Venting Things Said To Me For Being Suicidal

[AngelTear]

"Your life is valuable"

"I care about you"

"Don't do that"

"I hope you can get better"

"It does/can get better"

"I would be very sad, so sad"

"That's a sin"

"I wish I could help you :("

"but you disappearing is not the right thing to do; giving in to things outside of your control is losing"

"It's not over yet"

"Satan is the cause of all your suffering"

"I'm gonna call the cops on you for talking like that"
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Some are copied verbatim. This is what I fucking mean when no one truly knows how to handle a suicidal person. Hearing this shit (and some of them so often it makes people sound like NPCs) DOES NOT MAKE ME WANT TO LIVE. If anything it pisses me off more and makes me feel like I'm being gaslit, undermined, and not taken seriously. I GENUINELY FEEL FUCKING INSANE EVERY TIME SOMEONE SAYS SOME SHIT LIKE THIS TO ME.

If anything I've felt better when people straight up just tell me to kill myself and tell me how to do it, at least it seems like they fucking understand. Then when you finally do kill yourself everyone is like oh I wish I could've done more to stop them!! WAH!!! I swear to God no one truly cares to lessen your suffering, I've said it before and I'll say it again- WORDS DON'T DO SHIT. Not for me anyways. The religious based ones especially piss me off.

If you cared why do you ignore my suffering? Why do you contribute to it? Why don't you do more than give me words and advice and not take action? Eh... I'm being naive again. Like someone would go through so much trouble to just ease my pain for me lol. I'm just another poor fucking bastard that's dispensable.

 

[58Alice85]

Those sayings were so disgusting
they are all just gibberish just to get a certain reaction
this is why i hate normies

 

[AngelTear]

Those sayings were so disgusting
they are all just gibberish just to get a certain reaction
this is why i hate normies

Yeah, this is also why I feel stupid for telling anyone about being suicidal and generally keep it to myself.

 

[Macedonian1987]

If suicide is a sin, then isn't the suffering that drove someone to commit suicide also a sin?

Not everyone's life is valuable. Some people are just plain useless and burden to society - like myself.

It rarely does get better, most of the time it gets worse. It got worse for me.

Cops don't give a damn about you. At least they don't in my country. So why call them?


Those would be my responses if someone said those things to me.

 

[AngelTear]

If suicide is a sin, then isn't the suffering that drove someone to commit suicide also a sin?

Not everyone's life is valuable. Some people are just plain useless and burden to society - like myself.

It rarely does get better, most of the time it gets worse. It got worse for me.

Cops don't give a damn about you. At least they don't in my country. So why call them?


Those would be my responses if someone said those things to me.

The cops one was supposed to be for forced hospitalization. Here in the USA if they believe you are a threat to yourself or others they can forcibly hospitalize you...the only good thing is that our services for mental health are so shit it doesn't always happen and only happens in extreme cases. First and last time I was ever hospitalized I called the suicide hotline myself (I was naive back then and foolishly thought it would help me) and ended up being force to stay in a hospital for roughly ~12 or so days counting the 72 hour hold in the hospital before moving to the mental hospital.

My time there was shit and did nothing to make me feel better (I'm not gonna get into the story rn but believe me it was a shit time). I was let out and ended right back in the same shitty environment, in the same world where no one give a fuck about me, in the same world that's shit and getting shittier...oh and they slapped me with a nearly $2,000 bill the next week too.

Also calling the cops for someone suicidal is the dumbest fucking thing you can do here if you want the person in question to live. Death by cop is a method and our cops are known for being trigger happy too.

That was said by my own mom. Many such cases of my own family saying/doing the dumbest fucking shit imaginable to me.

Another thing I hate is that I feel like I want to tell people about how I feel (a normal human desire to be understood and seen) but every time it's a complete and utter let down. Yet I will still tell people I don't plan on being here long whether they believe me or not.

I also hate how my brain decides to torture me and remember these words...just making me angrier and angrier and more sullen.