Venting things ill never experience

[tretion]

im sitting here as im tying these knots and realizing im missing out on alot, i mean i still want to die and death would benefit me more than experiencing these things but still, never been in a proper relationship, still a virgin, aint been on my own, never will get married etc, like its crazy that if my trauma never happened i could live a normal life.

this isnt me saying im backing out im just thinking about things

 

[LastNite]

Been there dont limit yourself. Yeh you could feel like youll never experience those things but in reality it's not as difficult as you might think. Thinking negatively time over time will ruin your sense of reality and sense of whats possible and what isnt. I used think I'll never experience friendship and in truth I never did but if you count online friendship then I sort of did experience it. I have a great friend online and if we lived closer we wouldve been best friends. We talk almost everyday. Theres limit to it ofc since its an online friendship. Do i still want to die? sure but was it great experiencing things I wished? Totally. So believe in yourself. You never know one day you might look back at everything and laugh. In five or ten years you could have a whole family to yourself a son a daughter and a wife. Its not out of the realm of possibility.

 

[dontwakemeup]

If at any point you are not sure this is the right decision for you then please hold off on your plans!
There are many people who have went on to live happy and successful lives after traumatic events. Of course there will be needed but it's possible.
Take your time, nobody makes it out of life alive anyways.

 

[tretion]

If at any point you are not sure this is the right decision for you then please hold off on your plans!
There are many people who have went on to live happy and successful lives after traumatic events. Of course there will be needed but it's possible.
Take your time, nobody makes it out of life alive anyways.

im sure on my decision im just still disappointed i'll never experience certain things, i want to die before 20 so i have to die now

Been there dont limit yourself. Yeh you could feel like youll never experience those things but in reality it's not as difficult as you might think. Thinking negatively time over time will ruin your sense of reality and sense of whats possible and what isnt. I used think I'll never experience friendship and in truth I never did but if you count online friendship then I sort of did experience it. I have a great friend online and if we lived closer we wouldve been best friends. We talk almost everyday. Theres limit to it ofc since its an online friendship. Do i still want to die? sure but was it great experiencing things I wished? Totally. So believe in yourself. You never know one day you might look back at everything and laugh. In five or ten years you could have a whole family to yourself a son a daughter and a wife. Its not out of the realm of possibility.

i appreciate the words but

Been there dont limit yourself. Yeh you could feel like youll never experience those things but in reality it's not as difficult as you might think. Thinking negatively time over time will ruin your sense of reality and sense of whats possible and what isnt. I used think I'll never experience friendship and in truth I never did but if you count online friendship then I sort of did experience it. I have a great friend online and if we lived closer we wouldve been best friends. We talk almost everyday. Theres limit to it ofc since its an online friendship. Do i still want to die? sure but was it great experiencing things I wished? Totally. So believe in yourself. You never know one day you might look back at everything and laugh. In five or ten years you could have a whole family to yourself a son a daughter and a wife. Its not out of the realm of possibility.

i appreciate the words but i know that will never happen for me, my life was ruined by the people who should've protected it the most

 

[BradGuy123]

Hello. You said in your first post you had never been in a relationship and you were still a virgin. Then in a reply you said you weren't 20 yet. It is quite common for someone that young to have never had a relationship. I didn't have my first relationship until I was 24. That didn't last all that long. I didn't find a serious long-term relationship until I was in my 30s. I am a huge nerd. I found someone. If there is hope for me, there is hope for everybody. I don't know you or your circumstances. This is easier said than done. But please try to find hobbies and interests and make friends through those activities. I wasted so many years of my life obsessing over the fact that I was single and didn't think I'd ever find anyone. I robbed myself of so much joy in my life. Now that I'm middle aged, I looked back at that with regret. I should have enjoyed being young.

You also mentioned that your life was ruined by people who should have protected you. If you have health insurance please go to a therapist. I literally went to a therapist this past week and she told me the same thing happened to her. You are not alone in what you're going through. So many people experience the same thing. They just put on a happy face and nobody ever knows it. I wish you all the best. Sending you a virtual hug.

 

[shampoo sniffer]

i appreciate the words but i know that will never happen for me, my life was ruined by the people who should've protected it the most

I am the same. 34 years old, never even been kissed. All because of trauma.

 

[tretion]

Hello. You said in your first post you had never been in a relationship and you were still a virgin. Then in a reply you said you weren't 20 yet. It is quite common for someone that young to have never had a relationship. I didn't have my first relationship until I was 24. That didn't last all that long. I didn't find a serious long-term relationship until I was in my 30s. I am a huge nerd. I found someone. If there is hope for me, there is hope for everybody. I don't know you or your circumstances. This is easier said than done. But please try to find hobbies and interests and make friends through those activities. I wasted so many years of my life obsessing over the fact that I was single and didn't think I'd ever find anyone. I robbed myself of so much joy in my life. Now that I'm middle aged, I looked back at that with regret. I should have enjoyed being young.

You also mentioned that your life was ruined by people who should have protected you. If you have health insurance please go to a therapist. I literally went to a therapist this past week and she told me the same thing happened to her. You are not alone in what you're going through. So many people experience the same thing. They just put on a happy face and nobody ever knows it. I wish you all the best. Sending you a virtual hug.

heyy,

yes im 19, but everyone i know has been in relationships and had kids/done something with their lives by now.

i know i could probably get in a relationship but i feel like one its a waste if i do now bc im planning on kms anyway and two the ones who had hit on me were only interested in sex, and when i didnt return that they got aggressive or mean towards me.

i wasn't allowed to go to college so making friends is impossible.

i unfortunately dont have health insurance haha, and tbh even if i did theyd just send me off so rlly theres no point

 

[tretion]

Hello. You said in your first post you had never been in a relationship and you were still a virgin. Then in a reply you said you weren't 20 yet. It is quite common for someone that young to have never had a relationship. I didn't have my first relationship until I was 24. That didn't last all that long. I didn't find a serious long-term relationship until I was in my 30s. I am a huge nerd. I found someone. If there is hope for me, there is hope for everybody. I don't know you or your circumstances. This is easier said than done. But please try to find hobbies and interests and make friends through those activities. I wasted so many years of my life obsessing over the fact that I was single and didn't think I'd ever find anyone. I robbed myself of so much joy in my life. Now that I'm middle aged, I looked back at that with regret. I should have enjoyed being young.

You also mentioned that your life was ruined by people who should have protected you. If you have health insurance please go to a therapist. I literally went to a therapist this past week and she told me the same thing happened to her. You are not alone in what you're going through. So many people experience the same thing. They just put on a happy face and nobody ever knows it. I wish you all the best. Sending you a virtual hug.

forgot to say, i thank you for your words and sending you a virtual hug back

I am the same. 34 years old, never even been kissed. All because of trauma.

same here, im sorry though