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LilGhost

LilGhost

Shark
Apr 8, 2026
37
Do you have must-haves you want to experience before you are gone?
for me its:
  • crochet for my each of my friends something small as a way to say goodbye
  • Write ctb letters
  • clean my room
  • try whiskey (dunno, every time Im choosing alcohol, i cant seem to find good whiskey, so I end up with cider or wine)
  • have picnic outdoors (optional only if my friends up to it, so it is optional)
  • finish hollow knight
  • play a good game of chess
I will probably ctb by the end of July and tho im trying to survive that long, but considering how shit keep hitting the fan, I might end it in few weeks as I am going insane
 
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NotSoEnchanted

NotSoEnchanted

⚡️
Dec 26, 2025
176
-Celebrate my dogs birthday (May 4th) and spoil him with steak, shrimp, a homemade cake, and presents

-Have a goodbye dinner with part of my family

-finish and revise my letters

-clean my home and get rid of things I don't want others to find. I want my home to be clean/inviting incase my family from out of state would like to stay in it while they're sorting through my stuff and whatnot

-Take my dog on one last memorable hike

I really hope this month will be my last. I've been delayed as I was supposed to have my goodbye dinner last month, but my family is sick right now so that's on hold. I would have liked to be free to leave when pleased right after my dog's birthday, but that's unfortunately not going to be the case. I have just a few more ends to tie.
 
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bl33ding_heart

bl33ding_heart

Borderline
Jun 24, 2025
346
What I would really like to do before catching the bus is experience life without the restrains of my toxic and controlling family. Although things are only getting more and more painful and difficult and it's not guaranteed I'll be able to hold out for much longer. :/
 
Gomomon

Gomomon

The Mentally Loud Overthinker
Feb 24, 2026
63
Do you have must-haves you want to experience before you are gone?
for me its:
  • crochet for my each of my friends something small as a way to say goodbye
  • Write ctb letters
  • clean my room
  • try whiskey (dunno, every time Im choosing alcohol, i cant seem to find good whiskey, so I end up with cider or wine)
  • have picnic outdoors (optional only if my friends up to it, so it is optional)
  • finish hollow knight
  • play a good game of chess
I will probably ctb by the end of July and tho im trying to survive that long, but considering how shit keep hitting the fan, I might end it in few weeks as I am going insane
Finishing Hollow Knight is so real, it's still on my Switch waiting for me to finish it haha
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,228
No, I've never had any interest in something as torturous and dreadful as existing and all I want is to erase this terrible, cruel existence so it's like I never suffered at all, to be conscious burdened with this painful, dreadful existence is just always an abomination to me.

All that existence ever does is just cause all this terrible torture and suffering and it's so dreadful how this existence was even imposed at all causing all this cruelty and suffering as a result, all I want is to permanently cease existing with all gone and forgotten, all I see as desirable is the true permanent peace of non-existence, it's just so horrific to me how existence just tortures existing beings with no limit as to how much agony one can feel.
 

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