Thinking about dying is the only thing that makes living bearable

[BellaKAT]

.I plan to ctb soon. Til then fantasizing about it is the only thing that makes me feel any less dispair.

 

[Fennoscandia]

I understand what you mean. Sometimes I feel that the only solace in life is that there is no solace, and embracing that mindset brings what little respite there is.

 

[MortDeVivre]

It does, doesn't it. It's the only thing I'm looking forward to right now. To my mother (one of my reasons for doing it), it probably looks like I'm recovering. None of my problems are solved, but I still feel better.

 

[Rocky M]

I feel ya. It feels wrong to say it's "fun" to think about my death, but it really is nice to know that I'll be ending my life soon. No more pain for either me or anyone around me

 

[BellaKAT]

It's mostly about the peace that comes from knowing I having a way out, I feel so trapped here.