This is the worst month ever I want June to come

[FireFox]

I wish June can come already this is the worst month ever

- First my family is completely broken over the sudden and unexpected death of my relative. We went from talking about my relatives upcoming wedding in August to discussing her funeral plans and trying to get the United States for funeral. My ESTA application has been approved so has my mothers but my family are having issues getting my grandmother's visa for America. The family is no longer the same. My relative leaves behind a 14 year old girl and 22 year old son, its the kids I feel so sorry for. Then my family are frequently fighting about funeral costs and other issues. It's heartbreaking and distressing to see everyone I love me fall apart literally.

- In 2 days time I turn 25 years old with nothing to show for my life, i hate birthdays so much. Everyday I am tormented by how I wasted my life and just failed to have it together. I live with my mother, unemployed and single and failed to be a functional adult. I had a job which ended. I rescently caught up this 25 year old woman in my church and she went to the same school as me, she is very lovely. She is getting married soon. it's so hard seeing people my age getting married or engaged or moving out or doing something huge.
Everything is just a mess

 

[SuicidallyCurious]

I wish June can come already this is the worst month ever

- First my family is completely broken over the sudden and unexpected death of my relative. We went from talking about my relatives upcoming wedding in August to discussing her funeral plans and trying to get the United States for funeral. My ESTA application has been approved so has my mothers but my family are having issues getting my grandmother's visa for America. The family is no longer the same. My relative leaves behind a 14 year old girl and 22 year old son, its the kids I feel so sorry for. Then my family are frequently fighting about funeral costs and other issues. It's heartbreaking and distressing to see everyone I love me fall apart literally.

- In 2 days time I turn 25 years old with nothing to show for my life, i hate birthdays so much. Everyday I am tormented by how I wasted my life and just failed to have it together. I live with my mother, unemployed and single and failed to be a functional adult. I had a job which ended. I rescently caught up this 25 year old woman in my church and she went to the same school as me, she is very lovely. She is getting married soon. it's so hard seeing people my age getting married or engaged or moving out or doing something huge.
Everything is just a mess

They're going to get married and their children will die fiery deaths from global warming or a nuclear Holocaust

Tell me what the heartache is for again

Sorry about the funeral. Even more sorry you have to deal with US immigration. U.S. immigration is bizarre and I suspect big corruption within the feds. Someone legit wants to come but we let criminals bust in by the thousands and stay with endless appeals etc etc

 

[Ta555]

I wish June can come already this is the worst month ever

- First my family is completely broken over the sudden and unexpected death of my relative. We went from talking about my relatives upcoming wedding in August to discussing her funeral plans and trying to get the United States for funeral. My ESTA application has been approved so has my mothers but my family are having issues getting my grandmother's visa for America. The family is no longer the same. My relative leaves behind a 14 year old girl and 22 year old son, its the kids I feel so sorry for. Then my family are frequently fighting about funeral costs and other issues. It's heartbreaking and distressing to see everyone I love me fall apart literally.

- In 2 days time I turn 25 years old with nothing to show for my life, i hate birthdays so much. Everyday I am tormented by how I wasted my life and just failed to have it together. I live with my mother, unemployed and single and failed to be a functional adult. I had a job which ended. I rescently caught up this 25 year old woman in my church and she went to the same school as me, she is very lovely. She is getting married soon. it's so hard seeing people my age getting married or engaged or moving out or doing something huge.
Everything is just a mess

You're literally still just out of high school at 25. I still felt like I was 17 at 25. Very few people have achieved anything of importance or have it together by that age. I'm a decade above you and trust me, many of my friends, including myself, hated our 20s.

 

[jimmy7754]

In the end it doesn't even matter

 

[Ta555]

In the end it doesn't even matter

I tried so hard..

 

[FireFox]

They're going to get married and their children will die fiery deaths from global warming or a nuclear Holocaust

Tell me what the heartache is for again

Sorry about the funeral. Even more sorry you have to deal with US immigration. U.S. immigration is bizarre and I suspect big corruption within the feds. Someone legit wants to come but we let criminals bust in by the thousands and stay with endless appeals etc etc

@SuicidallyCurious
The US visa application questions are absolutely just disgusting and so stupid because nobody is going to answer yes. My mum was filling in the visa application form and here is one of the questions, this is the most disgusting question ever:

"Are you coming to the United States to engage in prostitution or unlawful commercialized vice or have you been engaged in prostitution or procuring prostitutes within the past 10 years?"

My mum and I were so shocked at the questions. My mother has done visa applications before to go travelling in Europe and to bring my grandmother to the UK but never ever has she experienced this madness My mother had pay $160 to send off the application.

On my ESTA application the questions are just stupid and ridiculous because nobody is going to tick yes.

-Do you seek to engage in or have you ever engaged in terrorist activities, espionage, sabotage, or genocide?

-Do you have a physical or mental disorder; or are you a drug abuser or addict;
Going through the application all I thought was what the f*ck.

My mum is trying to get an appointment at the US embassy for the visa interview and its so difficult. The appointments keep filled up and they are so limited as well.

>Tell me what the heartache is for again

-It's just reminder of how as a teenager I had to watch all the girls at school get boyfriends and having relationships whereas that didn't happen for me because guys at school builled me or ignored me. My childhood friend ended up going to the same secondary school while all my other friends went to different schools. In the first term she got boyfriend and new friends and after while stopped hanging out me and spending time with her boyfriend. I was even made fun by other girls for not having a boyfriend. Watching Teenage drama shows I felt so abnormal not having a boyfriend like the characters did.
. It was everyone was growing up except me

- in adulthood seeing people getting married or have relationships is a reminder of the rejection I experienced from guys throughout my life and never got have the love, affection and appreciation people in relationships have.

 

[come to dust]

I'm 27, and everyone around me my age is getting married. Meanwhile I have never had a relationship. and live at home with family still.

 

[Superdeterminist]

I'm 27, and everyone around me my age is getting married. Meanwhile I have never had a relationship. and live at home with family still.

In a similar situation and I hate it, it feels like you're losing the biggest race of life. This dreadful feeling alone would inspire ctb.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry that you are going through this, I know that it can be awful when things seem so hopeless. This life can be very depressing, and I hate birthdays as well, as it is a day that is supposed to celebrate an existence I do not want and did not ask for. I am horrified at the thought of getting older. I wish you the best and I hope you find relief from your suffering.

 

[FireFox]

I'm sorry that you are going through this, I know that it can be awful when things seem so hopeless. This life can be very depressing, and I hate birthdays as well, as it is a day that is supposed to celebrate an existence I do not want and did not ask for. I am horrified at the thought of getting older. I wish you the best and I hope you find relief from your suffering.

@FuneralCry
We are exactly the same I am horrified at growing older too
You are such a good person and I wish you the best too :)
Love
FireFox :)

I'm 27, and everyone around me my age is getting married. Meanwhile I have never had a relationship. and live at home with family still.

@come to dust
The worst thing of all the majority of people do not understand how truly feels to go through your entire life without love and always watching on the sidelines seeing everyone else have relationships.

Being single throughout my teenage and twenties feels like a lifetime. I spent my life being the girl and now woman who never had a guy see her as pretty and always being rejected.
I don't want to be that person anymore.

Sending lots of love to you
from
FireFox :)

In a similar situation and I hate it, it feels like you're losing the biggest race of life. This dreadful feeling alone would inspire ctb.

@Hidden Base

Being single becomes more difficult with age. I worry about turning 30 because men want younger women and I feel like it will be over for me being single in my 30s. There is no dignity being single and I don't want to live like this anymore.