Venting This week I had fallen ill and my attempts to make it worse failed

[Terry A. Davis]

Had some kind of big flu, fever of 104, coughing etc. Initially I rested as normal but realised it was an opportunity to potentially d*e without it being an obvious CTB attempt.

I did everything to make myself more ill, I ate bad food, chainsmoked cigarettes, exercised instead of resting.

But I ended up passing out from exhaustion for oer 18 hours and woke up feeling better than before. Now I just have a phlegmy cough.