Venting Things Keep Getting Worse=Time to CTB

[WanderingGypsy]

I am so unhappy and hopeless and getting closer and closer to the time I plan to ctb. I am finding it harder and harder to find things that bring me any joy in life, and I feel like all I have is pain. My birthday is tomorrow and I don't have any plans, friends haven't really offered and those who have I have declined. I have never felt special and birthdays are just another reminder of that. On top of all the "regular" awfulness, I've applied for a job that I am more than qualified for-in fact I use to have this job several years ago-but doubt I'm going to get it because I don't have the proper license. The organization has changed it policies and now requires a stupid license so they can charge people. I hate the system that it has become and despite my 20+ years of experience in the field, I may not get the job because I don't have the right letters behind my name. I'm so tired of society placing too much on money and making money. I'm done playing the games of what makes you a good person and worthy of society's help and attention. I'm so over all this! I want to be done!
I know so many people understand this and many have it even worse, but I'm done and just needed to vent. I'm sure others understand. But I want to be done.

 

[Pale_Rider]

Some of us just take setbacks really hard. takes a bit to get there, but happens.

 

[Hollowman]

This world's a joke. All I look forward to is being done for good.

 

[WanderingGypsy]

I am so unhappy and hopeless and getting closer and closer to the time I plan to ctb. I am finding it harder and harder to find things that bring me any joy in life, and I feel like all I have is pain. My birthday is tomorrow and I don't have any plans, friends haven't really offered and those who have I have declined. I have never felt special and birthdays are just another reminder of that. On top of all the "regular" awfulness, I've applied for a job that I am more than qualified for-in fact I use to have this job several years ago-but doubt I'm going to get it because I don't have the proper license. The organization has changed it policies and now requires a stupid license so they can charge people. I hate the system that it has become and despite my 20+ years of experience in the field, I may not get the job because I don't have the right letters behind my name. I'm so tired of society placing too much on money and making money. I'm done playing the games of what makes you a good person and worthy of society's help and attention. I'm so over all this! I want to be done!
I know so many people understand this and many have it even worse, but I'm done and just needed to vent. I'm sure others understand. But I want to be done.

Found out yesterday I didn't get the job. I'm so sad and mad! I also found out I have to move soon. I'm so over everything and feel even more useless and unimportant than I ever have. I don't know how much longer I'm able to put up with all this awfulness!

 

[Forever Sleep]

Found out yesterday I didn't get the job. I'm so sad and mad! I also found out I have to move soon. I'm so over everything and feel even more useless and unimportant than I ever have. I don't know how much longer I'm able to put up with all this awfulness!

I'm so sorry you are going through this. I agree, all the red tape and specifications these days are just crazy. One of the very best teachers I ever had (visiting lecturer) ended up being denied their usual project at my old uni because they didn't hold a teaching certificate. I learnt so much from them. So much of what I do today, I learnt from them. It's such a shame that each future class will miss out on their knowledge. Ok, they'll get other people in but, they were something special. The world's gone crazy.