This weekend I'm planning on jumping off the bridge

[Pcgamer1]

This weekend I'm planning on jumping off the bridge to end my own life. I don't have many friends and can't find any new ones. There's nothing in the world for me and I won't be missed if I die

 

[Versailles]

This weekend I'm planning on jumping off the bridge to end my own life. I don't have many friends and can't find any new ones. There's nothing in the world for me and I won't be missed if I die

I'm sorry you have to make this decision. Be careful with this type of method, since it could just leave you hurt, even so, I hope you feel comfortable with your decision, I give you the best in the world

 

[StarryStarry]

I'm so sorry that life has been so unkind and difficult for you. I do understand how you feel. Do you want to pm and tell me why now?

 

[britter]

This may sound completely harsh and aggressive, and you may not want to hear this, but.
People will miss you,
it's human nature to feel sad or lost when someone or something they've made a connection with disappears.
I won't argue that you have anything to live for as I don't know your situation, but all I can do is wish for you to think this through with a clear-mind and go over every possibility and situation that you will encounter on your way and after departure. Are you sure you really want to do this?
Spontaneous feelings of anger or hatred come and go, and should never cloud your judgement. I will always stand by my opinion that this decision, be it the final one, should be dignified and peaceful. You should not leave a path of destruction behind you and think about the people around and after you that will have to come face-to-face with your decision.
Finding friends will never be easy, and that's ok. It may be uncomfortable or seem impossible, but you have to get out of your comfort zone. Sitting in an echo-chamber of sadness and pity will only further cloud your judgement and thoughts, and allow them complete control over your self. It is my opinion that it's not ok to CTB purely over immature, passing emotions. This should be a warm, calculated, and thoughtful process that takes many many months to completely come to terms with.
Once again, these are only my thoughts and should not be considered the correct way to think, I am only attempting to rationalize and pass on my theories to you.

 

[BluesRunTheGame]

If that's what you want then make sure it's high enough at least.

EDIT: How high are we talking btw? And is it over water or land?

 

[Arot]

I'm so sorry you feel this way. Just be careful because your method is quite risky. But whatever choice you finally decide to make... I just hope you can find peace.

 

[Pcgamer1]

This may sound completely harsh and aggressive, and you may not want to hear this, but.
People will miss you,
it's human nature to feel sad or lost when someone or something they've made a connection with disappears.
I won't argue that you have anything to live for as I don't know your situation, but all I can do is wish for you to think this through with a clear-mind and go over every possibility and situation that you will encounter on your way and after departure. Are you sure you really want to do this?
Spontaneous feelings of anger or hatred come and go, and should never cloud your judgement. I will always stand by my opinion that this decision, be it the final one, should be dignified and peaceful. You should not leave a path of destruction behind you and think about the people around and after you that will have to come face-to-face with your decision.
Finding friends will never be easy, and that's ok. It may be uncomfortable or seem impossible, but you have to get out of your comfort zone. Sitting in an echo-chamber of sadness and pity will only further cloud your judgement and thoughts, and allow them complete control over your self. It is my opinion that it's not ok to CTB purely over immature, passing emotions. This should be a warm, calculated, and thoughtful process that takes many many months to completely come to terms with.
Once again, these are only my thoughts and should not be considered the correct way to think, I am only attempting to rationalize and pass on my theories to you.

For me I don't connect well with people online. And I live with my parents who aren't accepting of me and won't refer to me as her daughter simply because I'm trans. And then throw in the world being such a bad place, the affordable housing crisis in America, healthcare becoming less and less accessible for the poor, racism and transphobia. In 2021 a record number of trans woman were murdered. And we have a never ending pandemic. I've already decided that suicide is the right decision for me

If that's what you want then make sure it's high enough at least.

EDIT: How high are we talking btw? And is it over water or land?

It's the golden gate bridge and it's 220 feet above water

 

[britter]

For me I don't connect well with people online. And I live with my parents who aren't accepting of me and won't refer to me as her daughter simply because I'm trans. And then throw in the world being such a bad place, the affordable housing crisis in America, healthcare becoming less and less accessible for the poor, racism and transphobia. In 2021 a record number of trans woman were murdered. And we have a never ending pandemic. I've already decided that suicide is the right decision for me

This breaks my heart because I share a very similar situation, I am having trouble with gender identity but haven't taken the leap towards one way or another. I wish there were a million different ways I could reassure you and help you but realistically the only thing I can do right now is to tell you that as much as you think it, the world isn't out to get you. There are so many different ways you can help yourself but the most difficult part is ironically taking the leap.
If you have really resolved yourself to death, do something drastic. What will it matter anyway, right?
Apply for a hundred jobs, apply for a hundred shared-living spaces, talk to strangers, be free.
Live your life everyday like you will die tomorrow.
All I want is for you to truly consider every single possibility before finally strengthening your resolve enough to depart life. Do it for me, please.

