Venting Third Times A Charm

[Pretty.Odd251]

Long time lurker first time poster.

This is it guys. Im 26 yo, been a benzo user for 3 years, unemployed for 2 years and recently lost someone close to me. I am just an all round terrible person.
Ive tried twice before which obviously failed. One in march last year where i spent 2 weeks in hospital and permanently fucked my brain. Another in January this year which caused psychosis and i ended up in the cells for a night.
I need this time to work.
I dont want anyone one i know finding me (again) so i want to drive as far north as possible without leaving too much of a footprint and drive to a nice quiet viewpoint to CTB.
Ive brought 25x M30s online. (Because i dont like the idea of train jumping, jumping from hight, hanging and guns are banned in my country) I would like to go out, as ive spent my last 3 years. High.
Never used opioids so im going to take some xanax to knock me out before the oxys do.
Ive stuff written for family/friends on a lengthy word doc.
This is probably going to be the last chance i get before im locked up.

 

[saddestbunny]

I'm sorry to hear about your situation

I hope you can find peace, message me if you need someone to vent to

 

[locked*n*loaded]

As someone who has never taken anything you've mentioned, I can't comment on that, but I will defer to you and your experience and I hope that whatever you feel needs to happen gets you to where you feel you need to be. Good luck and peace to you.

 

[Pretty.Odd251]

I'm sorry to hear about your situation

I hope you can find peace, message me if you need someone to vent to

Thank you bro <3

 

[FuneralCry]

It sounds really awful what you've been through, I hope that you find freedom from your suffering, best of luck.