in front of our eyes. And these are just the things they're declassifying!! Imagine what else goes on.
In a weird way it makes me wish worse had happened to me. I mean in comparison what happened to me was nothing. I wish I could have experienced more brutality to justify how shitty I am, and to give me infinite more reason to ctb. But at this point, learning (unwillingly mind you) about all of this, I can't take it. What happened to me was a tiny little drop in a much, much bigger ocean of evil. I'm glad people can compartmentalize it and go about their day, but I cannot. It hurts... it hurts so much and it didn't even happen to me directly. I feel so disgusted and dirty :(
