I have decided. Usually I give myself more time to think about it and plan for months away, but this time feels exactly right. I was supposed to get married next weekend, but I ruined that by being a cheating whore. I wanted to do it on my ex wedding day as tribute, but with people trying to make plans with me, it'll have to happen sooner so I don't stir up suspicion by cancelling. There is a chance my method won't work. I've always said if I'm going to do it, I'll make sure it's one and done, but I think it's worth just going for it instead of waiting for the plan to be perfect. Death is rarely perfect.
No one here really knows me enough to care, and no one I know in real life knows I'm suicidal. I refuse to be a burden. I can live on in their memories as the girl who had it all until she didn't.
No one here really knows me enough to care, and no one I know in real life knows I'm suicidal. I refuse to be a burden. I can live on in their memories as the girl who had it all until she didn't.
