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emptymiku

emptymiku

bokura wa inochi ni kirawarete iru
Mar 27, 2023
231
most of the time when i'm extremely interested in someone (usually romantically) at some point my feelings for them will just completely disappear and i'll suddenly feel straight up uncomfortable talking to them. like, one day i'd literally sacrifice myself for them and the next day i wouldn't care if they died

i'm scared it'll happen again with the person i like right now. i wish i knew how to stop or manage it, but i can't even afford to see what's wrong with me...
 
SASU-KE

SASU-KE

How I get up when I hear the alarm ↑
Nov 26, 2025
1,120
No doubt it's some mental or personality disorder. Have you been diagnosed with anything?
 
emptymiku

emptymiku

bokura wa inochi ni kirawarete iru
Mar 27, 2023
231
No doubt it's some mental or personality disorder. Have you been diagnosed with anything?
i have a pretty long list actually but the relevant ones are depression, GAD, OCD, and i suspect BPD

i heard it had something to do with attatchment styles but aren't those developed because of childhood trauma? im pretty sure i don't have any childhood trauma, all the fucked up shit in my head is mostly from mental illness
 
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SASU-KE

SASU-KE

How I get up when I hear the alarm ↑
Nov 26, 2025
1,120
i have a pretty long list actually but the relevant ones are depression, GAD, OCD, and i suspect BPD

i heard it had something to do with attatchment styles but aren't those developed because of childhood trauma? im pretty sure i don't have any childhood trauma, all the fucked up shit in my head is mostly from mental illness
I've seen people with BPD especially complain about behaviour like that.They say it's also not a conscious choice, but just the way they react.Sounds pretty destructive when it comes to relationships.
 
emptymiku

emptymiku

bokura wa inochi ni kirawarete iru
Mar 27, 2023
231
I've seen people with BPD especially complain about behaviour like that.They say it's also not a conscious choice, but just the way they react.Sounds pretty destructive when it comes to relationships.
i wish i knew how to fix it ...
 
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Secro

Secro

Life is a bitch.
Jul 6, 2026
25
I hope you can fix this; unfortunately, I haven't had an emotional connection for years.
I'm somehow no longer able to like or hate someone.
 

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