Things only get worse and I'm tired of it all

[CaliCatCharlie]

I'm currently facing a situation where I am possibly going to be homeless. The people I am staying with say that I can't stay with them anymore. I'm unable to get a job because my mom never got my important documents after she gave birth to me. I've been trying really hard to get them and it just sends me eternally in a loop and leaves me unable to get them. I don't think any of my siblings will let me live with them because I don't have a job. I just feel like I'm nothing more than a burden to the people around me. I've exhausted my options and feel like there's nothing more I can do. I feel like in the upcoming weeks I'm definitely going to CTB even if it is painful for me. I'd rather be dead than homeless wandering the streets. It's become rather obvious that my life means nothing to anyone, not even my family. Even then I can't help but feel like everything is my fault and that I'm not trying hard enough or doing what I should. But what more can I do? There's nothing left for me to do. I've tried everything to keep my head in shape but it falls back to this pit of darkness every time and there's literally no escape. I've had enough and maybe this is my breaking point. I just hope I can overcome the cowardice and be able to commit to my final plan to CTB because I can no longer deal with this. It'll never change, I'll never be anything and people will still consider me a worthless burden.

 

[FuneralCry]

That sounds like such an awful situation to be in, to me it's horrible how such a thing as homelessness even exists and how existing here can very easily get much worse, this world undeniably is such a hellish place. But anyway I wish you the best with your plans.