
Mx_Pathetic
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- May 8, 2023
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Its 1:30am where im from..I went to go use the restroom when I saw the moon shining bright outside. So I put on my oodie and sat down outside to stare at the moon and enjoy the cool air. I'm listening to childhood, daniel.mp3, zamaro on Spotify…it's very…calm out here or atleast it should be. Even now my thoughts ruin everything…I'm crying as I sit out here…thinking of old memories and just stuff I've done today that have made me overthink. Regrets to messages I've sent or words I've spoke. Actions I wish I'd done and actions I wish I hadn't…..my thoughts go on and on and on and on…when does it stop? When does all of it just fucking stop. It doesn't, that's the sad part. It doesn't stop. Maybe one day it may get bearable but right now, right in this moment….the only thing that sticks out in my thoughts is wanting to die. Dying in this moment would be so beautiful and peaceful. The faint sound of geckos, cars, trains, possums, bats, birds, dogs barking, the leaves, the air. My cats rubbing against my leg…the cool air the empty smell. The pitch black world around me with a simple moon for light….id like to die here. Right now. If only dead was as peaceful as it is right now…..

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