underairpressure

underairpressure

Member
Nov 30, 2025
39
No matter how small or "insignificant"

2025 was an actual hell year for me, and I don't have much hope for that stopping......... so I'm holding onto the "little things". I'm hopeful I'll be able to walk/run again (currently injured), and also excited for the next chapter of Deltarune to come out.
 
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maylurker

Experienced
Dec 28, 2025
275
i hope this year will be the end of my isolation
 
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RosebyAnyName

RosebyAnyName

Staring at the ceiling for 6 hours
Nov 9, 2023
379
I will finally get to move out, everything is already set up but my move out date isn't until January.

Not too excited to figure out how I will meet my social needs since I'll be living alone + I completely failed my previous resolution to make more friends.
 
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ceelobling

ceelobling

Member
Dec 29, 2025
83
I want to finally decide if I want to live or not. I'm always going back and forth in my mind. Every time I say I'm gonna do it, I can't bring myself to do it. I need to make a final decision.
 
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boyafraid

boyafraid

Walking Paradox
Oct 27, 2025
30
It's hard to think of small ones off the top of my head. One huge thing is that one of my best friends will be having a baby in late January, or early February so I'm pretty excite about that. Sadly, not much else going on lol.

Hope you recover soon and can start running again (:
 
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jomarchhh

jomarchhh

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Dec 30, 2025
1
literally just reading
 
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daruino

Member
Nov 9, 2025
52
Yes,.. I will also be trying to focus more on the positive (little) things! I've also decided that I need to stop stressing about making decisions, and having stuff figured out. I'm looking forward to accept life with that mindset; other than that I don't have anything in particular I look forward to. I will just go with the flow!
 
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calebzz1

calebzz1

What is it like to see single and clearly?
Jan 6, 2024
167
I'm looking forward to obtaining disability benefits if my visual impairment doesn't improve and is more permanent in nature.

Once I secure that, then I can begin treatment to hopefully improve my symptoms across the board and go back on the first route i.e. going back to work, starting community college, continuing to learn how to drive and fully enjoying my old hobbies.

I'm also excited to enter more sweepstakes and giveaways as well.
 
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DesertLand

DesertLand

Member
Mar 20, 2025
8
i wish i could stop being isolated, i have no one to talk to, no one loving me
 
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mr-ant-tennas

mr-ant-tennas

cat petterz
Dec 29, 2025
14
I want to finally decide if I want to live or not. I'm always going back and forth in my mind. Every time I say I'm gonna do it, I can't bring myself to do it. I need to make a final decision.
Same here. I am having second thoughts about my CTB, and I would like to be sure.
 
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not yet

not yet

there will be absolutely no miracles
Nov 9, 2025
22
I'm waiting for the release of the new Silent Hill games, Resident Evil Requiem, Silksong DLC, for the rest of Deltarune chapters and news on Fumito Ueda's fourth game. Kinda excited to see what the Steel Ball Run anime will be like. I'm also waiting for my online friend to return from the army so I can be in contact with him again, and I hope we can continue reading/watching/playing all sorts of things together and discussing it, enjoying each other's company
 
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ratherbeenaborted

New Member
Dec 3, 2025
4
I am enlisting in the us armed forces. I am not bootlicker, I just believe the structure and purpose will help me be the person I actually want to be. Plus I can finally move out and afford to go to college.

I really do believe that this year is the turnaround point.
 
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INYGTRMTFMO

I Need Your Grace To Remind Me To Find My Own
May 1, 2025
185
* Starting EDMR therapy soon!
* Continuing to watch the child grow up
* Maaaaaybe we'll get to see Haunted Chocolatier this year?
 
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ctwc

Member
Jun 17, 2022
68
Finding a resolution.

Life has surprised me many times before, who knows. A lot can happen in a year
 
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Heraskov

Heraskov

Member
Dec 25, 2025
10
I'll be moving away from my family's home later this year to go to a college (I just recently entered legal adulthood a few months ago, so the new autonomy of that--of becoming a man in this world--is slowing unraveling itself to my life). Last year, I realized that my eventual hope in this life is to join a monastic community, likely somewhere here in America.

To elaborate on that, I've had a lot of varied troubles these past few years and, in prayer and contemplation, reflecting on those troubles has swayed me towards the idea of monkhood; of making use of my life by dedicating as much of my physicality and mentality as I can to my God, rather than just the dedication of my spirituality to Him.