 

[BluesRunTheGame]

It's the golden gate bridge and it's 220 feet above water

An old classic. Nice.

 

[NearlyIrrelevantCake]

I wish you luck and peace, OP.

 

[Thankyoufortoday]

I've heard it can be semi difficult to ctb there as there is a frequent security presence to prevent it. Either way, I wish you good luck and peace

 

[Wrennie]

Please don't use jumping as a method. Ultimately, in the end it's your choice what you decide to do, but as a "failed" jumper myself I know how devastating the consequences of survival are. Orthopedic medicine is incredibly barbaric and not as advanced as they make it out to be. If you live you could not only be completely disabled but also suffer a severely allergic reaction to the foreign materials they'll put in your body, and then they'll refuse to even consider taking them out. Most orthopedic surgeons rely on titanium implants (Titanium is a heavy metal and NOT safe to insert into a living organism. I don't care how many of these "specialists" tell me otherwise, I can personally see what it's doing to me).

I get that you're desperate, I truly do… but please think about the consequences of this specific decision. Like I said before, in the end whatever you decide to do is your choice and I respect your right to do so as an adult. I just pray you don't end up like me.

Much love to you. I'm so sorry life has cornered you into this position. I wish there were something I could do or say to make things better, but it's never that simple. You don't deserve to have to be subjected to so much agony. I'm sorry nobody has been able to help you (nobody could help me either.)

 

[Pcgamer1]

Please don't use jumping as a method. Ultimately, in the end it's your choice what you decide to do, but as a "failed" jumper myself I know how devastating the consequences of survival are. Orthopedic medicine is incredibly barbaric and not as advanced as they make it out to be. If you live you could not only be completely disabled but also suffer a severely allergic reaction to the foreign materials they'll put in your body, and then they'll refuse to even consider taking them out. Most orthopedic surgeons rely on titanium implants (Titanium is a heavy metal and NOT safe to insert into a living organism. I don't care how many of these "specialists" tell me otherwise, I can personally see what it's doing to me).

I get that you're desperate, I truly do… but please think about the consequences of this specific decision. Like I said before, in the end whatever you decide to do is your choice and I respect your right to do so as an adult. I just pray you don't end up like me.

Much love to you. I'm so sorry life has cornered you into this position. I wish there were something I could do or say to make things better, but it's never that simple. You don't deserve to have to be subjected to so much agony. I'm sorry nobody has been able to help you (nobody could help me either.)

I wish assisted suicide was legal in the USA for mentally ill people. But it isn't and I've heard that most people who do it end up dying

 

[Wrennie]

I wish assisted suicide was legal in the USA for mentally ill people. But it isn't and I've heard that most people who do it end up dying

I want to move to Canada where MAID is being legalized in 2023. I live on the same continent, but am instead confined to a horrific second world country.

 

[Majordomo]

An old classic. Nice.

What about the suicide netting? It seems mostly in place, or am I mistaken?

For me I don't connect well with people online. And I live with my parents who aren't accepting of me and won't refer to me as her daughter simply because I'm trans. And then throw in the world being such a bad place, the affordable housing crisis in America, healthcare becoming less and less accessible for the poor, racism and transphobia. In 2021 a record number of trans woman were murdered. And we have a never ending pandemic. I've already decided that suicide is the right decision for me

It's the golden gate bridge and it's 220 feet above water

Has the suicide netting been completed? Last I read it seemed pretty close to zeroing out this option.

 

[Capsicum_Corral]

It's the golden gate bridge and it's 220 feet above water

I've read that not everyone dies on impact, but those that don't do end up drowning. Seems like it would be an awful way to go.

On the other hand, it could be very environmentally friendly if done while the tide is going out. Kind of the ocean version of a sky funeral.

 

[Onthe29th]

There was a youtuber named Etika who died like this but on autopsy, they said he died from drowning.

 

[*Psyche*]

@Pcgamer1 I read your post earlier tonight & its been weighing on my mind since then. As I know this choice is totally yours, there is a part of me that hopes you can reconsider.

