This really is it

[XXXTENTACION]

I know I posted last week about CTB and it being imminent but I made some mistakes and it has been delayed.
After some fine tweaks I have it all ready for tomorrow (Saturday) and am looking forward to the sweet relief of the daily stress and impending doom....it now feels like I'm in the final seconds...the final moments...it's time

 

[bankai]

Wish you peace, brother. I'll see you on the other side. May I ask what is the method that you are choosing?

 

[XXXTENTACION]

The exit bag method using Argon gas

 

[NearlyIrrelevantCake]

Godspeed.

 

[XXXTENTACION]

I want to do something wild for my final night but don't know what. Any ideas? I'm in the UK amd money isn't a problem

 

[bankai]

It's sad dude, you made a pretty good life for yourself but still feel the need to take the bus. I can understand your situation very well. I'm in the same boat. Wish you peace. It's a peaceful method. I hope it goes well for you.

 

[XXXTENTACION]

It's sad dude, you made a pretty good life for yourself but still feel the need to take the bus. I can understand your situation very well. I'm in the same boat. Wish you peace. It's a peaceful method. I hope it goes well for you.

I know, it's mad right. I've got a well paid job, had a previous marriage of 9 years, multiple holidays, cars, motorbikes, own a house.....but i just dont feel I will ever be happy
I feel like I've completed life, there's nothing left I need to do, nothing on my "bucket list" so to speak, im done
I feel like I've completed life, there's nothing left I need to do, nothing on my "bucket list" so to speak, im done

 

[bankai]

I know, it's mad right. I've got a well paid job, had a previous marriage of 9 years, multiple holidays, cars, motorbikes, own a house.....but i just dont feel I will ever be happy

I have multiple homes,all inherited,I didn't earn them.but still same boat and misery.

I hope I just pass on instead of actually having to ctb but that's not going to happen for a long time.'Cause I've been blessed with great health too,bwahaha!

I want to do something wild for my final night but don't know what. Any ideas? I'm in the UK amd money isn't a problem

Do whatever makes you happy man. Don't do what I did and buy multiple cakes just 'cause it's your birthday and regret it.

Enjoy some hookers and cocaine in moderation.if that's possible.Just don't enjoy yourself so much that you change your mind

But of course that's OK too.

 

[XXXTENTACION]

Money is a gift and a curse. I've never done coke but I absolutely abuse pharma stuff....xanax, benzos etc.
So CTB is never a choice for you?

 

[bankai]

Money is a gift and a curse. I've never done coke but I absolutely abuse pharma stuff....xanax, benzos etc.
So CTB is never a choice for you?

It will be 1 day but not yet 'cause my survival instinct is so high. I tried partial hanging once and I felt like my head was going to just pop off. I was pretty drunk too, I'm pretty sure if I'd just stayed there I would have eventually blacked out, plopped downward into the noose and ended up dying. But I got out of there quick. I was filled with terror. Your method is excellent though.Far more peaceful.

 

[XXXTENTACION]

I appreciate you sharing brother.
I tried the exit bag 3 years ago but got interrupted and have a lot of negative things associated with it. I've looked at all the things that fucked it up last time so this time it should be flawless....I hope

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope you find peace from suffering, I wish you the best.

 

[ChrisFromEarth]

do some trippin

 

[XXXTENTACION]

Please wish me luck this time my brothers and sisters x

 

[bankai]

The absolute best of luck to you friend!!May the peace you so desire finally be at hand.

 

[Traveller12724]

Yeah I wish you the best of luck my brother, may you find the peace you are looking for, I won't be far behind, so see you on the other side!!!

 

[spero_meliora]

I hope you find the peace you seek.

 

[lonergirl_26]

I hope you find peace.

 

[peanutsandjelly]

The exit bag method using Argon gas

Oooh, very brave. Don't forget to hyperventilate. Argon is heavy so I hope you've got that handled. I'm sure you know more about it. Good luck.

 

[XXXTENTACION]

So the time is nearing, the evening is setting in, the night is getting cooler....

Im sitting in my back garden, where I plan to CTB, and have been drinking all day. My exit bag and cannister are prepped and working, I have 40ish Zopiclone sleeping tablets ready, earphones charged and final playlist set.

Tonight really is the night....
I've wanted this for years....
My first attempt was over 3 years ago....
Yet still I'm scared.

 

[deathbydesign]

So the time is nearing, the evening is setting in, the night is getting cooler....

Im sitting in my back garden, where I plan to CTB, and have been drinking all day. My exit bag and cannister are prepped and working, I have 40ish Zopiclone sleeping tablets ready, earphones charged and final playlist set.

Tonight really is the night....
I've wanted this for years....
My first attempt was over 3 years ago....
Yet still I'm scared.

I hope you find peace - whatever you choose. If you aren't ready today, remember that's ok. No shame in changing your mind. Either way, I truly hope you find peace

So the time is nearing, the evening is setting in, the night is getting cooler....

