- making more music, getting better & maybe the start of a career and also tour?
- a new, desired, ideal boyfriend, in a perfect, desired, ideal relationship w me lol
- hopefully my ex fiancé coming back/showing up so ik he's alive, hopefully for him 2 fight for me, show me he loves me, maybe us getting back together
- getting tattoos, going to the gym, later starting HRT so I can become the Jake I always dreamed of being,
- manifesting my ideal appearance/self & life
- making new friends, friends in general. im lonely
- new clothes, shopping, new shoes, etc
- FINALLY finishing my social work year & be able to start studying AKA MOVING OUTTTTTT (ill turn 23 in aug, fml)
- moving out, away from my toxic fam, old habits, old & toxic past n city
moving out, & having my first own apartment or house (who knows, maybe music & finances will be good for me); decorating it, buying the new furniture, making new memories
- starting my life, amplifying it & myself til I move out and am able to be myself (HRT, growth hormones, being bi n mlm, etc)
- manifesting being/becoming my perfect, desired, ideal self living my perfect, desired, ideal, best life w/ all my wants, desires & needs lol
- be tall, pretty n hot, successful as a musician, have my desired bf & relationship, my old fiancé is back, friends, money, success tats, & move out n start my life
- be able to end my life if i need, have, or just want to.
though i have dreams & desires, it all hurts too much. life hurts too much, existing. its a burden and not worth it,
the old pain will still prevail n win. life is beautiful, but not for me.