However, with the privilege I've received of being able to go to a university, I hope to first use the time I'll spend there to grow and truly understand my place in this world, that way I'll actually figure out whether I'd like to maintain a life in this world or instead seek to live my life as a monk. So, this year should be one of discovery.
 
trying ungracefully

trying ungracefully

Student
Jun 11, 2025
122
Losing weight. I started in November and it has been going okay with some slip ups. I am at an unhealthy weight still but I lost
8.5lb
which is pretty nice because I have been focusing on diet since I don't want to do much a lot with my depression. My diet does need to get better too though because even though I am eating less I am still eating mainly processed foods lol.

I also am looking forward to being in e better spot. Last year at some random point, I don't know, I put in my calendar for January 1st "am I in a better spot?" and I didn't define it at all. I like that I didn't define it because I've changed in different ways I wouldn't have thought of. I'm still not in the spot I want but it is so much better,

I am looking forward mostly to working to deal with agoraphobia and getting a job at some point and starting to save to move out. I have more motivation too because my younger brother turned 18 in October and is already talking about moving out and I am not about to let him get out of the house before me that will truly add to suicidal ideation, I am getting thoughts just thinking of it.
 
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j1nxxb0yjj4ke

Member
Jun 26, 2023
77
- making more music, getting better & maybe the start of a career and also tour?

- a new, desired, ideal boyfriend, in a perfect, desired, ideal relationship w me lol

- hopefully my ex fiancé coming back/showing up so ik he's alive, hopefully for him 2 fight for me, show me he loves me, maybe us getting back together

- getting tattoos, going to the gym, later starting HRT so I can become the Jake I always dreamed of being,

- manifesting my ideal appearance/self & life

- making new friends, friends in general. im lonely

- new clothes, shopping, new shoes, etc

- FINALLY finishing my social work year & be able to start studying AKA MOVING OUTTTTTT (ill turn 23 in aug, fml)

- moving out, away from my toxic fam, old habits, old & toxic past n city
moving out, & having my first own apartment or house (who knows, maybe music & finances will be good for me); decorating it, buying the new furniture, making new memories

- starting my life, amplifying it & myself til I move out and am able to be myself (HRT, growth hormones, being bi n mlm, etc)

- manifesting being/becoming my perfect, desired, ideal self living my perfect, desired, ideal, best life w/ all my wants, desires & needs lol

- be tall, pretty n hot, successful as a musician, have my desired bf & relationship, my old fiancé is back, friends, money, success tats, & move out n start my life

- be able to end my life if i need, have, or just want to.

though i have dreams & desires, it all hurts too much. life hurts too much, existing. its a burden and not worth it,
the old pain will still prevail n win. life is beautiful, but not for me.
 
Spicy Tteokbokki

Spicy Tteokbokki

매운 떡볶이
Oct 11, 2020
333
Summer!
I absolutely LOVE biking really far while jamming to music and feeling the warmth of the sun hitting my naked skin.
 
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DepressedSimp

Member
Nov 8, 2025
20
No matter how small or "insignificant"

2025 was an actual hell year for me, and I don't have much hope for that stopping......... so I'm holding onto the "little things". I'm hopeful I'll be able to walk/run again (currently injured), and also excited for the next chapter of Deltarune to come out.
I'm looking forward to seeing how the boys ends.
 
MyLastTour

MyLastTour

Member
Dec 6, 2025
30
My gf moving in at some point has been the one thing tethering me here, but if I knew how long it would be before that happened, I would have CTB a long time ago. Still, here's hoping it happens this year, because that'll guarantee that I won't be going anywhere for the foreseeable future unless the world goes the direction I worry it will. Other than that, I also look forward to shroom season coming up down here.

Got a bunch of games on my backlog that I know will be peak.

Also looking forward to getting back to my muay thai classes on the regular.
 
snowisfalling

snowisfalling

Member
Jan 2, 2026
7
Obligatory "nothing".

In actuality, I am looking forward to my hair (one of the only things about myself that I liked) growing out, after I foolishly butchered it.

Otherwise, I may relapse into anorexia this year (I'm not stupid enough to think this would be a "glow up" or a good thing; in actuality I feel it is a reprehensible and life-denying behavior). Plan to continue having the same relationship with media as I did this year (nothing interests me, can't really remember what I read or watch, used to enjoy a couple sitcom-type shows but I'm not watching those anymore).

To me, there is no meaning to be found in life that isn't corrosive. I don't find my story or narrative to be one that exists in coherence with this deeply ill society. I am incapable of seeing depth or beauty in, say, anime. And much literature that people recommend.

Posters on here remind me of some of the optimism I once felt in my youth, and I admire that and hope that they can till the seeds of said hope, rather than desperately trying to cling to vapors of delusion, as I have done.
 

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