Im sitting in my back garden, where I plan to CTB, and have been drinking all day. My exit bag and cannister are prepped and working, I have 40ish Zopiclone sleeping tablets ready, earphones charged and final playlist set.

Tonight really is the night....
I've wanted this for years....
My first attempt was over 3 years ago....
Yet still I'm scared.

I hope you find peace - whatever you choose. If you aren't ready today, remember that's ok. No shame in changing your mind. Either way, I truly hope you find peace

 

[Romanticize]

Argon is great choice, the best of all inert gases because it's heavier than air and don't escape exit bag so easily.
Also you dont need 40 zopiclone, it's too much. With inert gas after 1-2 breaths (5-15 sec) you are unconscious so benzos are not that important at all.

 

[XXXTENTACION]

Argon is great choice, the best of all inert gases because it's heavier than air and don't escape exit bag so easily.
Also you dont need 40 zopiclone, it's too much. With inert gas after 1-2 breaths (5-15 sec) you are unconscious so benzos are not that important at all.

I know the Zopiclones sound like over kill but all that sticks in my mind from my first attempt three years ago was laying there listening to the rustling of the plastic bag, hence the earphones and playlist this time. Also I distinctly remember not passing out as quick as you are lead to believe. I'm not sure if it's because I'm a big guy or what it gives your body time for that survival instinct to kick in, like it or not. I want the Zopiclones to eliminate that being a possibility this time. Plus, I have them now so what's the harm
Thanks though

 

[gottacheckout]

I wish you a peaceful journey

 

[slinkey10]

"I'm a big guy or what it gives your body time for that survival instinct to kick in, like it or not. I want the Zopiclones to eliminate that being a possibility this time. Plus, I have them now so what's the harm"

hope this works for u !

BTW - Zopiclone is not a benzo!
It's not even that good (unless u have tried already, and it worked for u? It doesn't work at all for me and many others) & you say ur a big guy?

"My first attempt was over 3 years ago....
Yet still I'm scared"
peace be with u , & normal to feel scared, shows you're still feeling :)

 

[XXXTENTACION]

"I'm a big guy or what it gives your body time for that survival instinct to kick in, like it or not. I want the Zopiclones to eliminate that being a possibility this time. Plus, I have them now so what's the harm"

hope this works for u !

BTW - Zopiclone is not a benzo!
It's not even that good (unless u have tried already, and it worked for u? It doesn't work at all for me and many others) & you say ur a big guy?

"My first attempt was over 3 years ago....
Yet still I'm scared"
peace be with u , & normal to feel scared, shows you're still feeling :)

Yeah I'm a bodybuilder so would say I have a certain "heft" to me lol.
Yeah I know it's not a benzo. I've abused pretty much all available benzos in the last few years. Xanax got me sectioned at one point I've lived off of benzos and alcohol for the last 2 months. Codeine and promethazine syrup doesn't even touch me at the moment. My tolerance is ridiculous and I'm actually quite pissed off about that as it would have made it a lot easier
Thank you though brother x
Updated the profile picture to show I'm not talking out my arse about bodybuilding
Updated the profile picture to show I'm not talking out my arse about bodybuilding

 

[slinkey10]

Yeah I'm a bodybuilder so would say I have a certain "heft" to me lol.
Yeah I know it's not a benzo. I've abused pretty much all available benzos in the last few years. Xanax got me sectioned at one point I've lived off of benzos and alcohol for the last 2 months. Codeine and promethazine syrup doesn't even touch me at the moment. My tolerance is ridiculous and I'm actually quite pissed off about that as it would have made it a lot easier
Thank you though brother x

I'm slim but similar x xanax , benzo & alcohol user.
Tolerance is a bitch.
omg... & u been making lean lol "Codeine and promethazine syrup doesn't even touch me at the moment"

Shame Ive just seen this & live in London, it's expensive !

Maybe wait until you have everything? As said already and only IMO - zopiclone is garbage unless you're the small percentage of the population this works on?
I attempted your method before, It's difficult with leaks!?

 

[shroomia]

I hope everything will go well for you and you find the peace and relief you deserve.

 

[XXXTENTACION]

I'm slim but similar x xanax , benzo & alcohol user.
Tolerance is a bitch.
omg... & u been making lean lol "Codeine and promethazine syrup doesn't even touch me at the moment"

Shame Ive just seen this & live in London, it's expensive !

Maybe wait until you have everything? As said already and only IMO - zopiclone is garbage unless you're the small percentage of the population this works on?
I attempted your method before, It's difficult with leaks!?

Bro lean is bullshit, tolerance builds up too quick. I down a 100ml codeine/promethazine bottle and then start drinking it fucked me for days the first few times but as of late I can do 200ml and wake up the next day like nothing happened.

Its not that expensive, 50 quid online for a 100ml bottle.

Im a Londoner too! Start a private chat with me

 

[finalgoodbye:(]

@XXXTENTACION nice build man. Are you on gear?