Discussion Things you want to do before deleting yourself

[Cirno]

Personally, here's my list:
-I want to see how being high feels. This isn't legal in my country, so I had to spill some sweat to make my achievement happen, but it was worth it.
-I want to have sex at least one time before I die, to see how it feels like
-I want to write a couple of notes to people that I met along my life, and those close and not close to me, to let them know how I truly feel about them
-I want to let know my psychiatrist that I didn't make it, since I don't want to disappear without a word like that
-I'm an artist, so I want to draw my attempt, before it, so it could be displayed somewhere after
-I want to leave a general note about what made me do it, since I don't want to leave anyone wondering ans making up stories
And finally
-I want to stream my final act to share it with people who want to see my last moments

What's your wishes? What are your must do before your final decision?

 

[Lily6759]

- Make sure someone I live with looks after my cat
- Come out to my family (I'm trans, once they find out i expect them to abandon me, i hope it will lessen any kind of effect dying may have on them, though I barely ever talk to them as it is)
- Spend time with my girlfriend. We're long distance, but working on seeing each other as soon as we can.
- Apoligize to the two people who I believe may be heavily effected.
- Write a brief note about why I plan to do it and make sure whoever finds me, knows that it was no individual persons fault.

The problem with my list is that I'm pretty impulsive with my desire to ctb. I don't think I would be able to message anyone an apology or anything in the moment, I'll just feel that empty feeling and end up going through with it, so long as my SI doesn't kick in.

 

[darksouls]

the only wish I have for my own life is to meet my soulmate because I dont want to be alone when I die

 

[Cirno]

The problem with my list is that I'm pretty impulsive with my desire to ctb. I don't think I would be able to message anyone an apology or anything in the moment, I'll just feel that empty feeling and end up going through with it, so long as my SI doesn't kick in.

Personally, I already started to write my letters in case I get some impulsive actions going on, this way I'll be ready with it when the time comes

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

Nothing .

Even if i didn't have all these problems.

Nothing matters except avoiding extreme pain and suffering

While alive I'm in harm's way

Only in non-existence I'm out of harms way.

Why do I have to live another minute? There is no reason.

Why do have to work so hard risking extreme torture for some meaningless programmed pleasure addiction? I don't

In 120 years every one of the 8 billion humans alive now will be dead. Nothing matters. In 200 years all of us will be forgotten as if we never existed and to us too because we won't exist forever. What will matter in a 1000 years, in a trillion years? Nothing

I see prolifers telling people and me "you have to live you should live ". I say so you want me to be in harms way ,? Why? U want to do my 100 items on my to do list ?. What if I live then get brain damage tomorrow would you feel guilty for causing that by stopping my suicide when I could have been safe from all harm in non-existence.

Non-existence forever is the only guarantee of never suffering extremely, the only guarantee of never suffering so bad it's a trillion times worse than the worst u can imagine

Eternal non-existence no bad memories, no suffering, no pain all problems solved. To me permanent non-existence is much preferable to living in this hell

U forger any crap addiction u do after Death because I will not exist .it will be as if I never existed in the first place . All the horrible garbage will be undone as if it never happened as well as the imposition undone

 

[FuneralCry]

I only wish to not exist, I just want to never suffer in this cruel, torturous existence ever again, I just wish for the peace of an eternal sleep where all is finally forgotten and I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence and I see it as the most terrible tragedy how this existence was imposed.

I'll always see existence as the most dreadful mistake and I wish I never had to suffer more than anything, for me non-existence really is all that's positive and I'd just never wish to be conscious of anything at all rather I only hope for non-existence. I'll just always see existence itself as an abomination that just causes so much pain, suffering and problems there were never a need for with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I find it terrifying how a human can be burdened with this existence for so long just to die in agony from old age, I really will always find it so deeply undesirable to suffer so unnecessarily in this existence just waiting to not exist anyway and I always suffer from being so cruelly denied the option to cease existing peacefully with no more pain and no more suffering, I only want to never wake ever again.

 

[LigottiIsRight]

I want to play a few relatively short games and read some pending books. I haven't much more in mind apart from this. I'd like to do some other things, like traveling, but I lack the resources needed, so I'm at peace with the almost certainty that I won't be doing them.

 

[StupidCat]

I want to fuck

 

[diopdawe]

I wanna hug my daughter one last time... :-(

 

[RiverOfLife]

I want to make sure my mother's ashes are interred with my father.
I want to make sure the paperwork is done to make my estate is easy to handle.
I'd like to visit a wolf sanctuary. Probably impossible, but that would be cool.

 

[WhiteRabbit]

I'd like to go to the beach one last time.

 

[encore]

i really, really want to have a very long hug. not just from anyone though, which is the trickiest part in the equation lol.

 

[slowdance]

I want to write a will

 

[Unbearable Mr. Bear]

Try some Marijuana
Have absolutely mind-blowing sex
Eat everything I ever wanted to try
Donate all my money to some cool charity
Make sure my organs are to be donated as well

 

[LetMeOut67]

Visit certain European mainland countries

 

[NEETHELL]

I'd like to go Japan once

 

[Daenerys Targaryen]

Smok my first and last Maria's hookah on the beach with a hippie. I'd love to

 

[SeekingSerenity]

I wanna hug my daughter one last time... :-(

I totally understand that feeling.