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rottingrotten
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- Aug 23, 2024
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Hello everyone. Im new here so excuse me if i do something wrong.
I see no hope for my future. Im a 24 year old virgin. I cannot socialise no matter how hard i try. At this point i cant stand to be around even the people I love. God i don't even know how to write this it just hurts. I was such a mistake and i want to fix the mistake. Im disgusting to look at and i know ppl are repulsed by me i just don't understand why they lie to me about it when i can see it in their face. I have fantasies of smashing my head into the pavement and finally being free but i dont have the strength im just too scared of dying. But there is no chance i will be able to change my life for the better, I've been trying so long doing all the right things but im always gonna be this way. So I should kill my self. I don't know what the point of me posting this is. There's nothing anyone can tell me i think to make any of it better. I just want the pain to stop. Im at work rn and i cant focus cant stand to be around my colleagues and there's nowhere i can be alone. I wish someone would do it for me. I wish i could piss someone off wnough for them to just kill m me. I wanna throw up. Sorry i dont know what else to say.
I see no hope for my future. Im a 24 year old virgin. I cannot socialise no matter how hard i try. At this point i cant stand to be around even the people I love. God i don't even know how to write this it just hurts. I was such a mistake and i want to fix the mistake. Im disgusting to look at and i know ppl are repulsed by me i just don't understand why they lie to me about it when i can see it in their face. I have fantasies of smashing my head into the pavement and finally being free but i dont have the strength im just too scared of dying. But there is no chance i will be able to change my life for the better, I've been trying so long doing all the right things but im always gonna be this way. So I should kill my self. I don't know what the point of me posting this is. There's nothing anyone can tell me i think to make any of it better. I just want the pain to stop. Im at work rn and i cant focus cant stand to be around my colleagues and there's nowhere i can be alone. I wish someone would do it for me. I wish i could piss someone off wnough for them to just kill m me. I wanna throw up. Sorry i dont know what else to say.