Girl, there are a lot of Trans women (& men) who feel exactly as you do! Their parents aren't accepting, or other family & friends have turned their backs on them. YOU ARE NOT ALONE!! Have you been to any support groups? There have to be some in your area if you live in/near SF. If not, there are support groups online. You don't even have to say anything. Just listen/read & talk when you feel ready.

If you still truly feel it's your time to go, I'd like you to do me a simple favor. I want you to do something for yourself before you jump off that bridge. I want you to try to remember something that used to give you joy & go do it or buy it or whatever it is you need to have to obtain it! Lady... with all the pain you've endured lately, you deserve some joy before you go.

My heart aches for you, which is why I'm writing this. I can't get your story out of my mind & it truly makes me want to cry. I'm so sorry for all you've been through. I hope you can find peace whatever you decide. And I hope you will do something to give yourself a bit of joy today, no matter what. It's Sunday, fuck it! You don't need a reason to make yourself happy for a few moments.

Much love to you, girl. You're in my heart. ❤

 

[FuneralCry]

There is also nothing in this world for me, I understand. Jumping is one of the methods I would never get the courage to do, but if you decide to do this then I hope you find freedom from all suffering.

 

[Someone123]

It's the golden gate bridge and it's 220 feet above water

You should know that it is very difficult to ctb here- a person walking alone is usually surrounded by police pretty quick;y, based on reports. They are down to one jmper every two weeks because of all they do to prevent possible jumpers. Reports are about 99% chance to ctb if you jump in the right area, but the prevnetion efforts are working.

 

[Pcgamer1]

@Pcgamer1 I read your post earlier tonight & its been weighing on my mind since then. As I know this choice is totally yours, there is a part of me that hopes you can reconsider.

Girl, there are a lot of Trans women (& men) who feel exactly as you do! Their parents aren't accepting, or other family & friends have turned their backs on them. YOU ARE NOT ALONE!! Have you been to any support groups? There have to be some in your area if you live in/near SF. If not, there are support groups online. You don't even have to say anything. Just listen/read & talk when you feel ready.

If you still truly feel it's your time to go, I'd like you to do me a simple favor. I want you to do something for yourself before you jump off that bridge. I want you to try to remember something that used to give you joy & go do it or buy it or whatever it is you need to have to obtain it! Lady... with all the pain you've endured lately, you deserve some joy before you go.

My heart aches for you, which is why I'm writing this. I can't get your story out of my mind & it truly makes me want to cry. I'm so sorry for all you've been through. I hope you can find peace whatever you decide. And I hope you will do something to give yourself a bit of joy today, no matter what. It's Sunday, fuck it! You don't need a reason to make yourself happy for a few moments.

Much love to you, girl. You're in my heart. ❤

They used to be support groups but they're all online and never coming back in person. I don't see the point of trying to do online groups again because none of the people would want to see me in person. Even if the omicron wave ends. I tried it in the beginning and it didn't work. And people there told me flying to Florida for spring break this year was a bad idea because of covid

 

[*Psyche*]

They used to be support groups but they're all online and never coming back in person. I don't see the point of trying to do online groups again because none of the people would want to see me in person. Even if the omicron wave ends. I tried it in the beginning and it didn't work. And people there told me flying to Florida for spring break this year was a bad idea because of covid

@Pcgamer1 I'm still thinking of you & hope you are still with us. I'm here to talk if you'd like to do so. ❤

 

[gottago222]

There was a youtuber named Etika who died like this but on autopsy, they said he died from drowning.

due to injuries from this jump, you are unable to swim.

 

[Death is beautiful]

it's a pity that you had to do this, I wish you peace

 

[VerbalWinter]

There was a youtuber named Etika who died like this but on autopsy, they said he died from drowning.

Rest in peace Etika :(

 

[Aboutblue]

This is my method too but I'm pretty scared of drowning and I'm just so sure that I will live through the fall and drown. I can't imagine the pain, it sounds terrible. Thanks to indecision and stupidity, I've ended up in the psych ward twice because of bridges. First time was at the Golden Gate.

You still here, OP? I really hope so.

 

[Crazy4u]

OP, you didn't post today. Are you still with us?

 

[Dot]

Actve 11 hrs ago

 

[Someone123]

According to one website there were 7 jumpers here in 2021 and 22 jumpers in 2020, so it has gotten very difficult to do this because of the prevention efforts.

 

[*Psyche*]

We were PMing each other over last weekend. I thought maybe I got through to her that things can get better, but maybe I failed. On Monday, the 3rd, I had to run an errand & she said she was going to a support group. This was at 7:45 PM EST. She hasn't been back since. I'm worried about her.