This site is like therapy.

[Deleted member 1496]

I just wanted to say that since posting here, reading and discussing with you guys, I havent cried once all day. I cry pretty much every second of every day. I feel more at ease with my thoughts and emotions. It's like a comforting place you can go and you don't get judged, ridiculed or told to go get help or other condescending shit you get when you ring Samaritans or tell others. I can relate with pretty much all of you and I dont feel so alone anymore. I am thankful for this community.

Yes, not getting judged or ridiculed is awesome! Hugs if you want one. I also find it nice that most people here address where I am at (e.g., feel like giving up on living) instead of others who push their ideas of where I should already be. For me, there are logical and legitimate reasons why I feel the way I do. People validating reactions to something bad that happened and then I can address it from there is so much better than being told I shouldn't feel the way I do.

 

[starcrossedfate]

Yes, this site is definitely more cathartic than cognitive behavioral therapy.

 

[cap]

I don't even post here, I only read but I totally agree with ya.

 

[Roph]

I just wanted to say that since posting here, reading and discussing with you guys, I havent cried once all day. I cry pretty much every second of every day. I feel more at ease with my thoughts and emotions. It's like a comforting place you can go and you don't get judged, ridiculed or told to go get help or other condescending shit you get when you ring Samaritans or tell others. I can relate with pretty much all of you and I dont feel so alone anymore. I am thankful for this community.

For all these reasons and more, this site is better than therapy to me.

 

[RainAndSadness]

I agree with you mostly but I have mixed feelings about this place. For me the website rather drags me down. I see this place as some kind of train station. Many people here are leaving and a lot of the people I used to talk to already left. I'm glad of course that they found peace because I'm pro-choice and everyone has a right to die. But It's hurtful because I had very lovely conversations with some of these people. And reading about all the suffer from other members makes me sad, it's really depressing in a way. But when I do visit the website, I feel surrounded by mind-liked people, which feels really good. I know the people here are going through similar pain like I do and it's comforting to know that we understand each other on a certain level and I'm glad we have this kind of support. This website helped me a lot and I found my method thanks to very helpful members of this place - some of which have left already though. I'll definitely visit this place before I leave. Saying goodbye and stuff. It feels like a community, although members don't seem to get very old here on average. Which is sad as I said but I'm glad people have the option to leave with a method of their choice and find resources on this website. Which I'm very thankful for. I'm in control over my life now and I can leave this rotten prison whenever I desire.

 

[TAW122]

Yes, I agree with you @Metavoid . Therapy IRL is useless and a big waste of time (not to mention risky) towards people like us. It treats suicidal thoughts as an illness and has this stupid attitude about suicide is always wrong (when there are situations where suicide is a good option or a logical choice given the circumstances). They also never really look at reality, but instead spew idealistic, platitudinal lines as if that would help, or even try to reframe one's thinking into forgetting that life sucks. All of which do NOTHING to solve our problems.

I posted something pretty similar in the "Appreciation for the mods" thread. You're so right, and it's so true.

Here's what I don't understand.

Suicide can definitely be a rational choice, but pretend for a minute you're one of the majority of people who disagree. In their perspective suicide is a psychological problem similar to alcoholism or drug addiction, but it's treated totally differently.

What I mean is, when people are alcoholics, addicted to gambling, etc. the response isn't to just yell at them and say "DRINKING IS NEVER THE ANSWER NEVER DRINK HOW COULD YOU EVEN THINK OF DRINKING" or lock them up in a hospital like people do with suicidal people. You have a reasonable discussion about it, and maybe even join something like alcoholics anonymous. That's how you treat it. And that's what we're doing here with suicide. It's like alcoholics anonymous for suicide, and if we could have something similar in real life I think suicide rates would go down.

Society is so hung up on stopping people from killing themselves at all costs that it's created a stigma which is causing more people to kill themselves because if they talk about they are treated like lepers.

It makes me pretty angry.

Well said, suicide is indeed a rational choice and sometimes it is the ONLY logical choice in a mad world with no solutions to certain problems. Also, yes, I think if we had something similar to alcoholics anonymous IRL, then absolutely, the suicide rates will go down. As far as society being so hung up on stopping people from suicide at all costs, it's the stupid religious influence that all life is valuable, and while we are more secular nowadays, there are still humanist and pro-lifers chanting, parroting off that life is good as if it is some fact rather than just an subjective opinion.

 

[Rocky M]

Glad you are here. Hopefully we will all find peace

 

[itsallover]

Well said. That's exactly why I keep coming back. I wish I was healthy again and could go on living but it doesn't look like it's coming. The depression that comes with chronic illness is unlike anything I have ever experienced. The suicide rate for people in chronic pain and debilitating diagnoses is through the roof. Nothing really works and you're stuck chasing your fucking tail. You'll have family members and therapists to stay strong but after a while you get so drained and don't see any other way out. I hate the fact that people say it's the cowards way out. I know that if any asshole doctor was inside my body even for a minute they wouldn't dare ask me why my condition bothers me so much. At least here people are compassionate and know you're at the end of your road. I fought hard enough to get past all my troubles and make a decent life for myself. I didn't deserve to be completely destroyed by doctors. I was really happy before this and now all I look forward to is the escape of sleep. I want it permanently now. I am going to follow another post about how to overdose on one of the inorganic salts. There is no life without having your health when it impacts your ability to function day to day. I am ready for this to be over with. I have run out of options and don't want to see anymore doctors or try anymore therapies. They have all failed anyway so I have no hope left. Strangely enough I started taking an antidepressant and it has made me want to off myself even more. The hardest part of this will be writing the suicide note. It's the last thing your family will remember you ever saying to them. Anyway I'll post again when I have all my materials and everything is set. I think everyone should have a way out in case everything goes to shit. I never thought I would be interested this position but here I am. I had my whole life planned out and it's over before it even started.

 

[Nem]

Well said. That's exactly why I keep coming back. I wish I was healthy again and could go on living but it doesn't look like it's coming. The depression that comes with chronic illness is unlike anything I have ever experienced. The suicide rate for people in chronic pain and debilitating diagnoses is through the roof. Nothing really works and you're stuck chasing your fucking tail. You'll have family members and therapists to stay strong but after a while you get so drained and don't see any other way out. I hate the fact that people say it's the cowards way out. I know that if any asshole doctor was inside my body even for a minute they wouldn't dare ask me why my condition bothers me so much. At least here people are compassionate and know you're at the end of your road. I fought hard enough to get past all my troubles and make a decent life for myself. I didn't deserve to be completely destroyed by doctors. I was really happy before this and now all I look forward to is the escape of sleep. I want it permanently now. I am going to follow another post about how to overdose on one of the inorganic salts. There is no life without having your health when it impacts your ability to function day to day. I am ready for this to be over with. I have run out of options and don't want to see anymore doctors or try anymore therapies. They have all failed anyway so I have no hope left. Strangely enough I started taking an antidepressant and it has made me want to off myself even more. The hardest part of this will be writing the suicide note. It's the last thing your family will remember you ever saying to them. Anyway I'll post again when I have all my materials and everything is set. I think everyone should have a way out in case everything goes to shit. I never thought I would be interested this position but here I am. I had my whole life planned out and it's over before it even started.

Holy shit...amen. I feel your pain literally and I'm in the same boat...the titanic
Peace

 

[Jane Doe]

I don't even post here, I only read but I totally agree with ya.

Me too @cap